Distancing oneself from family

First off, I wish to thank those of you who sent me your insights as to my current, and ongoing, challenge with my son. It makes me feel so much better knowing I am not alone in this predicament, that of mothers and sons hitting snags.

Interestingly enough, within the midst of my pain I completely forgot that a few women that I already know have had exactly the same things happen to them with their sons - those sons with whom they had a very strong relationship, prior to their marriages. So while I know that this happens to a lot of us mothers, it is still a shock to have it happening to me.

While at the gym this morning, it was a man who said something to me that I of course already knew but had simply misplaced in my consciousness.

I mentioned that I had had similar experiences with both my father, my grandfather, my brother and of course, now my son. In all these instances it had been intense anger directed at me for reasons completely unknown to me. I said "How come ALL the men in my lineage did that to me and why had I chosen to be born into such dysfunction?"

His answer to me was this.....You were born into this earth family to learn "who you are". You are a strong woman and these challenges are only here to help you grow into an even stronger woman. While this makes sense, it is so very hard for me being such a sensitive Soul.

I called my daughter to see if she had had any contact with her brother lately and had she been over to see her new niece. She burst into tears and said no. Her birthday was a couple of weeks ago and it was a special one - the Big 30. There was a big party thrown for her and it was great but neither her brother nor her sister in law had wished her a happy birthday. There was a message on her phone but none of her phone calls has been returned. She is also quite devastated. She too had been very close to her brother but is having a hard time understanding this as well. Seems it is not simply ME, his Mother ,that he is pushing away but also his sister. Feels like he is wanting to distance himself from his entire birth family. So again, I know that I am not alone.

My partner, who has also has had some horrible experiences when it comes to family, is now incredibly angry as he feels that all of this is somehow his fault. Can't get him to understand that my son has been in my life for over thirty years and similar disrespectful experiences have occurred time and time again not just the past three, which is the time that this man has been in my life. When he held my little granddaughter for the first time, his heart burst open and the comment that my son made about having to protect his daughter from us has been like a stab in the heart. Very sad for him as well.

I have decided that for the good of all, I just need to suck it up and hope that all is well with the three of them - mother, father and child - and be there when they choose to ask me into their lives once again.

I want to call.

I want to go and hold my granddaughter but there is a great fear/anxiety within me at what the response will be to that phone call.

But for today, I will try to resonate with all that is good within and without.

Blessings abound - I am just having a hard time seeing clearly where these blessings will take us all.

Namaste

link to new blog address

I just realized that I did not give the correct url for navigating to the new blog so for those of you who didn't realize that you could have just googled it, here you go.

www.katricesinspirationforthesoul.blogspot.com

Looking forward to sharing with you all over there.......

Blessings from Katrice

moving to Katrice's Inspiration for the Soul

So this is the official last posting for Katrice's Musings. It is time for a change and I know that you will enjoy the new and improved Musings as I share them from a higher place of consciousness. My new blog can be found at Katrice's Inspiration for the Soul so feel free to stop by, take a deep breath and feel the resonance as my Soul reachings out through the ethers to uplift and inspire one page at a time. I'm here to help you for, as Spirit moves through me, it also moves through you opening you to a higher way of being and living in the life that you are choosing.

Thank you to all of you who have been following my ramblings. I'll still be sharing my life but with a new focus on bringing more light into my day and hopefully into yours.

Be well, stay focussed and tune in as you resonate with the true calling of your Soul.

I extend my hand to you. Feel free to hold on and walk with me into the future.

Namaste

the end of this Blog

This could possibly be the end of Katrice's Musings as some things have come to light with respect to the work that I do and the content of this particular blog. So that being said, I am going to be closing down Katrice's Musing within the next day or two.

I will be starting a brand new Blog to replace it. The format will no longer be my ramblings on life but an inspirational column dealing with life in 3d. This is what I had originally intended to be using this for but unfortunately it became my on line "diary". While I like to be an open book, it has come to my attention that I should stop sharing so much of my private life and instead, use my own life's lessons to assist those of you who will resonate with the thoughts that I will soon be sharing.

I am thinking of renaming my blog Katrice's Soul Manual or Soul Musings or something like that. Once I have it up and running, I will share the new listing and hopefully more important and enlightening information will be heading your way real soon,.

To all of you who have diligently followed along with my trials and tribulations, I send you words of thanks. If you lose me along the way, you can always check my website at www.intuitiveinspiration.com for older inspirational articles as well as see what my work is really all about. And feel free to connect for a session or two, either in person or remotely. For we are all ONE and whether we are in physical proximity or not, the energies still flow fluidly from me to you.

A new day and a new me..........isn't that what it is all about. Growing and learning and sharing our truths with others from a deep compassionate place within our heart.

That is my wish for this next part of the journey.

Stay tuned................

deep reflections

What a week this has been. Some wonderful meetings and then some incredibly judgemental barbs being thrown my way.

Just had a quick conversation with my son who is, at it turns out, a very wise OLD Soul. Thanks sonny boy. He made me realize that perhaps I spend too much time seeing myself through the eyes of others instead of seeking the deeper reflection in my own mirror. And what a mirror that has been this past 24 hours.

For instance I am questioning the path that I have been on for so many years. Most of my time is spent assisting others on THEIR path, all the while forgetting about my own next steps. This being Human is such a strange ride.

Where is it that I are judging my own sweet Self? Where am I perhaps not paying attention to the call of my Heart - that place deep within that is simply seeking to accept and love ME? So much to look at today.

Mercury is supposed to be going direct again today and perhaps all these inconsistencies are simply the end of it all, moving me into a deeper place of alignment with what is next. And what is next I have to say?

Big BIG sigh.........

However, the sun is shining and if that wind ever dies down I might just be able to lay on the beach and soak up some of the Sun's healing rays. My head hurts and my stomach is unsettled. Sheesh..........

But I wish you all well as you too move into a deeper place with your own Sweet Self.

Namaste

just a test

Been having some computer woes so want to see if this is going to work. Thanks for your patience.

Katrice

Summer seems to finally have arrived......

It is a beautiful day out there and I am feeling very content with my lot in life.

Just had a phone call from someone very special who mentioned that my age as listed on various sites is different. BUSTED....... Makes me realize that there are no things you can or should be hiding from the world. When we are dishonest about little things, it makes one wonder if there are other things that may not be in alignment within our own Souls. When we lie about things to others we are simply lying to ourselves and that is not the way to live in this world. From this moment onwards, I make a solemn oath to myself to be honest with not only myself but with everyone so that I can share this REAL being in every moment. Thank you Isaac.

There have been many instances of late when I have been made to look in the mirror and honestly view the reflection that is shining back to me. So much of my life has been trying to be something other than the truth with others with the direct affect of having this dishonesty reflected back to me. Bringing in people who are not who they say they are and then trying to figure out what exactly it is that I am bringing in to my life. Big LESSON here.

So for today, and for the rest of my time here, I am being ME with an acceptance of all that I am and all that I can be, knowing it is all good and real true and filled with the loving essence of my Soul..

May your day be filled with love, joy and laughter.

Namaste

what a difference a few hours makes

I just had a wonderful meditation circle with some beautiful souls. Makes me realize that THIS is what I do best. Feel so very fulfilling. And it is a very good thing because something from the past resurfaced today. It has been almost 9 months since I have had to deal with this situation. But thankfully I have learned so much about me this past same 9 months. I know a different woman will stand within the energy this time. Hmmmmmmmm, 9 months - a typical gestation period. I guess you could say a rebirth is upon me.

During my circle this evening I was amazed at how I managed to get it all into the 2 hour time frame that I had set out…..without any stress or angst. Spirit just weaved through me and it all came together in perfect divine order. Felt such amazing energy and support from the Light and yes, it was the light that I felt, connecting with and through me. I feel blessed.

It is in these moments that I feel my Soul sing and all is right with my world. I have a meeting scheduled with someone tomorrow regarding a Volunteer role at a hospice for terminally ill people. My offering to them will be in the form of meditation circles as a support during these trying times – giving of my gifts to these transitioning Souls as a service to Source.

While the money might not be flowing in swiftly at this time, there is a minimum of stress. I find that there is a certain amount of money I like to see in the bank at any given time and as long as it stays above this LINE for me, I feel abundant. And I seem to be doing it which still amazes me. Perhaps I really am being supported by the Universe.

That’s a wonderful thought and I choose to embrace it as the Universe embraces me.

What we give out, we receive back - but multiplied - to the extent that we open ourselves to receive.

We are all One.

Namaste

weird energies swirling around today

WOW......has this day been a blur. Been trying to get it together since an early morning instant message from someone from the past. Didn't realize how much that little connection would affect my entire energy field. Methinks there is still work to be done there. BUT please God/Goddess let me handle the rest of my life without this becoming so all consuming.

Sigh..........I'll be fine. I know that this is simply something to do with the Full Moon of Saturday. One of the most intense ones I've personally felt in a very long while. My meditation circle tonight is focussing on the personality's resistance to fully letting go of its control due to deeply entrenched conditioning and unconquered shadow residue. Hence the connection with this Soul from the past. Had thought I HAD let go of that energy but from the reaction that I am moving within, it appears that I have NOT. Will this never end.

I do remember times in the past when trying to detach from this Soul connection, I would lament that I would not be fully released from this energetic cord until this Being left the Earth's realm. I have ALWAYS been able to let go of people when it was time but this one will not release it's grip. Even though we have not conversed for almost 9 months, still the old energy was RIGHT THERE front and centre - almost as if it was ready to begin anew. Another chance to continue the work that we are here to do together.

But then of course I could be just full of poop........who the heck knows.

At this very moment however a bright bit of light. The phone company is changing my services and upgrading the speed of my internet connection and it will save me....yup...SAVE ME almost $15.00 a month. THIS is good so I am choosing to see this as a LIGHT at the end of the tunnel. Anything that is a positive energy works for me right now.

So blah blah blah......not the most inspirational message for this moment but it is what it is.