running on full wattage.......

Hmmmmmm, feels strange knowing that in a short two days time I will be putting things into a suitcase for the return trip back.........home? It is so strange because since being here, THIS is home. Perhaps I have finally figured out that home is where your heart is AND since my heart is in my chest, I am home. Pretty simplistic eh?

The different emotions that have run through me, since landing once more on Mother Kauai, somehow eventually put things back into perspective. Getting clear on what isn't working so that I can remedy the situation........or situations as the case may be. Coming to an understanding of what my life is and, conversely, what it is not. I have a favourite saying that goes:

You can not discover who you are until you have uncovered who you are not!

And, I uncovered some more of me while here this time. It's good to know that there will always be more of me coming to the surface..smile. In the past I just tried to accept where I was without actually desiring to move beyond. Now, however, there is no way that I can simply accept the not doing that sometimes occurs when I try to stand still. I also realize that over the past few years, while I have been thinking that I am moving forward, a part of me has been clinging to the old ways and it is those ways that have been holding me "back".

After my writing hours this morning I had lunch with a very good friend. I think of him as my younger brother and today he shared that he had always thought I was younger than him. In fact, I am close to 10 years older than him. I chuckled inside because another friend of mine said that I am too caught up in the outer appearance. I told him that yes, I care about my outer appearance but that it doesn't matter how good I may look outside if the inner being is not in shape. I guess that is what Kauai does for me. It brings all of those old ways of being to the surface so that I can get my inner being back in shape, which in turn allows the outer being can shine at her finest............big grin.

And that is what it is all about anyway. Allowing our inner beauty to shine because when the inner being is running on full wattage, the Light that is me shines like a beacon in the night illuminating what is real and true and divine....not only for me but for others too.

Time to get back and shine methinks.

Blessings and Aloha

Katrice