well I did it. The manuscript is now winging it's way off to the first publisher. I say "first" publisher because I am planning on submitting it to a number of different publishers. I must say that my heart is racing right now though as this is a big deal. WOW........
A little overwhelmed to be sure. I sit here looking at the corner of my desk with a hard copy of it staring back at me. I am including the synopsis for the story here for you to read. Let me know is these words make you WANT to read the story. I know that I enjoyed writing it and of course, a writer writes so that others may enjoy the words so if you are interested in a copy of the manuscript let me know.
Need to step away from the computer for a bit now but I will return.
Blessings and Aloha
Synopsis for SWEET SACRED LOVE
The story revolves around the relationship between a 50 something white female (Kaitlin Sinclaire) and a 38 year old black man (Damian Cox).
She is a well known Author and Seminar leader in the field of personal growth. Her specialty is in bringing the sacred and the spiritual into sexual relationships. She is beautiful and extremely sensual but has not been in a relationship for the past 4 years since her husband and business partner, Bradley, died. She is an extremely private person but while she sometimes thinks about another relationship, she has been trying to live without one.
Her home is an estate with two swimming pools and guest rooms as she has many private clients who come to stay with her for weeklong intensives. She also travels to other parts of the world bringing her message to large groups.
The story opens with Damian arriving at the estate in response to an invite to interview for a position as Kaitlin’s personal assistant/trainer/bodyguard. He has been fantasizing about meeting her since first hearing her voice on the phone. The voice seems to activate him sexually and it has been driving him nuts. After securing the interview and checking her out extensively over the Internet, he is even more interested in meeting her. He has a very active libido and from the moment that she opens the door to her home, his arousal level is activated big time.
Damian is a musician/composer who is still trying to break into the business but he has responded to the ad for this position because he is also a personal trainer, has acted as a bodyguard and bouncer AND has a marketing/business degree. This job seems tailor made for him. He is also looking forward to trying to bed her as one of his long line of conquests. He is a beautiful man who has never had a problem with the ladies but once he gets to know Kaitlin, his whole idea about the man/woman thing shifts.
The position is a live in one, as she wants to have him available whenever she is in town plus he will be traveling with her whenever she goes out of town. He is given a cottage on the property as well as the use of one of the garages, which she lets him use as his recording studio.
When he decides to interview for the position, he finds that his usual cocky demeanor is slapped down by her powerful persona and the combination of beauty and power has him over a barrel. Over the course of the next few months however, she finds herself responding to his very sexual energy, even while he is trying to keep it to himself. He is also finding that there is a fear in getting sexual with her and this is not something that has ever happened to him.
He has always been the one in control of his sexuality and here, with this woman; he is finding that he alternates between being a horny schoolboy and a very frustrated man. Once they do start to connect sexually, there is a constant push and pull going on that only heats up with each connection.
They are both uneasy however about actually starting something because of their difference in age. She is about 15 years older than him but in very good shape. He is G.Q. handsome and has women falling all over him. But, since connecting with her, he can’t seem to connect with the younger women that he has always pursued and been pursued by, as his mind is constantly dwelling on her.
The heat between the two of them continually expands and with time they start to realize that they just might have something to work with here.
He becomes the perfect student for her and she soon finds herself falling in love with him. He is also becoming aware that there is more here than simply great sex. They are both very oral and she starts to come to grips with this part of her. She had always judged herself for enjoying some of what others might consider too harsh sexually but with Damian, she finds that her sexuality is completely freed and she starts to relish her role as sexual aggressor.
They find that their natural sexual rhythm is completely in sync and soon Damian finds himself starting to understand the sacred role that sex has in a relationship.
At one of her weekend seminars they meet another couple that are similar in age to Kaitlin and Damian. When this couple shares how their relationship started with an extremely HOT sexual component, Kaitlin and Damian start to reassess just what their relationship really is.
They soon come to realize that they are in love with the other and decide to go for it, with wonderful results.
Thursday, May 31, 2007
Wednesday, May 30, 2007
good day
i am so glad that I have this blog.......blog blog blog........I have become a full time blogger, even if I only write a few paragraphs here daily but I WRITE which was the main reason that I started it. It feels strange if I don't sign in daily and that is such a boost to me and my ability to continue on with something that I started especially when it pertains to - shall I say this again -WRITING.
I am feeling rather odd today however since the story is finished. I have been working with it for over 2 months and now that it is finished, there is a part of me that feels like something is wrong. BUT, the great thing is that now I get to start another one....big grin.
That is the great part about being a writer, there is never a time when I can't simply do something else. And there is no fear that it won't happen because, well, my mind never stops and there is always something to say. I love to write and now that the summer is here, I can take my breaks by going 2 blocks down the street to spend time on the beach. YUP! I live 2 blocks from the beach and being able to stand up and stretch, get into my suit (or not....smile) and wander down to the warm sand, with the breezes blowing is such a high. I am feeling rather blessed to say the least.
And again, the sun is shining and I have a pretty new outfit to wear out today. Today is one of the days when I get to be the little enlightened one, bringing a sense of the sacred in the lives of others. I am an Intuitive Counsellor/Vibrational Healer when I am not writing and today I head over to the West Coast Institute of Mystic Arts.....catchy name eh? I go there on Wednesday afternoons and also teach various Metaphysical classes when time permits. Today however, I am the resident Reader/Healer and will be available for whoever walks in the door. I am expecting a few people today for sure though as the energies have shifted for me lately and I have put it out into cyberspace that I am ready, willing and able to work a couple of days a week at this craft so that I can really write full time which is my main focus now. So come on down if you live in the Vancouver area or simply connect with me through here as I do this work remotely too. It still amazes me how I can tune in to others whether I know them or not, whether they are in front of me or not.
We are all interconnected and doing the work that I do reinforces this fact daily. And of course the Internet is such a useful tool if we can use it in positive uplifting ways. I know that there are many out there who feel it is a very negative thing but perhaps they just haven't got the right idea about it.
Anyway, I'm off to spread my brand of Light and Love to the world outside today.
Can you feel it?
Blessings and Aloha
I am feeling rather odd today however since the story is finished. I have been working with it for over 2 months and now that it is finished, there is a part of me that feels like something is wrong. BUT, the great thing is that now I get to start another one....big grin.
That is the great part about being a writer, there is never a time when I can't simply do something else. And there is no fear that it won't happen because, well, my mind never stops and there is always something to say. I love to write and now that the summer is here, I can take my breaks by going 2 blocks down the street to spend time on the beach. YUP! I live 2 blocks from the beach and being able to stand up and stretch, get into my suit (or not....smile) and wander down to the warm sand, with the breezes blowing is such a high. I am feeling rather blessed to say the least.
And again, the sun is shining and I have a pretty new outfit to wear out today. Today is one of the days when I get to be the little enlightened one, bringing a sense of the sacred in the lives of others. I am an Intuitive Counsellor/Vibrational Healer when I am not writing and today I head over to the West Coast Institute of Mystic Arts.....catchy name eh? I go there on Wednesday afternoons and also teach various Metaphysical classes when time permits. Today however, I am the resident Reader/Healer and will be available for whoever walks in the door. I am expecting a few people today for sure though as the energies have shifted for me lately and I have put it out into cyberspace that I am ready, willing and able to work a couple of days a week at this craft so that I can really write full time which is my main focus now. So come on down if you live in the Vancouver area or simply connect with me through here as I do this work remotely too. It still amazes me how I can tune in to others whether I know them or not, whether they are in front of me or not.
We are all interconnected and doing the work that I do reinforces this fact daily. And of course the Internet is such a useful tool if we can use it in positive uplifting ways. I know that there are many out there who feel it is a very negative thing but perhaps they just haven't got the right idea about it.
Anyway, I'm off to spread my brand of Light and Love to the world outside today.
Can you feel it?
Blessings and Aloha
Tuesday, May 29, 2007
Moving right along
So I did it........26, 135 words......the manuscript that is. Needed 25,000 and initially the thought was a bit daunting but once the flow was engaged the words just kept coming and voila! Done.
Now on to the final edit this morning, come up with the synopsis and still looking for a title but I'm sure it will come to me in a flash of brilliance or stupidity, somehow. Funny that I never had a title for it and hadn't even considered one. Strange for sure but I'm not going to concern myself with it right now. It seems that the writer in me comes up with what is necessary when it is time. Still getting used to this part of me but I have to admit that I like her.........smile
The weather is definitely moving in to the realm of summer and for that I am truly grateful. Going to Kauai at the time that I did was a perfect seque into Vancouver summertime. The birds are singing away, the trees outside my window are starting to fill out with all the summer foliage, making it much more private in my little sacred space and the air is fresh as it drifts through the windows.
Not really much to say this morning as I am sitting here looking at the last few pages that I have yet to edit. So I think I'll get at it right now.
Have a wonderful day full of sunshine and I will talk with you all soon.
Blessings and Aloha
Now on to the final edit this morning, come up with the synopsis and still looking for a title but I'm sure it will come to me in a flash of brilliance or stupidity, somehow. Funny that I never had a title for it and hadn't even considered one. Strange for sure but I'm not going to concern myself with it right now. It seems that the writer in me comes up with what is necessary when it is time. Still getting used to this part of me but I have to admit that I like her.........smile
The weather is definitely moving in to the realm of summer and for that I am truly grateful. Going to Kauai at the time that I did was a perfect seque into Vancouver summertime. The birds are singing away, the trees outside my window are starting to fill out with all the summer foliage, making it much more private in my little sacred space and the air is fresh as it drifts through the windows.
Not really much to say this morning as I am sitting here looking at the last few pages that I have yet to edit. So I think I'll get at it right now.
Have a wonderful day full of sunshine and I will talk with you all soon.
Blessings and Aloha
Monday, May 28, 2007
Up and at 'em and ready to go....
O.K. no crazy late night for this girl last night and the fuzziness is no longer. However, now I am REALLY on a deadline. Why do we do this to ourselves? Or at least why do I do this to ME??
Last week I had it almost in the bag......the complete manuscript. And now, here it is, a mere 4 days to the deadline for the first opportunity to submit my story and still I have yet to come up with a title (how could I not have a title yet?) and the final re-write. Of course since this is the first time I have actually submitted something of this largess it could just be a normal thing for a "writer". Oooh, I shudder when writing that.......a writer.
It is what I know myself to be but when writing, I now realize that everything that you put out there is on spec. It is easy to post something out here in cyberspace but to actually put something out there that will be making a difference in my wallet is a completely different ball of wax. Or perhaps it just changes how I perceive the writings that emerge from me.
So that being said, I do not have to answer to anyone else today which leaves me the entire to work on this project. I have to admit that sometimes I am not very good at motivating myself, getting sidetracked by meaningless (in the long run) things. But, I have already committed to doing this and I know how good I will feel when I hit the final "send" button and watch my finished masterpiece off for consideration.
Being as how I don't generally get too attached to outcomes in my life I feel that perhaps this tme I should be sending out a special LIGHT to surround this project as I truly do want to have someone in power say "Hey, this is really good. Give me/us more." Others keep telling me what a gifted writer I am and this is a wonderful gift for me to receive. However, now it is crunch time and it is important for my work to find the eyes and hearts that will truly receive it, enabling me to actually make a living at it. Big deal, at least to me.
So it is now 7:00 a.m. and off I go to work on the story about my Goddess and her Samarai. Hmmm, perhaps that is the title "The Goddess and her Samarai". I don't know. I'll just let it flow on to the top of the first page. Sure hope that allowing the flow to go today is what is necessary.
Till later......Blessings and Aloha
Last week I had it almost in the bag......the complete manuscript. And now, here it is, a mere 4 days to the deadline for the first opportunity to submit my story and still I have yet to come up with a title (how could I not have a title yet?) and the final re-write. Of course since this is the first time I have actually submitted something of this largess it could just be a normal thing for a "writer". Oooh, I shudder when writing that.......a writer.
It is what I know myself to be but when writing, I now realize that everything that you put out there is on spec. It is easy to post something out here in cyberspace but to actually put something out there that will be making a difference in my wallet is a completely different ball of wax. Or perhaps it just changes how I perceive the writings that emerge from me.
So that being said, I do not have to answer to anyone else today which leaves me the entire to work on this project. I have to admit that sometimes I am not very good at motivating myself, getting sidetracked by meaningless (in the long run) things. But, I have already committed to doing this and I know how good I will feel when I hit the final "send" button and watch my finished masterpiece off for consideration.
Being as how I don't generally get too attached to outcomes in my life I feel that perhaps this tme I should be sending out a special LIGHT to surround this project as I truly do want to have someone in power say "Hey, this is really good. Give me/us more." Others keep telling me what a gifted writer I am and this is a wonderful gift for me to receive. However, now it is crunch time and it is important for my work to find the eyes and hearts that will truly receive it, enabling me to actually make a living at it. Big deal, at least to me.
So it is now 7:00 a.m. and off I go to work on the story about my Goddess and her Samarai. Hmmm, perhaps that is the title "The Goddess and her Samarai". I don't know. I'll just let it flow on to the top of the first page. Sure hope that allowing the flow to go today is what is necessary.
Till later......Blessings and Aloha
Saturday, May 26, 2007
fuzzy day
hmmmmmm, well I am not much use to ME at all today BUT I did have a stellar weekend...smile Unfortunately I didn't get much done of the manuscript.....actually didn't get anything done at all and for that I am feeling slightly annoyed with myself. I could be going over it right now but suffice to say, I really had a real weekend for the first time in forever and am feeling the after affects of it today. I am just not made for staying up until the sun rises anymore and well, I am as the title suggests slightly fuzzy.
So instead of feeling naughty I think I will just relax and go with the slowness of the day and get up bright and early and go full steam ahead.
YUP..........feeling better already
Oh and I came up with a couple of other suggestions regarding said nom de plume for Ms. Erotica.......one is GINGER which considering I am a redhead sounds good and someone else mentioned CRIMSON........possibly. Anyway, putting those out there and if anybody out here in cyberspace feels so inclined, let me know what you think or come up with something else for me to work with.
Thanks.
Blessings and Aloha
So instead of feeling naughty I think I will just relax and go with the slowness of the day and get up bright and early and go full steam ahead.
YUP..........feeling better already
Oh and I came up with a couple of other suggestions regarding said nom de plume for Ms. Erotica.......one is GINGER which considering I am a redhead sounds good and someone else mentioned CRIMSON........possibly. Anyway, putting those out there and if anybody out here in cyberspace feels so inclined, let me know what you think or come up with something else for me to work with.
Thanks.
Blessings and Aloha
Nom de plume
So I did it. The manuscript is written and the final edit will be within the next couple of days ready to be sent of by Thursday. I just had an email from the editor of the first place that I am submitting it to so it is a done deal. No backing out now. BIGGY......
So now since I have been writing for years and many of you have read numerous articles under this name in the realm of the spiritual I need to have a new name to use when authoring this new genre that I have anchored into. For those of you who may not be aware of it, this particular novelette is an erotic love story so a name more in line with that type of reading material is needed. I have my first name picked out. It is Shekinah. I call her my alter ego but I still need a last name. Any suggestions. I have come up with Jones or Fox so any other ideas would be welcomed.
Heading out now but I will be checking back later.
Blessings and Aloha
So now since I have been writing for years and many of you have read numerous articles under this name in the realm of the spiritual I need to have a new name to use when authoring this new genre that I have anchored into. For those of you who may not be aware of it, this particular novelette is an erotic love story so a name more in line with that type of reading material is needed. I have my first name picked out. It is Shekinah. I call her my alter ego but I still need a last name. Any suggestions. I have come up with Jones or Fox so any other ideas would be welcomed.
Heading out now but I will be checking back later.
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, May 25, 2007
Writing Frenzy
Yeah, yeah I know I have not entered anything here for a couple of days BUT it does not mean that I have neglected my writing. I wrote almost 6,000 words yesterday and my story is now almost ready for the final edit and will be sent off early next week.
Of course, to add a little glitch into the works, I sent a quick query letter to the editor of the on line publisher that I had planned on submitting to. I say PLANNED because at last check in, he said that submissions are closed.......argh. I mentioned that I had been planning to submit to a particular call with a deadline of June 1st so am keeping my fingers crossed that I will be sending it off to them.
However, not to worry as I went on line yesterday and found TONS of different places to submit to. All in all the purpose of this particular masterpiece......smile......has been to make me write daily and write I have been doing. It feels great and as I sit here writing to you all, whoever you are......I can rest in my heart knowing that I can do this and I am very good at it.
Acknowledging our gifts is the first step towards fulfilling our divine purpose. So many times we fall short when our own insecurities enter into the reality that we are working in. It is interesting to note also that there are a lot of different things, or should I say personalities, pulling at me at this time but through it all, I have still written daily and not just for a moment of two, but for hours at a time so I think that that deal with forming a habit in 21 days is true. I have written every day now for 50 days and it is a part of my life. WOO HOO. Also, yesterday during the writing frenzy, I realized that I am able to pick up and continue on from where I left off at any time of the day or night which is a good thing.
My son is also a writer and he is completely dedicated to his craft. I remember when he first got into it big time, he was working full time, trying to connect with people in the advertising industry AND writing for hours each night. He looked like "shite" of course because he was drinking way too much coffee, smoking way too many cigarettes and perhaps getting 4 hours sleep a night BUT at the end of the day, he was writing and that was the main thing. Now he is also working a full time job but he has his priorities straight. He still writes daily and has his coffee and nicotine consumption back into a more regulated place......or so I would hope.
I guess the main thing I am saying here is that when we log into our own personal reason for being, the flow becomes engaged and we are no longer flailing around. I am feeling slightly nervous at the prospect of sending this work of art off because then I will not have that "story" to fall back to each day. A new one will call to me of course and who knows what it will be all about but at the end of the day, there is the excitement at creating from scratch and THAT is an awesome place to be.
I also did get rid of a couple of those places that were taking up time and space and that too is a relief. I have been thinking about doing that.....leaving a comfort zone......for over 2 years so it is another milestone for me. Back into the Trust and having Faith mode and that is not such a bad place to be.
Until next time, be blessed.
Of course, to add a little glitch into the works, I sent a quick query letter to the editor of the on line publisher that I had planned on submitting to. I say PLANNED because at last check in, he said that submissions are closed.......argh. I mentioned that I had been planning to submit to a particular call with a deadline of June 1st so am keeping my fingers crossed that I will be sending it off to them.
However, not to worry as I went on line yesterday and found TONS of different places to submit to. All in all the purpose of this particular masterpiece......smile......has been to make me write daily and write I have been doing. It feels great and as I sit here writing to you all, whoever you are......I can rest in my heart knowing that I can do this and I am very good at it.
Acknowledging our gifts is the first step towards fulfilling our divine purpose. So many times we fall short when our own insecurities enter into the reality that we are working in. It is interesting to note also that there are a lot of different things, or should I say personalities, pulling at me at this time but through it all, I have still written daily and not just for a moment of two, but for hours at a time so I think that that deal with forming a habit in 21 days is true. I have written every day now for 50 days and it is a part of my life. WOO HOO. Also, yesterday during the writing frenzy, I realized that I am able to pick up and continue on from where I left off at any time of the day or night which is a good thing.
My son is also a writer and he is completely dedicated to his craft. I remember when he first got into it big time, he was working full time, trying to connect with people in the advertising industry AND writing for hours each night. He looked like "shite" of course because he was drinking way too much coffee, smoking way too many cigarettes and perhaps getting 4 hours sleep a night BUT at the end of the day, he was writing and that was the main thing. Now he is also working a full time job but he has his priorities straight. He still writes daily and has his coffee and nicotine consumption back into a more regulated place......or so I would hope.
I guess the main thing I am saying here is that when we log into our own personal reason for being, the flow becomes engaged and we are no longer flailing around. I am feeling slightly nervous at the prospect of sending this work of art off because then I will not have that "story" to fall back to each day. A new one will call to me of course and who knows what it will be all about but at the end of the day, there is the excitement at creating from scratch and THAT is an awesome place to be.
I also did get rid of a couple of those places that were taking up time and space and that too is a relief. I have been thinking about doing that.....leaving a comfort zone......for over 2 years so it is another milestone for me. Back into the Trust and having Faith mode and that is not such a bad place to be.
Until next time, be blessed.
Monday, May 21, 2007
Interesting energetics today
I had a conversation with my son yesterday or perhaps I should say HE had a talk with me. He had some very good insights into a situation that I am involved in and having my son talk to me like that made me realize what an incredible man he has turned into. In case you happen to actually stop by and read my blog today - Thanks Michael.......smile
And of course reflecting on just what our topic of conversation was got me thinking about a lot of other areas of my life that are somehow involved in said situation. Not that I have to share the particulars but suffice to say, a change is necessary for me and this is something that I have been working through for.........oh, perhaps my WHOLE life. So to say that this is a biggie would be an understatement.
When I titled this blog as "interesting energetics today" I guess I should explain. I woke up early and feeling antsy. I had a list of things that I wanted to accomplish today and I was a tad nervous about it all. But I moved through my day and even accomplished MORE than I had required of myself but still at the end of it all, I was sitting here feeling out of sorts or perhaps out of my body. So, it got me thinking about how I gauge how good my day is going.
After going over all that I did do today, I realized that inside of me there is a faulty device that seems to keeps skipping repeating the following mantra.......it's not enough, it's not enough.........sheesh. I had never realized how this device impacts my daily life........always. It seems like I am constantly trying to live up to something that I for some odd reason find unattainable. EVEN when I do what I set out to do.
AND not only did my son "talk" to me yesterday but I was also "grilled" by a new friend with questions that pertained to my future. The answers that he was looking for just didn't seem to come up to surface for me to be able to answer him. A very sweet man by the way who let me stew in the pot that I seem to be stirring now. Lots of male energy trying to make me see what it is that I am doing to myself. Thanks guys.........smile
So now it is almost night time. The sun is still shining and I should probably take a walk down to the beach but I have people coming in an hour. I still have a few last minute details to attend to but I can always look outside and realize how blessed I really am......in this moment and that is all that I can handle anyway. Just this moment and at this moment I AM.
Blessings and Aloha
And of course reflecting on just what our topic of conversation was got me thinking about a lot of other areas of my life that are somehow involved in said situation. Not that I have to share the particulars but suffice to say, a change is necessary for me and this is something that I have been working through for.........oh, perhaps my WHOLE life. So to say that this is a biggie would be an understatement.
When I titled this blog as "interesting energetics today" I guess I should explain. I woke up early and feeling antsy. I had a list of things that I wanted to accomplish today and I was a tad nervous about it all. But I moved through my day and even accomplished MORE than I had required of myself but still at the end of it all, I was sitting here feeling out of sorts or perhaps out of my body. So, it got me thinking about how I gauge how good my day is going.
After going over all that I did do today, I realized that inside of me there is a faulty device that seems to keeps skipping repeating the following mantra.......it's not enough, it's not enough.........sheesh. I had never realized how this device impacts my daily life........always. It seems like I am constantly trying to live up to something that I for some odd reason find unattainable. EVEN when I do what I set out to do.
AND not only did my son "talk" to me yesterday but I was also "grilled" by a new friend with questions that pertained to my future. The answers that he was looking for just didn't seem to come up to surface for me to be able to answer him. A very sweet man by the way who let me stew in the pot that I seem to be stirring now. Lots of male energy trying to make me see what it is that I am doing to myself. Thanks guys.........smile
So now it is almost night time. The sun is still shining and I should probably take a walk down to the beach but I have people coming in an hour. I still have a few last minute details to attend to but I can always look outside and realize how blessed I really am......in this moment and that is all that I can handle anyway. Just this moment and at this moment I AM.
Blessings and Aloha
creating anew.........
Boy oh boy, any excuse for a day off from the regular work week. So Happy Victoria Day or, as we on the West Coast say, the first long weekend of the summer......not exactly summer yet, but it is a start. And the sun is not cooperating yet but I am still optimistic.
Woke up feeling rather blah today. Don't like that. Could be that I spent a better part of the weekend with a rather intense friend of mine. It is always intense with this friend and while I sometimes feel that it is TOO intense, still I go back time and time again to play.
There is something about this being that is me that seems to like to live life on the edge more than regular folk. I think that I get bored when life gets too predictable and then I jump right in to non predicability. And it sure feels good when in the midst of that unpredictability but, when back into a normal realm, there is a let down. It is always like this so you would think I would "get" it, or perhaps I do and it is only showing me the difference between my own energy and the inclusion of the energies of another. It this good or not? I have no idea but it has been happening for months...well, actually now into the years, so I presume it is a lesson that I have come here to learn. Ah, yes we know those lessons. And, like it or not, they always give us something...albeit perhaps NOT exactly what it was that we were expecting but something all the same...smile.
Just sent off an email ending a "working situation" with some people. I called it a working "situation" as it was not a job perse......simply somewhere that I spent time. And that time was being wasted, in my humble opionion, so I finally bit the bullet and ended it. Am feeling the need to end a lot of things lately so who knows where it is all leading to. I will keep you informed however as soon as I figure out where I am going.........whether physically or simply in my head and heart.
So here I sit, getting ready to embark once more on that journey that is the story that I keep talking about. Did an edit last night up to the point that I had last written so it is now time to continue creating anew. Creating anew.......that sounds good. I think I will simply do that with all aspects of my life today........CREATE ANEW........yeah I like that.
Have a wonderful day and I shall be back real soon.
Blessings and Aloha
Woke up feeling rather blah today. Don't like that. Could be that I spent a better part of the weekend with a rather intense friend of mine. It is always intense with this friend and while I sometimes feel that it is TOO intense, still I go back time and time again to play.
There is something about this being that is me that seems to like to live life on the edge more than regular folk. I think that I get bored when life gets too predictable and then I jump right in to non predicability. And it sure feels good when in the midst of that unpredictability but, when back into a normal realm, there is a let down. It is always like this so you would think I would "get" it, or perhaps I do and it is only showing me the difference between my own energy and the inclusion of the energies of another. It this good or not? I have no idea but it has been happening for months...well, actually now into the years, so I presume it is a lesson that I have come here to learn. Ah, yes we know those lessons. And, like it or not, they always give us something...albeit perhaps NOT exactly what it was that we were expecting but something all the same...smile.
Just sent off an email ending a "working situation" with some people. I called it a working "situation" as it was not a job perse......simply somewhere that I spent time. And that time was being wasted, in my humble opionion, so I finally bit the bullet and ended it. Am feeling the need to end a lot of things lately so who knows where it is all leading to. I will keep you informed however as soon as I figure out where I am going.........whether physically or simply in my head and heart.
So here I sit, getting ready to embark once more on that journey that is the story that I keep talking about. Did an edit last night up to the point that I had last written so it is now time to continue creating anew. Creating anew.......that sounds good. I think I will simply do that with all aspects of my life today........CREATE ANEW........yeah I like that.
Have a wonderful day and I shall be back real soon.
Blessings and Aloha
Sunday, May 20, 2007
lazy Sundays in the rain
Wow...go figure. The long weekend comes and this is of course the first one of the year that signifies that Summer is around the corner so everyone gets all fired up and ready to go................ camping????? It has been raining most of the weekend but today it was really hard for me to really think about getting up and going anywhere. So glad I decided to stay in town and hang with some friends. But today, was simply a day for lazing around and being inside, all warm and toasty.
I did talk briefly to one of the ladies who lives in my building today and she asked if the rain was getting to me. And I honestly had to say no. Living in Vancouver most of the my life made me realize that it is the rain that keeps things all green and alive here. I don't particularly like to be out in it when it is cold, windy AND rainy but today, it is simply drizzly. Nice to lay in bed this morning and hear it, knowing that I didn't really have to get up if I didn't want to. But I did...get up that is because I do have things to do, not that my list will have any real import on YOUR life, but it did get me up today and THAT is a good thing.
And that being said, I am going to now get on with the few tasks that I do have before me. Tomorrow is another day on our long weekend so hopefully we will get some sun. I have a friend in town tomorrow and he is not familiar with Vancouver. I'd love to show off my city under sunny blue skies.
Wish us luck.......
Blessings and Aloha
I did talk briefly to one of the ladies who lives in my building today and she asked if the rain was getting to me. And I honestly had to say no. Living in Vancouver most of the my life made me realize that it is the rain that keeps things all green and alive here. I don't particularly like to be out in it when it is cold, windy AND rainy but today, it is simply drizzly. Nice to lay in bed this morning and hear it, knowing that I didn't really have to get up if I didn't want to. But I did...get up that is because I do have things to do, not that my list will have any real import on YOUR life, but it did get me up today and THAT is a good thing.
And that being said, I am going to now get on with the few tasks that I do have before me. Tomorrow is another day on our long weekend so hopefully we will get some sun. I have a friend in town tomorrow and he is not familiar with Vancouver. I'd love to show off my city under sunny blue skies.
Wish us luck.......
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, May 18, 2007
The long weekend beckons
A long weekend is before us all and most of us are rushing around going WOO HOO with the reprieve from the regular 9-5 that is the norm. While a long weekend might be an exciting prospect for most, I generally find myself questionning it all.
I mean what is the point? Giving people a break from their normal existence when, in reality, they are simply going through the motions and waiting EVERY week for the weekend. How many are going through the motions - unhappy with their existence. It is sad actually.
Imagine if we all got to do what it is that we truly wanted to be doing ALL the time, each week. The world would not shift on its axis or anything but there sure would be a whole lot more happy people wandering the planet. The world would be a much better place if people were happy to wake up every morning excited to be getting on with their day. Would everything get done that needs to get done? Sure because there would always be people willing to do the things that others were not interested in doing anymore. The job that you go to and hate every day would be snapped up by someone else who would be more than happy to do, until they chose to do something else.
Perhaps I'm being simplistic here but in my world, that is what I envision. If more people actually were honest with themselves and took a leap of faith and tried to move towards what it was that called to them they might just get to do it........what they wanted to be doing. But, unfortunately for many of us, the thought of actually doing what they want seems to be such a daunting task that they just don't even make the effort. And that is what we HAVE to do. Make an effort to move beyond our previous limitations and LEAP......Is it scary? You betcha but at least you try.
Sigh.........Anyway, I'm off to end something that I have been doing for the last little while and not feeling particulary aligned with it. Even the thought of going there today makes my stomach flutter as I am just not into it anymore. While there will be some that are a tad annoyed that I am stepping aside, it is the right choice for me. Someone else will step in to fill my place as it is time for me to open to new horizons. I am ready and have been for quite some time, but I held on hoping that it would somehow miraculously BE what it is used to be. But nothing ever stays the same and it is time to move on.
So get out there and enjoy your weekend. I know that I will. Lots planned and new beginnings beckon. Change is the only constant.......Always.....
Blessings and Aloha
I mean what is the point? Giving people a break from their normal existence when, in reality, they are simply going through the motions and waiting EVERY week for the weekend. How many are going through the motions - unhappy with their existence. It is sad actually.
Imagine if we all got to do what it is that we truly wanted to be doing ALL the time, each week. The world would not shift on its axis or anything but there sure would be a whole lot more happy people wandering the planet. The world would be a much better place if people were happy to wake up every morning excited to be getting on with their day. Would everything get done that needs to get done? Sure because there would always be people willing to do the things that others were not interested in doing anymore. The job that you go to and hate every day would be snapped up by someone else who would be more than happy to do, until they chose to do something else.
Perhaps I'm being simplistic here but in my world, that is what I envision. If more people actually were honest with themselves and took a leap of faith and tried to move towards what it was that called to them they might just get to do it........what they wanted to be doing. But, unfortunately for many of us, the thought of actually doing what they want seems to be such a daunting task that they just don't even make the effort. And that is what we HAVE to do. Make an effort to move beyond our previous limitations and LEAP......Is it scary? You betcha but at least you try.
Sigh.........Anyway, I'm off to end something that I have been doing for the last little while and not feeling particulary aligned with it. Even the thought of going there today makes my stomach flutter as I am just not into it anymore. While there will be some that are a tad annoyed that I am stepping aside, it is the right choice for me. Someone else will step in to fill my place as it is time for me to open to new horizons. I am ready and have been for quite some time, but I held on hoping that it would somehow miraculously BE what it is used to be. But nothing ever stays the same and it is time to move on.
So get out there and enjoy your weekend. I know that I will. Lots planned and new beginnings beckon. Change is the only constant.......Always.....
Blessings and Aloha
Thursday, May 17, 2007
A day to myself........
So finally I have a complete day to myself. Well at least the daytime hours. Tonight I get to see my kids and share a meal with them. My son is actually cooking dinner which is a FIRST. Nice to see him stepping into his own these days. I'm a proud Mom of both of them......smile
Has been harder to get focussed on the writing since returning. So much to do and so many things calling for my attention. But for today, or at least the next few hours, I have time for me to do what it is that I really want to do. Get going on the manuscript. Ah, yes, that story that is evolving each time I sit and open to divine inspiration. Yeah, that's it. Divine Inspiration is what comes through in whatever genre I happen to be working with from moment to moment.
I am really proud of what is coming through too so know that the writing of this is only the beginning of many, many more novelettes.......and I guess 25,000 words could be considered a novelette, eh? And that being said, I shall bid you all a fond adieu and get cracking.
Have a joy filled day and may you be infinitely blessed with whatever the Universe sends your way.
Has been harder to get focussed on the writing since returning. So much to do and so many things calling for my attention. But for today, or at least the next few hours, I have time for me to do what it is that I really want to do. Get going on the manuscript. Ah, yes, that story that is evolving each time I sit and open to divine inspiration. Yeah, that's it. Divine Inspiration is what comes through in whatever genre I happen to be working with from moment to moment.
I am really proud of what is coming through too so know that the writing of this is only the beginning of many, many more novelettes.......and I guess 25,000 words could be considered a novelette, eh? And that being said, I shall bid you all a fond adieu and get cracking.
Have a joy filled day and may you be infinitely blessed with whatever the Universe sends your way.
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
settling back into Vancouver
Hmmmmmm, back in Vancouver and it certainly does NOT feel like Kauai. Sure the weather is cooperating and the sun is shining, the temperatures are rising and everyone is walking around in shorts and short sleeves but I am having a bit of trouble trying to reclaim the me that I am on Kauai.
So much to do here and it just seems extra busy. I'm sure it has always been this way but now that I actually got out of it for a few weeks, I am noticing it big time. Take the writing for example. Each day on Kauai, I spent the morning writing or at least a big portion of the morning focussing on this task. Here, however, there are so many other tasks calling to me and it becomes hard to even find the time during the day to get what needs to be accomplished done. Why is that?
I haven't even seen friends that I thought I would see as soon as I returned. Everyone is so busy. While I always say the Time is an Illusion, now I wonder, for time seems to slipping away so fast each week. Sigh.
But here I sit with the sun streaming into my office and I know that I will accomplish much today as I have been doing since returning......just the writing seems to have taken a back seat which is NOT what I had intended. Life does get in the way at times.
Tryng to do all that I want to do while still feeling the need to do more. It was easier living on Kauai but for some odd reason, I keep returning here - to Vancouver and all the hustle and bustle.
Oh well, time to get going here. It is only shortly after 7:00 a.m. and yet I feel like I should have done more by now..........yikes.........I'll take a deep breath and move through this feeling of - I don't even know how to describe what it is that I am feeling.
Until next time, blessings and Aloha
So much to do here and it just seems extra busy. I'm sure it has always been this way but now that I actually got out of it for a few weeks, I am noticing it big time. Take the writing for example. Each day on Kauai, I spent the morning writing or at least a big portion of the morning focussing on this task. Here, however, there are so many other tasks calling to me and it becomes hard to even find the time during the day to get what needs to be accomplished done. Why is that?
I haven't even seen friends that I thought I would see as soon as I returned. Everyone is so busy. While I always say the Time is an Illusion, now I wonder, for time seems to slipping away so fast each week. Sigh.
But here I sit with the sun streaming into my office and I know that I will accomplish much today as I have been doing since returning......just the writing seems to have taken a back seat which is NOT what I had intended. Life does get in the way at times.
Tryng to do all that I want to do while still feeling the need to do more. It was easier living on Kauai but for some odd reason, I keep returning here - to Vancouver and all the hustle and bustle.
Oh well, time to get going here. It is only shortly after 7:00 a.m. and yet I feel like I should have done more by now..........yikes.........I'll take a deep breath and move through this feeling of - I don't even know how to describe what it is that I am feeling.
Until next time, blessings and Aloha
Sunday, May 13, 2007
jet lag Take 3
So what on earth was up with last night's attempt at some coherent ramblings from Moiyou might be asking. I am putting it to jet lag and the fact that I hit post WAY before I intended and then the phone rang and well, never got back to it.
I was so tired yesterday but once I realized that I was not going to be accomplishing much, if anything, I simply relaxed and went to bed. Slept like a log too so am feeling mure more refreshed today. Oh, and by the way, Happy Mothers Day to all the Mothers out there. I am going to give up npw because I am using a friends computer and I keep hitting the wrong keys.
I will continue this musing later when I am back in front of my own keyboard.
Blessings and Aloha
I was so tired yesterday but once I realized that I was not going to be accomplishing much, if anything, I simply relaxed and went to bed. Slept like a log too so am feeling mure more refreshed today. Oh, and by the way, Happy Mothers Day to all the Mothers out there. I am going to give up npw because I am using a friends computer and I keep hitting the wrong keys.
I will continue this musing later when I am back in front of my own keyboard.
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, May 11, 2007
last day in paradise musings........
Well, it is here. The last day of my Hawaiian adventure. Spent yesterday at my favourite beach and got a tad pink but hey, what can I say. I just didn't want to leave. It was a picture perfect day too. Blue skies with lovely wispy clouds wafting by. The water was warm and the company was great. Kept trying to write something meaningful about my favourite spot on the island but all I could think about is that I feel real and whole and complete when there and felt the island simply telling me to take this feeling back with me and anchor into it in ALL WAYS. Sounds good.
Will be having a final farewell gathering at another one of my favourite spots prior to getting on the plane. It is a littl beachside restaurant/bar nestled in front of another beach (go figure....beaches) where I am planning on having a colourful frothy drink with an umbrella in it as we listen to a Hawaiian duo serenade us with a touch of Hawaiiana.......a perfect send off.
So when next I write I will be back in Vancouver where I understand the weather will be cooperating for me. Sunny skies and warmer temperatures as a friend described it to "You know one of those days where you are so happy to be here". So I guess the city is welcoming me back.
Until next time..........blessings and Aloha
Will be having a final farewell gathering at another one of my favourite spots prior to getting on the plane. It is a littl beachside restaurant/bar nestled in front of another beach (go figure....beaches) where I am planning on having a colourful frothy drink with an umbrella in it as we listen to a Hawaiian duo serenade us with a touch of Hawaiiana.......a perfect send off.
So when next I write I will be back in Vancouver where I understand the weather will be cooperating for me. Sunny skies and warmer temperatures as a friend described it to "You know one of those days where you are so happy to be here". So I guess the city is welcoming me back.
Until next time..........blessings and Aloha
Thursday, May 10, 2007
oh oh..........dimming lights
And I thought I had had weird dreams before. Last night was an amazing array of dreams where - and do not laugh - most of them concerned figuring out how to pack all the extra things I ended up purchasing. Not that much for me mind you but there are always those things that you get for others. And CAROL YOU were there offering reams of advice......smile I took note of that little snippet........bigger smile.
Anyway, I finally got out of bed and figured I was not going to be getting any restful sleep so here I sit - writing. I guess in the end of the day, it is a good thing that the first thing that I think of to do is write. I remember reading somewhere that it only takes 21 days to make something a habit and here I am on day 37 of writing. At least it says that this is the 38th entry on the blog. So I have been writing faithfully here AND on the book. Now, to make sure I do it when I return in 2 DAYS........YUP only 2 more days and I will back in my little office at home. It will be a tad different because I won't have the tradewinds blowing across me like I do at this moment but still my office is bright and relatively quiet.
Today will be the final good byes for some and some have already whispered Aloha in my ear but I know I'll return sooner this time. For some of them, they kept forgetting that I had not officially returned and now that I am ready to depart again, the panic is setting in that they might miss me. Hmmmmm, interesting that one. I guess like the 21 day thing above, these people got used to me being "home" again.
One last afternoon at the beach today and then PACKING. At least then I'll sleep better tonight.
Blessings and Aloha
Katrice
Anyway, I finally got out of bed and figured I was not going to be getting any restful sleep so here I sit - writing. I guess in the end of the day, it is a good thing that the first thing that I think of to do is write. I remember reading somewhere that it only takes 21 days to make something a habit and here I am on day 37 of writing. At least it says that this is the 38th entry on the blog. So I have been writing faithfully here AND on the book. Now, to make sure I do it when I return in 2 DAYS........YUP only 2 more days and I will back in my little office at home. It will be a tad different because I won't have the tradewinds blowing across me like I do at this moment but still my office is bright and relatively quiet.
Today will be the final good byes for some and some have already whispered Aloha in my ear but I know I'll return sooner this time. For some of them, they kept forgetting that I had not officially returned and now that I am ready to depart again, the panic is setting in that they might miss me. Hmmmmm, interesting that one. I guess like the 21 day thing above, these people got used to me being "home" again.
One last afternoon at the beach today and then PACKING. At least then I'll sleep better tonight.
Blessings and Aloha
Katrice
Wednesday, May 09, 2007
running on full wattage.......
Hmmmmmm, feels strange knowing that in a short two days time I will be putting things into a suitcase for the return trip back.........home? It is so strange because since being here, THIS is home. Perhaps I have finally figured out that home is where your heart is AND since my heart is in my chest, I am home. Pretty simplistic eh?
The different emotions that have run through me, since landing once more on Mother Kauai, somehow eventually put things back into perspective. Getting clear on what isn't working so that I can remedy the situation........or situations as the case may be. Coming to an understanding of what my life is and, conversely, what it is not. I have a favourite saying that goes:
You can not discover who you are until you have uncovered who you are not!
And, I uncovered some more of me while here this time. It's good to know that there will always be more of me coming to the surface..smile. In the past I just tried to accept where I was without actually desiring to move beyond. Now, however, there is no way that I can simply accept the not doing that sometimes occurs when I try to stand still. I also realize that over the past few years, while I have been thinking that I am moving forward, a part of me has been clinging to the old ways and it is those ways that have been holding me "back".
After my writing hours this morning I had lunch with a very good friend. I think of him as my younger brother and today he shared that he had always thought I was younger than him. In fact, I am close to 10 years older than him. I chuckled inside because another friend of mine said that I am too caught up in the outer appearance. I told him that yes, I care about my outer appearance but that it doesn't matter how good I may look outside if the inner being is not in shape. I guess that is what Kauai does for me. It brings all of those old ways of being to the surface so that I can get my inner being back in shape, which in turn allows the outer being can shine at her finest............big grin.
And that is what it is all about anyway. Allowing our inner beauty to shine because when the inner being is running on full wattage, the Light that is me shines like a beacon in the night illuminating what is real and true and divine....not only for me but for others too.
Time to get back and shine methinks.
Blessings and Aloha
Katrice
The different emotions that have run through me, since landing once more on Mother Kauai, somehow eventually put things back into perspective. Getting clear on what isn't working so that I can remedy the situation........or situations as the case may be. Coming to an understanding of what my life is and, conversely, what it is not. I have a favourite saying that goes:
You can not discover who you are until you have uncovered who you are not!
And, I uncovered some more of me while here this time. It's good to know that there will always be more of me coming to the surface..smile. In the past I just tried to accept where I was without actually desiring to move beyond. Now, however, there is no way that I can simply accept the not doing that sometimes occurs when I try to stand still. I also realize that over the past few years, while I have been thinking that I am moving forward, a part of me has been clinging to the old ways and it is those ways that have been holding me "back".
After my writing hours this morning I had lunch with a very good friend. I think of him as my younger brother and today he shared that he had always thought I was younger than him. In fact, I am close to 10 years older than him. I chuckled inside because another friend of mine said that I am too caught up in the outer appearance. I told him that yes, I care about my outer appearance but that it doesn't matter how good I may look outside if the inner being is not in shape. I guess that is what Kauai does for me. It brings all of those old ways of being to the surface so that I can get my inner being back in shape, which in turn allows the outer being can shine at her finest............big grin.
And that is what it is all about anyway. Allowing our inner beauty to shine because when the inner being is running on full wattage, the Light that is me shines like a beacon in the night illuminating what is real and true and divine....not only for me but for others too.
Time to get back and shine methinks.
Blessings and Aloha
Katrice
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Looking through a different pair of eyes.........
I just finished the BEST chicken salad I have ever personally made.........smile. A perfect capper to a rather perfect day...........at least a perfect for ME.
I am more than 1/2 way through the manuscript. For those of you who have been following along with my idle daily ramblings, I have promised MYSELF that I will submit a 25,000 word manuscript to this publishing house by June 1st. It is actually getting easier now that I know how it will all end. Of course, you will have to simply wait for it to arrive. Oh, and by the way, it is not the usual "inspirational" type of fare that you may be used to. Hmmmmm, now that I think about it, it is still inspirational but inspirational in a different kind of way.......grin.
Anyway, I'll share it with those of you who are really interested in reading a bit of erotic literature...........YIKES...........yes erotic literature. Classy but definitely "moving" if you know what I mean. I must admit that it does add a little extra zing to my days. And it is different in that it doesn't exactly just flow. I have to get an idea first and then allow it to roll which is different than opening to Spirit and channelling whatever Source has in mind. But then again, perhaps MY source is channelling THIS through me too. COOL......
Got to spend the day with two young married folks.........well they are not exactly YOUNG but they certainly act like it. They are coming up to their 53'rd wedding anniversary......I KID YOU NOT and they still giggle and hold hands. They are a couple in love with the other. Sigh.......
I asked if they had ever had a period in their life when they had contemplated leaving the relationship. Joe said not until last week when HER stupid son did another STUPID thing. WE all laughed. We were laying on our favourite beach and she had her head in his lap as he stroked her face. I mean these two are 75 and 76 respectively. What a day for me.......it was great. Knowing that it is possible to keep the love alive through it all.
Tomorrow night I am having dinner with another incredible couple who are 70 and 80 respectiviely. She - the 80 year old - danced on the stage with Mickael Barishnikov - in PARIS no less - back in the day and still teaches modern dance at her old University and founded the Kauai Modern Dance Academy here on our little island. Amazing. He is a wonderful gentle Soul who could pass for a Shamanic Pipe Carrier with all this thick wavy gray hair almost down to his waist. I love them all dearly.
This island is a very special place and today I actually considered the possibility of being here a few months every year. Hadn't really seriously entertained the idea before but I would have a number of different housing options and the work is received quite well AND writing in the morning and then being rewarded with the afternoon at the beach is very enticing.
As I sit here writing, I realize that I am once again ready to go back to Vancouver....HEY, I just wrote Vancouver for the first time in ages without mistyping it. Must be time to go home. When I lived here, I kept thinking that I had to get back but time and time again, it didn't happen. This 3 weeks and a bit were the perfect time for me and I thank Spirit for prodding me along to actually walk into that travel agency and say to them all.....
I NEED A VACATION
GOTTA GET AWAY............You all know that tune.
Someone asked me today how my vacation had gone and I said that it didn't actually feel like a vacation. It felt more like I had taken my life and moved it somewhere else for a while......to get a new perspective on life, love and the pursuit of happiness and, when I look at it that way, the vacation has gone really well.
Blessings and Aloha
I am more than 1/2 way through the manuscript. For those of you who have been following along with my idle daily ramblings, I have promised MYSELF that I will submit a 25,000 word manuscript to this publishing house by June 1st. It is actually getting easier now that I know how it will all end. Of course, you will have to simply wait for it to arrive. Oh, and by the way, it is not the usual "inspirational" type of fare that you may be used to. Hmmmmm, now that I think about it, it is still inspirational but inspirational in a different kind of way.......grin.
Anyway, I'll share it with those of you who are really interested in reading a bit of erotic literature...........YIKES...........yes erotic literature. Classy but definitely "moving" if you know what I mean. I must admit that it does add a little extra zing to my days. And it is different in that it doesn't exactly just flow. I have to get an idea first and then allow it to roll which is different than opening to Spirit and channelling whatever Source has in mind. But then again, perhaps MY source is channelling THIS through me too. COOL......
Got to spend the day with two young married folks.........well they are not exactly YOUNG but they certainly act like it. They are coming up to their 53'rd wedding anniversary......I KID YOU NOT and they still giggle and hold hands. They are a couple in love with the other. Sigh.......
I asked if they had ever had a period in their life when they had contemplated leaving the relationship. Joe said not until last week when HER stupid son did another STUPID thing. WE all laughed. We were laying on our favourite beach and she had her head in his lap as he stroked her face. I mean these two are 75 and 76 respectively. What a day for me.......it was great. Knowing that it is possible to keep the love alive through it all.
Tomorrow night I am having dinner with another incredible couple who are 70 and 80 respectiviely. She - the 80 year old - danced on the stage with Mickael Barishnikov - in PARIS no less - back in the day and still teaches modern dance at her old University and founded the Kauai Modern Dance Academy here on our little island. Amazing. He is a wonderful gentle Soul who could pass for a Shamanic Pipe Carrier with all this thick wavy gray hair almost down to his waist. I love them all dearly.
This island is a very special place and today I actually considered the possibility of being here a few months every year. Hadn't really seriously entertained the idea before but I would have a number of different housing options and the work is received quite well AND writing in the morning and then being rewarded with the afternoon at the beach is very enticing.
As I sit here writing, I realize that I am once again ready to go back to Vancouver....HEY, I just wrote Vancouver for the first time in ages without mistyping it. Must be time to go home. When I lived here, I kept thinking that I had to get back but time and time again, it didn't happen. This 3 weeks and a bit were the perfect time for me and I thank Spirit for prodding me along to actually walk into that travel agency and say to them all.....
I NEED A VACATION
GOTTA GET AWAY............You all know that tune.
Someone asked me today how my vacation had gone and I said that it didn't actually feel like a vacation. It felt more like I had taken my life and moved it somewhere else for a while......to get a new perspective on life, love and the pursuit of happiness and, when I look at it that way, the vacation has gone really well.
Blessings and Aloha
still here but feeling THERE
Have found myself connecting with Vancouver very strongly this morning. Getting things organized for next weeks classes and circles and talking to many with whom I have not communicated with for quite some time. But still feel like I am very much HERE while also being THERE. Interesting........
This morning started out with blazing sun but it is looking a little sketchy out there right now with a lot of cloud cover rolling across the sky BUT I will not allow myself to think about it as with the trades blowing constantly, the sky is constantly shifting as am I.
Yes, shifting. Constantly it would appear but, today it just feels right.
Keeping this short as other writings are calling to me and if time permits I will check back in with you all later.
Blessings and Aloha
This morning started out with blazing sun but it is looking a little sketchy out there right now with a lot of cloud cover rolling across the sky BUT I will not allow myself to think about it as with the trades blowing constantly, the sky is constantly shifting as am I.
Yes, shifting. Constantly it would appear but, today it just feels right.
Keeping this short as other writings are calling to me and if time permits I will check back in with you all later.
Blessings and Aloha
Monday, May 07, 2007
tick tock.........time marches on........
Oooooooooh, the last few days are now here. Feels rather strange. Last night I was at an event and people were asking me about my plans for next week and they all forgot that I don't live here anymore. Funny how soon we can become immersed in a different place. Everyone just assumed that I had moved back and I was even given the chance to housesit for an acquaintance for the next month if I wanted. Another friend has found me a wonderful little studio space across the street from him. The PULL is strong. But I am definitely returning to Vancouver as the summer is coming and I love Vancouver in the summer.
I notice that I never say I am returning "home". While I have been here, there have been times when I have felt like I am home but still the thought of returning to Vancouver conjures up a number of different possibilities.
Classes and workshops, various sessions, writing and of course, time with friends and family. It feels like nothing has changed while I have been here but I know, that on a much deeper level, a shift has occured AGAIN. How it is all going to be playing out in the long run I have not a clue but I do have a number of different scenarious that will present some pretty big changes in my life. As I bring these to fruition, you will all hear about it no doubt but, for the time being, I am just going to BE HERE NOW and enjoy the next few days.
It is nice that I have been able to do my work here as well. As usual, I am giving a lot of time away for FREE but I simply can not charge certain folks for the work. Another friend of mine mentioned the Byron Katie book THE WORK and it sounds like I will be taking a good look at how she shares what this is to her. Feels like a kindred spirit actually. And I do call what I do MY WORK. She calls it THE WORK. As I say, I have yet to read it but for me THE WORK is that which we are guided to do as our service to the Source.
Sometimes we are guided to go elsewhere to do it and while I know that Vancouver is where I will lay my hat for the next little while, I am feeling the call to parts unknown. Funny, but when we truly choose to be of service, GOD/GODDESS becomes our BOSS and wherever HE/SHE directs us is where we will go. I have my preferences of course but I am listening to what Spirit is saying and it goes something like this..........
Follow your heart. Get out of your head. Live in truth and trust and JOY.
TRUTH TRUST JOY
Add a goodly dose of LOVE and you can see where this is going.
ahhhhhhhhhhh...........
So have a wonderful day in your own little slice of paradise and I will do the same.
Blessings and Aloha
I notice that I never say I am returning "home". While I have been here, there have been times when I have felt like I am home but still the thought of returning to Vancouver conjures up a number of different possibilities.
Classes and workshops, various sessions, writing and of course, time with friends and family. It feels like nothing has changed while I have been here but I know, that on a much deeper level, a shift has occured AGAIN. How it is all going to be playing out in the long run I have not a clue but I do have a number of different scenarious that will present some pretty big changes in my life. As I bring these to fruition, you will all hear about it no doubt but, for the time being, I am just going to BE HERE NOW and enjoy the next few days.
It is nice that I have been able to do my work here as well. As usual, I am giving a lot of time away for FREE but I simply can not charge certain folks for the work. Another friend of mine mentioned the Byron Katie book THE WORK and it sounds like I will be taking a good look at how she shares what this is to her. Feels like a kindred spirit actually. And I do call what I do MY WORK. She calls it THE WORK. As I say, I have yet to read it but for me THE WORK is that which we are guided to do as our service to the Source.
Sometimes we are guided to go elsewhere to do it and while I know that Vancouver is where I will lay my hat for the next little while, I am feeling the call to parts unknown. Funny, but when we truly choose to be of service, GOD/GODDESS becomes our BOSS and wherever HE/SHE directs us is where we will go. I have my preferences of course but I am listening to what Spirit is saying and it goes something like this..........
Follow your heart. Get out of your head. Live in truth and trust and JOY.
TRUTH TRUST JOY
Add a goodly dose of LOVE and you can see where this is going.
ahhhhhhhhhhh...........
So have a wonderful day in your own little slice of paradise and I will do the same.
Blessings and Aloha
Sunday, May 06, 2007
countdown to my return
It is funny but when the last week of a vacation dawns, that countdown in your brain starts ticking big time. Am finally going to be able to spend some time with a couple of wonderful Souls that have been unable to connect with me until today. I was really starting to worry that we would not be able to spend ANY time together and that was disturbing.
Living on Kauai would appear to be a very relaxing place to be but for some odd reason, people here get VERY busy with stuff and the relaxation that we all crave seems to get lost in all the hurry, hurry, hurry that we connect with the city. People talk about Kauai as being the microcosm of the Universe and I believe it. Supposedly there are more climates here encapsulated in one small, small little piece of rock than on any other place on the planet. This is one of the reasons why so many movies are filmed here. Other than SNOW we can get a whole raft of different weather patterns occuring in a 2 hour drive from beautiful HOT beach weather to driving winds and temperatures that are 20 degrees cooler where people need to keep a fire going in the hearth in the middle of July.........strange but true.
But for today, from my vantage point, the sun is shining very brightly and the temperature is already 75 F at 7:30 a.m. so of course I will be off to the beach again. I love laying in the warmth of the sun and with the temperatures in the 80's later, the water is warm and I will be drifting along on the current and attempting to relax..........I do have such a hard time doing that sometimes. A friend sent me a message ORDERING me to relax. He mentioned that I tend to worry too much about everything..........point taken.......weak little smile.
I shall be home before I know it and then life will shift once again. I do tend to move through these shifts on a regular basis. Will they ever end? Probably not. Seems to just be the pattern of my life. But of course, as we all know, we get what we ask for. Now for some clarity.
Blessings and Aloha
Living on Kauai would appear to be a very relaxing place to be but for some odd reason, people here get VERY busy with stuff and the relaxation that we all crave seems to get lost in all the hurry, hurry, hurry that we connect with the city. People talk about Kauai as being the microcosm of the Universe and I believe it. Supposedly there are more climates here encapsulated in one small, small little piece of rock than on any other place on the planet. This is one of the reasons why so many movies are filmed here. Other than SNOW we can get a whole raft of different weather patterns occuring in a 2 hour drive from beautiful HOT beach weather to driving winds and temperatures that are 20 degrees cooler where people need to keep a fire going in the hearth in the middle of July.........strange but true.
But for today, from my vantage point, the sun is shining very brightly and the temperature is already 75 F at 7:30 a.m. so of course I will be off to the beach again. I love laying in the warmth of the sun and with the temperatures in the 80's later, the water is warm and I will be drifting along on the current and attempting to relax..........I do have such a hard time doing that sometimes. A friend sent me a message ORDERING me to relax. He mentioned that I tend to worry too much about everything..........point taken.......weak little smile.
I shall be home before I know it and then life will shift once again. I do tend to move through these shifts on a regular basis. Will they ever end? Probably not. Seems to just be the pattern of my life. But of course, as we all know, we get what we ask for. Now for some clarity.
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, May 04, 2007
Full Mon Crazies
PHEW........sure glad I got through that little case of the crazies. I must admit that this past Full Moon hit me hard and I don't usually get that affected by the Full Moon. However, after talking with a bunch of people I understand that I was not alone.
After waking up with a huge case of whacko-ness, if you understand what I mean, I spent the day visiting some wonderful beautiful Beings of the Heart. Three different stops and three different perspectives on life, love and the pursuit of happiness. Was tired by the time I went to bed but woke up feeling refreshed and renewed.
During one conversation yesterday one woman reminded me that we are responsible for our own suffering........OUCH.........that hit me. But it is so true. We allow our minds to get the better of us instead of reaching up into that Higher Self mode where we are all God/Goddess. We all know what is for the best but there are times, when we are still in the learning mode (and when are we not??), that we persist in bringing into our worlds those beings who are here to help us work through some of the old issues that are our greatest catalysts for change. Time and time again we step into the fire to rise out of it like the phoenix renewed and ready to move beyond. Move beyond the old hurts and pains and beliefs that have held us captive.
Going back to Vancouver is going to be an interesting time as I attempt to release myself once and for all from one of those "suffering issues".........smile.
But for today I am not going to even think of those circumstances. I have some sessions booked and then a bit of a time at the beach. One of my old friends from Kauai is arriving tomorrow for a few days so there will be lots of fun and laughter and probably a bit of partying....bigger smile.
May your day be truly blessed.
Aloha
After waking up with a huge case of whacko-ness, if you understand what I mean, I spent the day visiting some wonderful beautiful Beings of the Heart. Three different stops and three different perspectives on life, love and the pursuit of happiness. Was tired by the time I went to bed but woke up feeling refreshed and renewed.
During one conversation yesterday one woman reminded me that we are responsible for our own suffering........OUCH.........that hit me. But it is so true. We allow our minds to get the better of us instead of reaching up into that Higher Self mode where we are all God/Goddess. We all know what is for the best but there are times, when we are still in the learning mode (and when are we not??), that we persist in bringing into our worlds those beings who are here to help us work through some of the old issues that are our greatest catalysts for change. Time and time again we step into the fire to rise out of it like the phoenix renewed and ready to move beyond. Move beyond the old hurts and pains and beliefs that have held us captive.
Going back to Vancouver is going to be an interesting time as I attempt to release myself once and for all from one of those "suffering issues".........smile.
But for today I am not going to even think of those circumstances. I have some sessions booked and then a bit of a time at the beach. One of my old friends from Kauai is arriving tomorrow for a few days so there will be lots of fun and laughter and probably a bit of partying....bigger smile.
May your day be truly blessed.
Aloha
Thursday, May 03, 2007
vacationing on Kauai
This morning I woke up and felt like I needed to be committed to an insane asylum. YUP...that's right........insanity is the main sensation I am feeling this morning. As mentioned in previous posts, Kauai does this to me. The emotions come rushing to the surface in a huge dose and I feel raw.
Many who have been to the islands know that Kauai is an island of transformation. What needs to be released comes up for us to look at and if we are smart, we will allow all these uncomfortable sensations to come forth. For me, it seems that there is still a lot of anger and sadness and confusion within me that causes me to want to run and hide in a cave. But unfortunately I get into my cave and all i want to do is run back out. Doesn't matter where I am because as someone once said, "Wherever you go there you are." So true.
Anyone else ever experience this. One friend I was conversing with this morning said that she too is having a hard month. Lots of anger and then nothing..........not a fun place to be.
I won't bore you all with my state of mind or lack of it this day. Am going to head out and see if I can find some peace of mind or at least a piece of it that is not wracked with all these uncomfortable sensations.
Blessings and Aloha
Many who have been to the islands know that Kauai is an island of transformation. What needs to be released comes up for us to look at and if we are smart, we will allow all these uncomfortable sensations to come forth. For me, it seems that there is still a lot of anger and sadness and confusion within me that causes me to want to run and hide in a cave. But unfortunately I get into my cave and all i want to do is run back out. Doesn't matter where I am because as someone once said, "Wherever you go there you are." So true.
Anyone else ever experience this. One friend I was conversing with this morning said that she too is having a hard month. Lots of anger and then nothing..........not a fun place to be.
I won't bore you all with my state of mind or lack of it this day. Am going to head out and see if I can find some peace of mind or at least a piece of it that is not wracked with all these uncomfortable sensations.
Blessings and Aloha
Wednesday, May 02, 2007
let the wind blow
Having some interesting glitches with the computer this morning. Perhaps I am being guided to step within and stop going "out". actually makes complete sense to me today. Been having some off interactions with people and plans the past few days. Decided NOT to even try to plan anything for today and will just let it flow on its own. Good guidance.........thanks Spirit.
So I am more than half way through my trip here and unlike other times, I am actually looking forward to going home and getting the next stage of my life moving along. Lots of ideas swirling around and knowing that I have some concrete plans feels good. Of course, since my life has been rather loosey goosey the past 3 years since returning to Vancouver it should prove interesting.
Funny I wrote concrete plans.....like set in stone......which none of them are so why I thought they were concrete almost escapes me UNLESS I actually DO what it is that I am envisioning in my little head. What a concept. Making plans and decisions and then doing them. I'm pretty good at doing that for the short term but when it moves into the realm on long term, I tend to fall a little short.
My whole life has been one of seeing how it goes and then if it doesn't...go in the direction that I envision, I cut loose and move on. Of course sometimes it has taken me longer than necessary to cut loose but over the years, the shifts have been quicker and quicker and at the moment I am definitely ready to open the sails and move forward. Hmmmm, open the sails. I guess that comes from the fact that the winds have been blowing really well since arriving on island. I have found myself sitting and simply allowing the wind to blow over me and somehow, it seems to comfort me. I close my eyes and let it blow, taking any unease that is present and moving it out. Been doing a lot of that.
My favourite place to do this is at the beach or up on a bluff or even just out in the yard as this place that I am staying at is on a bluff overlooking a large valley so when the winds blow, they BLOW. Being an Aquarian I love the wind and the water so being here is perfect for now. But then again, living in Vancouver works too since I have chosen to live by the water there too.
Anyway, enough of my blathering for the morning. I have other things to do........for me and off I shall go. Hope you are all doing well.
Blessings and Aloha until next time.
So I am more than half way through my trip here and unlike other times, I am actually looking forward to going home and getting the next stage of my life moving along. Lots of ideas swirling around and knowing that I have some concrete plans feels good. Of course, since my life has been rather loosey goosey the past 3 years since returning to Vancouver it should prove interesting.
Funny I wrote concrete plans.....like set in stone......which none of them are so why I thought they were concrete almost escapes me UNLESS I actually DO what it is that I am envisioning in my little head. What a concept. Making plans and decisions and then doing them. I'm pretty good at doing that for the short term but when it moves into the realm on long term, I tend to fall a little short.
My whole life has been one of seeing how it goes and then if it doesn't...go in the direction that I envision, I cut loose and move on. Of course sometimes it has taken me longer than necessary to cut loose but over the years, the shifts have been quicker and quicker and at the moment I am definitely ready to open the sails and move forward. Hmmmm, open the sails. I guess that comes from the fact that the winds have been blowing really well since arriving on island. I have found myself sitting and simply allowing the wind to blow over me and somehow, it seems to comfort me. I close my eyes and let it blow, taking any unease that is present and moving it out. Been doing a lot of that.
My favourite place to do this is at the beach or up on a bluff or even just out in the yard as this place that I am staying at is on a bluff overlooking a large valley so when the winds blow, they BLOW. Being an Aquarian I love the wind and the water so being here is perfect for now. But then again, living in Vancouver works too since I have chosen to live by the water there too.
Anyway, enough of my blathering for the morning. I have other things to do........for me and off I shall go. Hope you are all doing well.
Blessings and Aloha until next time.
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Praises for the New Dawn
I can not believe that it is already May. One third of the year is already past and it has simply flown by. Where does the time go? I say this every year and every year it still simply flies past. Remember when we were kids. The summer vacation seemed to take forever and now, all these years later, we can feel the exceleration in all areas of our lives.
Here, where I sit it is 7:11 and the temperature is already pushing 80 F. but with the trades blowing, it is pleasant. In Vancouver when the temperature gets close to that everyone starts to complain. But not me. I like the warmth that the summer brings and being here on Kauai, it feels very comfortable for me........physically. However, this lovely little island in the Pacific certainly does things to my psyche. It seems like whenever I touch down here, all that I have been carrying around within comes rushing up to the surface to be "looked at" among other things.
That which I need to release becomes very clear and what I am left with is choices. Yes, I know every day we are faced with choices but when here, it seems that they smack you up side the head and you are left with these open wounds waiting to be filled with positivity and love. POSITIVITY AND LOVE..........sounds good. Why didn't I think of that? Well, actually I just did but it is not like I actually sat here and went "hmm, what word or sensation am I looking for?". The words appear before me and as I write them, I get it.
What I am being pushed to do these days is to stop questioning every little thing that occurs in my life and in my days and simply fill up with positivity and love. Within those two little words are so many different scenarios and possibilities. For within them, nothing else really matters. There is no room for doubt or fear or negativity when we are filled to the brim with positive emotions and energies and the ever present foundation of Love yet, still, I tend to forget.
I have been waking up very early here which is compliments of the birds singing to the rising sun. My eyes open and I see a hint of light through the window but the birds are singing the praises of the day that is unfolding long before the light actually breaks through. Perhaps that is what is the important thing for me to remember. I do not need to actually have anything physical in my realm but it is most important to be grateful for what is yet to come. Like the birds outside...............singing to the coming dawn....welcoming the new day.
sigh..........that sounds nice doesn't it. Singing praises to the coming day as it arrives in all its divine splendour.
Blessings and Aloha
Here, where I sit it is 7:11 and the temperature is already pushing 80 F. but with the trades blowing, it is pleasant. In Vancouver when the temperature gets close to that everyone starts to complain. But not me. I like the warmth that the summer brings and being here on Kauai, it feels very comfortable for me........physically. However, this lovely little island in the Pacific certainly does things to my psyche. It seems like whenever I touch down here, all that I have been carrying around within comes rushing up to the surface to be "looked at" among other things.
That which I need to release becomes very clear and what I am left with is choices. Yes, I know every day we are faced with choices but when here, it seems that they smack you up side the head and you are left with these open wounds waiting to be filled with positivity and love. POSITIVITY AND LOVE..........sounds good. Why didn't I think of that? Well, actually I just did but it is not like I actually sat here and went "hmm, what word or sensation am I looking for?". The words appear before me and as I write them, I get it.
What I am being pushed to do these days is to stop questioning every little thing that occurs in my life and in my days and simply fill up with positivity and love. Within those two little words are so many different scenarios and possibilities. For within them, nothing else really matters. There is no room for doubt or fear or negativity when we are filled to the brim with positive emotions and energies and the ever present foundation of Love yet, still, I tend to forget.
I have been waking up very early here which is compliments of the birds singing to the rising sun. My eyes open and I see a hint of light through the window but the birds are singing the praises of the day that is unfolding long before the light actually breaks through. Perhaps that is what is the important thing for me to remember. I do not need to actually have anything physical in my realm but it is most important to be grateful for what is yet to come. Like the birds outside...............singing to the coming dawn....welcoming the new day.
sigh..........that sounds nice doesn't it. Singing praises to the coming day as it arrives in all its divine splendour.
Blessings and Aloha
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