Hmmmm, I read that my work involves helping others move into the higher realms while traversing this life in 3d. Interesting that I am having a rather hard time at the moment. I just love how the Universe gets our attention when we fail to pay attention on our own.
Turns out that I might have a stress fracture in my left foot. For all of you who understand the correlation to body parts and emotions, have a field day gang.......
I realize that I have not been moving forward in as timely a manner as I might be. Allowing myself to be held back by situations that are not for my highest growth at all. Funny, or maybe NOT, but it always comes back to me that I teach that which I am most needing to learn for myself. Not that I don't assist many on their own paths but there always come those times when I am in need of others to assist me. And I am happy to report that I am not feeling guilty at all about admitting that I too am human and as such have human foibles. Not that I like to admit to being like everyone else.......grin
But this foot thing is certainly meaning that I can't go galavanting off in search of others to distract me........from me. I must admit that it does feel better when I keep off it and of course that is exactly what the doctor said I should be doing. Maybe if I really get it together, I can connect with the Angels and ask them to send me some work because when I have work to keep me occupied, I have no need to go off in search of whatever I seem to be searching for.
Whatever am I searching for? And that will be the main topic of my connection with said Angels. I have a friend of swears by the assistance that she gets from her Angels. It works too so I am at a loss as to why I don't follow her lead.
I think that is what I am going to do right now. Go into meditation and connect big time.
Talk to you later.
Saturday, June 30, 2007
Thursday, June 28, 2007
guilt is a wasted emotion
So I am NOT going to feel guilty for not writing or at least that is what I am telling myself but at the end of the day, I am a tad annoyed that I have stepped back from my daily blogs. Having a hard time getting focused these days, on a number of different levels. Stepping back from some situations and opening up to new ones and at the end of the day, much is shifting in my world.
Finishing the manuscript was a big thing for me but I foolishly thought that I could jump right back into the pages and start creating something brand new but unfortunately, I just havne't figured out what it is that I want to work on right now.
I have a ton of material that could be compiled and put together for an inspirational book but the laziness factor kicks in and I balk. I have a BIG 243 page manuscript of a semi-autobiographical novel that I could resurrect and I am sitting here looking at the big Yellow file that contains the hard copy. THAT would be the best thing for me to do for my own growth, but will it bring in any money at this time? Uh, no! And I do need to focus on the manifesting of abundance so that brings me to little short stories but on what topic.
The novelette that I did complete and send was not one of the THREE that they chose. THREE! Sheesh........I thought that an anthology would have WAY more than simply 3 stories in it but that appears to not be true in that case. I need to resubmit that one to other publishers and perhaps that should be the next thing for me to do.
So you see, there are a ton of different possibilities for the writer in me to tackle but.....sigh.....the creative surge just seems to have fizzled at the moment. Hmmmmmm
This time of year is really slow as well for the work that I do but I am hopeful that it will soon start to shift as I am having some pretty incredible breakthroughs with a couple of new clients, one of whom is my daughter. And that is a completely AWESOME turn of events. You see, both Brie (my daughter) and I have had a rather out of balance relationship for the past couple of years. When she called and asked me to do a session on her I was thrilled and she even accepted that there would probably be some emotional cleansing to work through concerning her and I. And it was a great session. She no longer needs to go to the chiropractor and yesterday she had another session and once again, she felt great. Once a week sessions is now what she is wanting to experience and methinks she is going to become one of my biggest promoters. In fact, today her personal trainer is also coming for a session because of how much better Brie was after just one session. Wish me luck as this is the work that I am wanting to focus on and all I need to do is keep the clients coming which will ease the pressure on me to get back into the creative mode.
And for those of you who are not aware of what these sessions are all about, feel free to contact me. I am also available to do distant/remote healing using all the same gifts that are used when I do a personal one on one session. That's it for my own self promotion but I would love to help any of you who are currently experiencing pain, whether it is physical, mental, emotional or spiritual. Wonderful results within a very short time too so not something that you have to use your life savings for........big grin.
So there.......words on the page and I am going to get myself more organized and make sure to use my time wisely from now on, or at least that is the plan.
Blessings to you all.
Finishing the manuscript was a big thing for me but I foolishly thought that I could jump right back into the pages and start creating something brand new but unfortunately, I just havne't figured out what it is that I want to work on right now.
I have a ton of material that could be compiled and put together for an inspirational book but the laziness factor kicks in and I balk. I have a BIG 243 page manuscript of a semi-autobiographical novel that I could resurrect and I am sitting here looking at the big Yellow file that contains the hard copy. THAT would be the best thing for me to do for my own growth, but will it bring in any money at this time? Uh, no! And I do need to focus on the manifesting of abundance so that brings me to little short stories but on what topic.
The novelette that I did complete and send was not one of the THREE that they chose. THREE! Sheesh........I thought that an anthology would have WAY more than simply 3 stories in it but that appears to not be true in that case. I need to resubmit that one to other publishers and perhaps that should be the next thing for me to do.
So you see, there are a ton of different possibilities for the writer in me to tackle but.....sigh.....the creative surge just seems to have fizzled at the moment. Hmmmmmm
This time of year is really slow as well for the work that I do but I am hopeful that it will soon start to shift as I am having some pretty incredible breakthroughs with a couple of new clients, one of whom is my daughter. And that is a completely AWESOME turn of events. You see, both Brie (my daughter) and I have had a rather out of balance relationship for the past couple of years. When she called and asked me to do a session on her I was thrilled and she even accepted that there would probably be some emotional cleansing to work through concerning her and I. And it was a great session. She no longer needs to go to the chiropractor and yesterday she had another session and once again, she felt great. Once a week sessions is now what she is wanting to experience and methinks she is going to become one of my biggest promoters. In fact, today her personal trainer is also coming for a session because of how much better Brie was after just one session. Wish me luck as this is the work that I am wanting to focus on and all I need to do is keep the clients coming which will ease the pressure on me to get back into the creative mode.
And for those of you who are not aware of what these sessions are all about, feel free to contact me. I am also available to do distant/remote healing using all the same gifts that are used when I do a personal one on one session. That's it for my own self promotion but I would love to help any of you who are currently experiencing pain, whether it is physical, mental, emotional or spiritual. Wonderful results within a very short time too so not something that you have to use your life savings for........big grin.
So there.......words on the page and I am going to get myself more organized and make sure to use my time wisely from now on, or at least that is the plan.
Blessings to you all.
Sunday, June 24, 2007
Return of the disappearing Blogger
PHEW........3 whole days and nothing written. It has been a rather busy few days though so I don't feel TOO guilty. It is not like I have been sitting here with a whatever up my hoop doing nothing.
Ended up doing a Vibrational Healing session on my daughter and she is MUCH better thank you. What a blessing for the both of us to be able to work though some old deep stuff from a place of love and acceptance. I know that she was feeling slightly "odd" when we first started to do the work but after a while, she got into it and it was a wonderful synergy of energy that flowed between her and me and the Universe. Felt better than she had in weeks and the problem that she arrived with was nowhere in evidence even when I connected with her last night at her birthday party.
And my nights have been full too - every day this week now that I look back on it. Seems that I have been bringing in a lot of social engagements and while it is fun and takes you off into a wonderful world of bliss, being out there entails not being in here....inside me I mean and then, being able to share THAT with you all.
Lots of interesting people coming into my life these days too and these new entries into the world of Katrice take up time as well.
And now my day is almost half way through and I hate to admit it but I have thoroughly enjoyed myself just floating along getting bits and pieces of things accomplished. Moving forward but not FAST - cruising altitude I would say.
Have a wonderful Sunday and know that I am going to make a concerted effort to get back at it again....the writing that is. For I do enjoy this.
Blessings and Namaste
Ended up doing a Vibrational Healing session on my daughter and she is MUCH better thank you. What a blessing for the both of us to be able to work though some old deep stuff from a place of love and acceptance. I know that she was feeling slightly "odd" when we first started to do the work but after a while, she got into it and it was a wonderful synergy of energy that flowed between her and me and the Universe. Felt better than she had in weeks and the problem that she arrived with was nowhere in evidence even when I connected with her last night at her birthday party.
And my nights have been full too - every day this week now that I look back on it. Seems that I have been bringing in a lot of social engagements and while it is fun and takes you off into a wonderful world of bliss, being out there entails not being in here....inside me I mean and then, being able to share THAT with you all.
Lots of interesting people coming into my life these days too and these new entries into the world of Katrice take up time as well.
And now my day is almost half way through and I hate to admit it but I have thoroughly enjoyed myself just floating along getting bits and pieces of things accomplished. Moving forward but not FAST - cruising altitude I would say.
Have a wonderful Sunday and know that I am going to make a concerted effort to get back at it again....the writing that is. For I do enjoy this.
Blessings and Namaste
Thursday, June 21, 2007
shifting attitudes to MOM......smile
So it is now Friday and the day seems to be morphing into something completely different that what I had planned. I am reminded of the saying "Make plans. Make God Laugh". So I guess he/she is chuckling right about now. Not that any of the changes to my "plan" are life threatening or anything but it has shifted and now I will probably get even more accomplished that originally planned.
The biggest shift is that my daughter called and wants to have an energy session with me. This is BIG. For her to actually want Mom to help her with something on the physical level is completely foreign to how she has always been. I have noticed a shift within her and her attitude to me the past little while but THIS development is not only big, it is HUGE.
You see, she had always looked at me with some form of fear because of the energy that I carry and the fact that I can SEE things that others are not that aware of. Remember I am a Vibrational Healer and Intuitive so am able to suss out what is real from what is illusion. When she was younger and wilder she would try to pull the wool over my eyes but I just knew and she knew that I knew so tended to stay out of my sphere of influence because she understood that Mom would just know......she always did....smile She had also for a few years been involved in organized religion and you know how that part of society usually views people like me.........ARGH........it's the devil.......burn her at the stake. And to be perfectly honest here, she would cringe when I went to touch her or try to hug her for a while so you can see that this is indeed a huge shift in attitude for her. Anyway, I am really pleased at this shift for obvious reasons.
And other things have been magically shifting in other areas too but I will hold off on sharing some of these things until I can see if they are illusions or real true shifts. Stay tuned......
Blessings
The biggest shift is that my daughter called and wants to have an energy session with me. This is BIG. For her to actually want Mom to help her with something on the physical level is completely foreign to how she has always been. I have noticed a shift within her and her attitude to me the past little while but THIS development is not only big, it is HUGE.
You see, she had always looked at me with some form of fear because of the energy that I carry and the fact that I can SEE things that others are not that aware of. Remember I am a Vibrational Healer and Intuitive so am able to suss out what is real from what is illusion. When she was younger and wilder she would try to pull the wool over my eyes but I just knew and she knew that I knew so tended to stay out of my sphere of influence because she understood that Mom would just know......she always did....smile She had also for a few years been involved in organized religion and you know how that part of society usually views people like me.........ARGH........it's the devil.......burn her at the stake. And to be perfectly honest here, she would cringe when I went to touch her or try to hug her for a while so you can see that this is indeed a huge shift in attitude for her. Anyway, I am really pleased at this shift for obvious reasons.
And other things have been magically shifting in other areas too but I will hold off on sharing some of these things until I can see if they are illusions or real true shifts. Stay tuned......
Blessings
Thursday pondering
Boy oh Boy.....I missed another day. I tell you it must be the city or something or the business of certain days but I definitely missed yesterday. I thought about it but it never happened.
Was a good day though even though it was a tad full for me. Of course full for me is not the same as a full day for others. I don't like to have too many things to attend to int he course of a single day because then the pressure is on. I do remember a time long ago and far away...smile...when I obsessed about things to do. I would do this incredible amount of STUFF during my .....some was mine but more often than not it would revolve around a son or a daughter, a husband, a pet, the school........whew.....but like I said long ago and far away.
I just spent a lovely day doing exactly what I wanted to do and perhaps not on anyone elses list, but mine was great.......the list that is......
Thinking of going for a short stroll down to the beach for a while to sit and watch the passers by......its that sort of day. Lots of revelations during this day for me and tis time now to go and ponder them.
I'll probably be back later with more of my pondering of revelations......
Namaste
Was a good day though even though it was a tad full for me. Of course full for me is not the same as a full day for others. I don't like to have too many things to attend to int he course of a single day because then the pressure is on. I do remember a time long ago and far away...smile...when I obsessed about things to do. I would do this incredible amount of STUFF during my .....some was mine but more often than not it would revolve around a son or a daughter, a husband, a pet, the school........whew.....but like I said long ago and far away.
I just spent a lovely day doing exactly what I wanted to do and perhaps not on anyone elses list, but mine was great.......the list that is......
Thinking of going for a short stroll down to the beach for a while to sit and watch the passers by......its that sort of day. Lots of revelations during this day for me and tis time now to go and ponder them.
I'll probably be back later with more of my pondering of revelations......
Namaste
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
a low energy day
Woke up this morning early again. Didn't sleep well........one of those days I guess. Had thought that things this week were going to be different but I guess I'll chalk it all up to mercury retrograde. Had expectations about certain things and they are all falling into the abyss. Not that any of the "things" I am referring to here are life altering or anything but there are times when I do look forward to things and then when they shift into something other than what I had expected, I do find myself sinking into a lower vibration. I'll move through it of course....I always do but at this precise moment, I am feeling low. Big sigh.
Have lots of things to do and other plans that I am hoping will remain as planned but I guess it is time to find some other things to do to replace the plans that fell through. Life can be such a pain at times. We look forward to things and events and then POOF.....they shift. I am getting very good at not expecting things but sometimes I think that it becomes a way of being where the trust that things will work out the way you want them to never materializes so that TRUST issue seems to be up for me again.
I want to be able to move forward with some modicum of trust in the outcomes but the past few years, my life has been rather topsy turvy. I of course chose this life that I am leading but at times I do tire of the incessant quest for perfection or at least a sense of calm as I find myself moving in limbo a lot of the time.
I had better go to the gym and get out of this funk that I can feel creeping up on me.
Have a great day whoever is reading these words right now.
Blessings
Have lots of things to do and other plans that I am hoping will remain as planned but I guess it is time to find some other things to do to replace the plans that fell through. Life can be such a pain at times. We look forward to things and events and then POOF.....they shift. I am getting very good at not expecting things but sometimes I think that it becomes a way of being where the trust that things will work out the way you want them to never materializes so that TRUST issue seems to be up for me again.
I want to be able to move forward with some modicum of trust in the outcomes but the past few years, my life has been rather topsy turvy. I of course chose this life that I am leading but at times I do tire of the incessant quest for perfection or at least a sense of calm as I find myself moving in limbo a lot of the time.
I had better go to the gym and get out of this funk that I can feel creeping up on me.
Have a great day whoever is reading these words right now.
Blessings
Monday, June 18, 2007
musings on writing
I read another article from this man that I subscribe to......not him perse but his musings. He is also a writer and todays article talked about him picking up the first copy of his VERY FIRST novel in print form. He talks about the process of writing and what it all entails and how we, as writers need to get out messages out there.
It made me pause. I have so many different articles and stories that are currtently in different forms in either the computer, on discs, on cd's, everywhere but that ever present urge to create something new continually calls to me. Having the blog is a useful tool to at least get some of these thoughts out there on a retgular basis but the idea of sitting down and editing all that has come before seems such a daunting task. As I sit here actually I am looking at a large rumpled yellow file folder that holds, at least count, 242 pages of MY story. Perhaps that is what I need to do at this time. Rewrite it! It is my personal autobiography detailing in fictionalized form my journey from where I once was to where I now am. I started this story about 5 years ago and it was really my first attempt at fiction. However, since it is really my story, it became very VERY personal and I just stopped. Hmmmmmmm, time to pick it up again.
Reading this man's words this morning after I had taken my old manuscript out of hiding just yesterday made me realize that this is the next project that I need to take on. He talks about how now that the story is out in print form he can get on with the rest of his life had me thinking long and hard about what the next part of my life will be. Not being heavy here but most people in my age group (of course I keep saying that age is only a number) are looking at retirement and settling down to a more sedate lifestyle and that is just not in the cards for me. Is this good? I don't know but I do know that it works for me.
So the writing......finish the first manuscript or should I say completely rewrite it as it was the first bit of fiction that I attempted. There are parts of it that will remain but I feel that this time around a newer more expansive writer will be taking control of the helm....that would be ME.
Got up early again this morning as I have a lot on my plate today which is good. But for the moment, the gym calls to me.
Blessings and Aloha
It made me pause. I have so many different articles and stories that are currtently in different forms in either the computer, on discs, on cd's, everywhere but that ever present urge to create something new continually calls to me. Having the blog is a useful tool to at least get some of these thoughts out there on a retgular basis but the idea of sitting down and editing all that has come before seems such a daunting task. As I sit here actually I am looking at a large rumpled yellow file folder that holds, at least count, 242 pages of MY story. Perhaps that is what I need to do at this time. Rewrite it! It is my personal autobiography detailing in fictionalized form my journey from where I once was to where I now am. I started this story about 5 years ago and it was really my first attempt at fiction. However, since it is really my story, it became very VERY personal and I just stopped. Hmmmmmmm, time to pick it up again.
Reading this man's words this morning after I had taken my old manuscript out of hiding just yesterday made me realize that this is the next project that I need to take on. He talks about how now that the story is out in print form he can get on with the rest of his life had me thinking long and hard about what the next part of my life will be. Not being heavy here but most people in my age group (of course I keep saying that age is only a number) are looking at retirement and settling down to a more sedate lifestyle and that is just not in the cards for me. Is this good? I don't know but I do know that it works for me.
So the writing......finish the first manuscript or should I say completely rewrite it as it was the first bit of fiction that I attempted. There are parts of it that will remain but I feel that this time around a newer more expansive writer will be taking control of the helm....that would be ME.
Got up early again this morning as I have a lot on my plate today which is good. But for the moment, the gym calls to me.
Blessings and Aloha
Saturday, June 16, 2007
Happy Father's Day
Having a hard time deciding what to write today. Had a very smooth flowing day actually and not one bit of me is really wanting to write anything. Hmmmmmmmmm.
There is a book called The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. Have you heard of it? I read it years ago and remember one of the main things about this book was that to be a creative and expressive being when it comes to writing you need to show up at the page on a daily basis. And it is true but what happens when, like now, you have nothing much of note to utter. You still show up and simply let the words flow on to the page.
So went shopping yesterday with this new friend. And ended up spending 8 hours with him. We laughed, talked, shopped for vegies, prepared a meal together, ate and sipped wine AND danced. So far the perfect date for me and he also has a shadow side that came up but instead of running for the hills, I realized that his shadow matches my shadow if we can call it that. So I am looking forward to doing many more things with him. He likes to ride bikes, canoe, spend time outdoors being active. I mean really, feels quite good and I have to note that since my first date with him which was on Thursday, I have started sleeping through the night again. Good sign.
Just came back from sitting on the beach with another friend. Finally the sun came out for about an hour today and we could sit in the warmth and bask for a while. Didn't last long but at least I got to sit on the beach which I love. This summer seems to be taking forever to get going but I know that within the next couple of weeks, we will probably all be complaining about the heat.....well, most people will. I happen to like the heat and it is never as hot as it got on Kauai so bring it on.
So, enough of this drivel. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be more in the groove.
Oh and Happy Father's Day.
Blessings and Namaste
There is a book called The Artist's Way by Julia Cameron. Have you heard of it? I read it years ago and remember one of the main things about this book was that to be a creative and expressive being when it comes to writing you need to show up at the page on a daily basis. And it is true but what happens when, like now, you have nothing much of note to utter. You still show up and simply let the words flow on to the page.
So went shopping yesterday with this new friend. And ended up spending 8 hours with him. We laughed, talked, shopped for vegies, prepared a meal together, ate and sipped wine AND danced. So far the perfect date for me and he also has a shadow side that came up but instead of running for the hills, I realized that his shadow matches my shadow if we can call it that. So I am looking forward to doing many more things with him. He likes to ride bikes, canoe, spend time outdoors being active. I mean really, feels quite good and I have to note that since my first date with him which was on Thursday, I have started sleeping through the night again. Good sign.
Just came back from sitting on the beach with another friend. Finally the sun came out for about an hour today and we could sit in the warmth and bask for a while. Didn't last long but at least I got to sit on the beach which I love. This summer seems to be taking forever to get going but I know that within the next couple of weeks, we will probably all be complaining about the heat.....well, most people will. I happen to like the heat and it is never as hot as it got on Kauai so bring it on.
So, enough of this drivel. I'm sure tomorrow I'll be more in the groove.
Oh and Happy Father's Day.
Blessings and Namaste
bladiblah
It's funny but a number of people have told me that they have not looked at my blog since I returned from Kauai. I guess people feel that the only time people would actually do this.....write in their blog....is while they are on vacation. I also realize that since I started it just prior to leaving on my little adventure that people, again, assumed that it was only for that. BUt it was always meant to be more....at least to me.
I liken it to a task master or something like that. It is something that is required of me as a part of my "routine" if you can call it that. Unlike many people I do not actually have a routine as I don't go to "work" every day. So having something that is a constant in my life is an important thing. I do tend to waffle and wander through my days sometimes so the blog was to act as a constant in my life. Does that make sense? So far it has been working and I do feel like I am settling in to somewhat of a routine. If only in the sense of showing up at the page on a daily basis.
Did some research yesterday with regards to my next little writing project. Got lots of different ideas and realized that I have my very own definite style. While reading some of the specialists in certain fields as they relate to what I am planning on writing next, I understand that I was not looking at how to do it, but more on how OTHERS do it. Plan on checking out a lot more in the next couple of days but I have to say, that I am still quite pleased with what I have already put on paper. It is nice to know that a path that you have chosen to trod for a while seems to be in sync with what you resonate with at that particular juncture. I also just noticed that I tend to write in the second or even third person when writing about me.......any thoughts on why that is?
Perhaps a distancing from my own true self......? Hmmmmmm, I'll have to work with that one later. But for the moment, I am heading out to go "shopping" for something with a new friend. Now this is a new MALE friend and the fact that HE suggested going to this particular store should be interesting. I am NOT a shopper by any stretch of the imagination but I am curious to learn more about him so off I go into shopper dom.
I'll report back later.
I liken it to a task master or something like that. It is something that is required of me as a part of my "routine" if you can call it that. Unlike many people I do not actually have a routine as I don't go to "work" every day. So having something that is a constant in my life is an important thing. I do tend to waffle and wander through my days sometimes so the blog was to act as a constant in my life. Does that make sense? So far it has been working and I do feel like I am settling in to somewhat of a routine. If only in the sense of showing up at the page on a daily basis.
Did some research yesterday with regards to my next little writing project. Got lots of different ideas and realized that I have my very own definite style. While reading some of the specialists in certain fields as they relate to what I am planning on writing next, I understand that I was not looking at how to do it, but more on how OTHERS do it. Plan on checking out a lot more in the next couple of days but I have to say, that I am still quite pleased with what I have already put on paper. It is nice to know that a path that you have chosen to trod for a while seems to be in sync with what you resonate with at that particular juncture. I also just noticed that I tend to write in the second or even third person when writing about me.......any thoughts on why that is?
Perhaps a distancing from my own true self......? Hmmmmmm, I'll have to work with that one later. But for the moment, I am heading out to go "shopping" for something with a new friend. Now this is a new MALE friend and the fact that HE suggested going to this particular store should be interesting. I am NOT a shopper by any stretch of the imagination but I am curious to learn more about him so off I go into shopper dom.
I'll report back later.
I can't believe I did it again
I just realized that I didn't post at all yesterday. I thought it was still Friday night but as I sit here I notice that it is now 12:19 a.m. so in theory, I DID miss posting uh.....yesterday.
But it wasn't like I wasn't doing things. I was busy, made some money, which is a good thing, took my daughter out for dinner and drinks and then to a rock concert. SHEESH, hadn't been to one of those in a very long while but it was a great night. My son and his girlfriend were at the same concert but they were all "la di da" since they got to watch the show from a private box. just kidding but it was nice to see all my kids at a rock concert. I mean how many women my age get to do that. Special.......I think.
Anyway, I'm off to bed and I'll try to make sure to write something before I head out on my day tomorrow.
Blessings
But it wasn't like I wasn't doing things. I was busy, made some money, which is a good thing, took my daughter out for dinner and drinks and then to a rock concert. SHEESH, hadn't been to one of those in a very long while but it was a great night. My son and his girlfriend were at the same concert but they were all "la di da" since they got to watch the show from a private box. just kidding but it was nice to see all my kids at a rock concert. I mean how many women my age get to do that. Special.......I think.
Anyway, I'm off to bed and I'll try to make sure to write something before I head out on my day tomorrow.
Blessings
Thursday, June 14, 2007
floating through my day......
It is after 5:00 p.m. here and I just realized that I didn't write in my blog today. What a spacey day I have had today. Did things that every normal person does but felt like I was off in the clouds most of the time. It is funny but when I am not focussing on my work or my writing, I feel like my days are completely wasted. And then I remember when I was married with children, the day that I have just experienced would have been the norm for me.
Doing laundry, changing bed linen, doing dishes, shopping, banking, going to the gym - used to feel like a full day. but today even looking at what I have done and seeing the list before me it seems somehow flat. How times have changed? How I have changed?
Got some books from the library for research on my next project. Since I realize thatI have to come up with some works of literary masterpieces that will actually put some money in my pocket I got some Anais Nin books and started to pour over them while sitting in the sun on a bench by the beach once the sun finally came out. She is the one of the firsts and supposedly one of the best female writers of erotica so reading her thoughts and words seems like a good course to study. I did start to write a little something the other day but kept getting interrupted and perhaps I can return to it later this week. I do tend to get distracted and scattered. Need to work on that.
Was considering getting a real job again and then a friend told me to forget it. As she said, "you have been threatening to do that for years. I don't see you doing it now so stop procastinating and just write." She has a point.
A girly girl friend of mine is arriving for a 20 hour layover on Father's Day. She is a flight attendant and another crazy Aquarian so we are looking forward to playing for the day and evening. I mentioned that it is funny that she is arriving for Father's Day. Must mean that we need to infuse some of the divine feminine Goddessy energy into the mix. Look out Vancouver...smile.......
So now off to make some dinner and then meeting a friend for a drink at the Sylvia. For those of you who aren't familiar with Vancouver, the Sylvia is an old heritage hotel down the street from my place and across from the same beach that sat at earlier this afternoon devouring Anais Nin's words. The sunset from the windows there are beautiful and it is always a quiet place. Somewhere nice to sit and sip and share with others.
May your night be full of warm surprises.
Namaste
Doing laundry, changing bed linen, doing dishes, shopping, banking, going to the gym - used to feel like a full day. but today even looking at what I have done and seeing the list before me it seems somehow flat. How times have changed? How I have changed?
Got some books from the library for research on my next project. Since I realize thatI have to come up with some works of literary masterpieces that will actually put some money in my pocket I got some Anais Nin books and started to pour over them while sitting in the sun on a bench by the beach once the sun finally came out. She is the one of the firsts and supposedly one of the best female writers of erotica so reading her thoughts and words seems like a good course to study. I did start to write a little something the other day but kept getting interrupted and perhaps I can return to it later this week. I do tend to get distracted and scattered. Need to work on that.
Was considering getting a real job again and then a friend told me to forget it. As she said, "you have been threatening to do that for years. I don't see you doing it now so stop procastinating and just write." She has a point.
A girly girl friend of mine is arriving for a 20 hour layover on Father's Day. She is a flight attendant and another crazy Aquarian so we are looking forward to playing for the day and evening. I mentioned that it is funny that she is arriving for Father's Day. Must mean that we need to infuse some of the divine feminine Goddessy energy into the mix. Look out Vancouver...smile.......
So now off to make some dinner and then meeting a friend for a drink at the Sylvia. For those of you who aren't familiar with Vancouver, the Sylvia is an old heritage hotel down the street from my place and across from the same beach that sat at earlier this afternoon devouring Anais Nin's words. The sunset from the windows there are beautiful and it is always a quiet place. Somewhere nice to sit and sip and share with others.
May your night be full of warm surprises.
Namaste
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Good day today
Just had the most amazing meditation circle. Each and every person present received so much healing tonight. Of course that was the original intention for our circle this evening as I wanted to start to work with the essence of the discordance that is currently running in my friends body.
Each person present came out of the meditation with tears pouring down their faces. Was quite profound for some of them as they are NOT the type of people who show their emotions but with the intention and the assistance of our guides and angels, anyone can sense the deeper resonance of their own Soul and that can be a pretty emotional thing. I feel so blessed to be able to do this work and spirit came threw loud and clear for me tonight.
Ended up having an awesome day today. Did an amazing healing session on one young Crystal woman. And then I had an awesome session with another person who just happens to live around the corner from me so will be spending more time with her as well.
I realized that I was in a state of shock yesterday and lucky for me I met a person who is also a healer and he gave me a couple of amazing healing stones to hold as he balanced my energy early this afternoon. Set the tone for the rest of the day did he and feelings of gratitude were very present.
Feeling much better and re-grounded in my own energy and that is a very good thing.
Blessings
Each person present came out of the meditation with tears pouring down their faces. Was quite profound for some of them as they are NOT the type of people who show their emotions but with the intention and the assistance of our guides and angels, anyone can sense the deeper resonance of their own Soul and that can be a pretty emotional thing. I feel so blessed to be able to do this work and spirit came threw loud and clear for me tonight.
Ended up having an awesome day today. Did an amazing healing session on one young Crystal woman. And then I had an awesome session with another person who just happens to live around the corner from me so will be spending more time with her as well.
I realized that I was in a state of shock yesterday and lucky for me I met a person who is also a healer and he gave me a couple of amazing healing stones to hold as he balanced my energy early this afternoon. Set the tone for the rest of the day did he and feelings of gratitude were very present.
Feeling much better and re-grounded in my own energy and that is a very good thing.
Blessings
thoughts on receiving
Didn't sleep much last night and trying to get a handle on how I am feeling today. Received an email from my "friend" and he is concerned about my stability. MY stability....... Does he not understand how his illness is affecting me? I guess he feels that since he is able to compartmentalize that I should be able to put my feelings up on a shelf and forget about him. So the only thing left for me to do is back off and stop trying to help so much. This is one of my life lessons to be sure.
I tend to want to charge in and fix things or at the very least have a hand in bringing things to a positive and happy resolution. But like it or not, there are those who are not wanting to receive all that I offer. Sad actually....not so much for them but for me. You see, much of who I am has always been that of the GIVER. Receiving has always been harder for me. Of course now with this latest development I am chomping at the bit to get going. But I have been given a red light. Stop and let it be. He has made it clear that he does not want me to be so intent on helping. Not a surprise actually even though when he is with me, he is very able to receive all that I give. But when he leaves, I am put back on the shelf until he has time for me or chooses to be available for me and my loving minstrations.
I know that if I don't step back from this, I will find myself getting sick and that will not be a good thing at all. With my friends illness, I realize that he has his loved ones around and does not really need me. That made me wonder what would happen should I get sick down the road. I have not been very good at maintaining friendships with others and there is no significant other in my life. Who would really show up for me should I succumb to some serious illness? Not that I am wanting to project something adverse happening to me, but it does make you think.
Not a very uplifting message for this morning for which I apologize but at the end of the day, I think that I have this blog for me. Sharing it with others, whether or not I get any feedback at all, somehow makes me feel like there are others who are there for me. Now I am sounding rather plaintive aren't I?
Hope you have a joy filled day full of wonderful surprises. That is what I am projecting for me this day.
Blessings
I tend to want to charge in and fix things or at the very least have a hand in bringing things to a positive and happy resolution. But like it or not, there are those who are not wanting to receive all that I offer. Sad actually....not so much for them but for me. You see, much of who I am has always been that of the GIVER. Receiving has always been harder for me. Of course now with this latest development I am chomping at the bit to get going. But I have been given a red light. Stop and let it be. He has made it clear that he does not want me to be so intent on helping. Not a surprise actually even though when he is with me, he is very able to receive all that I give. But when he leaves, I am put back on the shelf until he has time for me or chooses to be available for me and my loving minstrations.
I know that if I don't step back from this, I will find myself getting sick and that will not be a good thing at all. With my friends illness, I realize that he has his loved ones around and does not really need me. That made me wonder what would happen should I get sick down the road. I have not been very good at maintaining friendships with others and there is no significant other in my life. Who would really show up for me should I succumb to some serious illness? Not that I am wanting to project something adverse happening to me, but it does make you think.
Not a very uplifting message for this morning for which I apologize but at the end of the day, I think that I have this blog for me. Sharing it with others, whether or not I get any feedback at all, somehow makes me feel like there are others who are there for me. Now I am sounding rather plaintive aren't I?
Hope you have a joy filled day full of wonderful surprises. That is what I am projecting for me this day.
Blessings
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
Transitions
THAT man with whom I have been in and out of whatever it is that we are "in" just found out that his cancer has returned. So, as you can imagine, this will be a huge part of my life for the next while. I'm feeling very human at the moment and while I know that we are spirit in the flesh, the fleshy part of me is reacting big time.
What is this lesson that I am being thrown into this time? Tried to disengage many times over the past 18 months and each time we reconnected, another piece of the puzzle came into play. But this? What is THIS?
Is this to test my strength as a healer?
Is this to test my belief in Spirit?
Is this for me to grow into that place where having another in my life - in the physical - is not the be all and end all to my life?
It's just one big test. Why it is here matters not nearly as much as figuring out how to do what I do........give of myself so that others may gain. Perhaps I have been trying to gain with all that giving and this is the lesson. To give unconditionally........to love unconditionally........
That just may be it...........
A friend actually asked me that question this morning. He said "Katrice, perhaps you should look at your motives in delving into this healing of this man" or words to that affect and I realized that perhaps I did have ulterior motives in all of this. I won't go into the whole affair, but suffice to say I wanted him to love me best. But knowing him like I do, he loves me the way that he does and he loves others in the way that he does and there is no choice to be had. It is what it is and while I hate to admit it to myself, I do wish it was other than what it is. And now this?
Is it possible to step away for good or do I even want to do that?
Whoa......tis a tangled web we weave - Us humans.
Anyway, all those other questions up above were all rhetorical you realize. I don't actually feel that anyone else is going to have the answer for me in all of this. For after all, it is my lesson but I will be seriously looking into the unconditionality of it all in the days and weeks to come.....
Namaste
Katrice
What is this lesson that I am being thrown into this time? Tried to disengage many times over the past 18 months and each time we reconnected, another piece of the puzzle came into play. But this? What is THIS?
Is this to test my strength as a healer?
Is this to test my belief in Spirit?
Is this for me to grow into that place where having another in my life - in the physical - is not the be all and end all to my life?
It's just one big test. Why it is here matters not nearly as much as figuring out how to do what I do........give of myself so that others may gain. Perhaps I have been trying to gain with all that giving and this is the lesson. To give unconditionally........to love unconditionally........
That just may be it...........
A friend actually asked me that question this morning. He said "Katrice, perhaps you should look at your motives in delving into this healing of this man" or words to that affect and I realized that perhaps I did have ulterior motives in all of this. I won't go into the whole affair, but suffice to say I wanted him to love me best. But knowing him like I do, he loves me the way that he does and he loves others in the way that he does and there is no choice to be had. It is what it is and while I hate to admit it to myself, I do wish it was other than what it is. And now this?
Is it possible to step away for good or do I even want to do that?
Whoa......tis a tangled web we weave - Us humans.
Anyway, all those other questions up above were all rhetorical you realize. I don't actually feel that anyone else is going to have the answer for me in all of this. For after all, it is my lesson but I will be seriously looking into the unconditionality of it all in the days and weeks to come.....
Namaste
Katrice
Monday, June 11, 2007
TRUE HEALERS
So big SHIFT this morning. A friend called and came over to visit. He had just come from his doctors office and was not looking very good. Turns out that his cancer has returned. I had been feeling something like this coming on for the past few months but when he shared it, I felt like I had been hit with a ton of bricks.
And yes...this would be the HIM of which I have occasionally ranted in these posts. Now what? He came to MY house when he heard the news. Sigh...............
So now the test of myself as a TRUE HEALER begins.
Blessings and Namaste
And yes...this would be the HIM of which I have occasionally ranted in these posts. Now what? He came to MY house when he heard the news. Sigh...............
So now the test of myself as a TRUE HEALER begins.
Blessings and Namaste
weirdos of the world unite.......
Monday morning here. I find that generally I look forward to Mondays - unlike a lot of people. Today has dawned rather dreary actually. Lots of cloud cover AGAIN and it feels very muggy. So I presume before long the rains will once more be dumping on us. It does keep things green which is a good thing. Of course, for those people who live out in the suburbs they are scrambling because of all the flood warnings. Glad I live on the 4th floor.....smile
Had an interesting coffee meeting yesterday. I only say interesting because half way through, I got this really uncomforrtable feeling and simply stood up and said I'm not enjoying this conversation and I walked out - never to look back. It amazes me at how much some people simply assume that the person they are talking to will actually be enjoying listening to a story that would normally be reserved for VERY close friends. Anyway, these meeting for coffee things are really starting to bore me anyway so, yes, I am going to cease and desist for a while. While it can be entertaining for a while, I am not one of those women who really likes to "date" or whatever meeting for coffee is. I have a number of male friends who are just that - friends - and I find that I can get my Male attentionf ix and have fun with them instead of meeting up with one goof or another who is only interested in seeing how far he can get within 4 minutes of meeting me. I kid you not. They are only there to see if I will succumb to their - I hesitate to call them - "charms". I mean what on earth is wrong with most of the male population.
Oh oh I feel a rant coming on. What is it about the men of the world at the moment, or perhaps it is simply the men that I am attracting to me?
I want to say to my new friend JOHN, you are not included in this....smile.
I have always been pretty open and up front and have no problem discussing almost anything BUT I do draw the line at someone telling me about his last date with someone who just happened to fulfill his most erotic fantasy. I mean I had not even had a full cup of coffee and there he was starting to share. I say starting to share because once I saw where this was leading, I got out of there. I love to laugh and have fun and I can talk about anything - and I mean ANY thing with most people. But when I hardly know someone and this topic gets opened up so fast I wonder at the sanity of my being so open and accomodating to others.
Hmmmmm, perhaps that is one of the problems now that I think about it. Perhaps in my quest to be there for others I have inadvertantly opened myself up to the all the weirdos of the world. Those people who are so in need of shocking others that they feel that they can do so immediately upon meeting me. Something to consider.
Anyway, things to do on this Monday morning so I bid you all adieu......
Blessings and Aloha
Had an interesting coffee meeting yesterday. I only say interesting because half way through, I got this really uncomforrtable feeling and simply stood up and said I'm not enjoying this conversation and I walked out - never to look back. It amazes me at how much some people simply assume that the person they are talking to will actually be enjoying listening to a story that would normally be reserved for VERY close friends. Anyway, these meeting for coffee things are really starting to bore me anyway so, yes, I am going to cease and desist for a while. While it can be entertaining for a while, I am not one of those women who really likes to "date" or whatever meeting for coffee is. I have a number of male friends who are just that - friends - and I find that I can get my Male attentionf ix and have fun with them instead of meeting up with one goof or another who is only interested in seeing how far he can get within 4 minutes of meeting me. I kid you not. They are only there to see if I will succumb to their - I hesitate to call them - "charms". I mean what on earth is wrong with most of the male population.
Oh oh I feel a rant coming on. What is it about the men of the world at the moment, or perhaps it is simply the men that I am attracting to me?
I want to say to my new friend JOHN, you are not included in this....smile.
I have always been pretty open and up front and have no problem discussing almost anything BUT I do draw the line at someone telling me about his last date with someone who just happened to fulfill his most erotic fantasy. I mean I had not even had a full cup of coffee and there he was starting to share. I say starting to share because once I saw where this was leading, I got out of there. I love to laugh and have fun and I can talk about anything - and I mean ANY thing with most people. But when I hardly know someone and this topic gets opened up so fast I wonder at the sanity of my being so open and accomodating to others.
Hmmmmm, perhaps that is one of the problems now that I think about it. Perhaps in my quest to be there for others I have inadvertantly opened myself up to the all the weirdos of the world. Those people who are so in need of shocking others that they feel that they can do so immediately upon meeting me. Something to consider.
Anyway, things to do on this Monday morning so I bid you all adieu......
Blessings and Aloha
Sunday, June 10, 2007
flowing with the day
Sunday morning and it is very quiet out there. Feeling very quiet IN here too. Thanks to those of you who are wondering what is happening. I didn't realize that people actually come here and look to see what I am writing about and when I miss a day or two, you are letting me know that you noticed. Awwwwwww, you noticed.......smile
So what have I been up to. Can't say a lot but I have been having a bit more fun than usual in the Yee Haw mode. Meaning that I have been - how to put this delicately - ahem......I guess partying might be the best way to explain it. Not that I am a big partyer at all but it seems that this past week, there have been all these opportunities to have drinks and share meals with a bunch of different people. Lots of laughter and feelings of JOY have been present and it is rather odd that I have not been sharing this with you all. I guess I just haven't felt the NEED to share. Hmmmmmmm.
But at the end of the day, as I have said many times now, the writing is a big part of me and perhaps with the "fun" that I have been having this past week, it is serving to let me know that I can get off track very easily. Fun is a great thing in our lives but when we let it be the only thing that is happening, then other, more pressing and important things in our lives tend to fall to the wayside. Now I don't mean that I have to forgo fun but it is very important for me to remain grounded in my life and when I get distracted, that same life tends to slide from one place to another without a whole lot getting accomplished. And I do tend to get distracted quite easily.
So now as to today. Lots of possibilities but nothing set in stone as of yet. I could get organized for the next week and that would make a lot of sense. I could get started on my next writing project if I could figure out what I want to start on next. See..........lots of distractions and not a lot of groundedness.....is that even a word??
But for the moment, I will simply let the day unfold in the manner that IT chooses to do.
Blessings and Aloha
So what have I been up to. Can't say a lot but I have been having a bit more fun than usual in the Yee Haw mode. Meaning that I have been - how to put this delicately - ahem......I guess partying might be the best way to explain it. Not that I am a big partyer at all but it seems that this past week, there have been all these opportunities to have drinks and share meals with a bunch of different people. Lots of laughter and feelings of JOY have been present and it is rather odd that I have not been sharing this with you all. I guess I just haven't felt the NEED to share. Hmmmmmmm.
But at the end of the day, as I have said many times now, the writing is a big part of me and perhaps with the "fun" that I have been having this past week, it is serving to let me know that I can get off track very easily. Fun is a great thing in our lives but when we let it be the only thing that is happening, then other, more pressing and important things in our lives tend to fall to the wayside. Now I don't mean that I have to forgo fun but it is very important for me to remain grounded in my life and when I get distracted, that same life tends to slide from one place to another without a whole lot getting accomplished. And I do tend to get distracted quite easily.
So now as to today. Lots of possibilities but nothing set in stone as of yet. I could get organized for the next week and that would make a lot of sense. I could get started on my next writing project if I could figure out what I want to start on next. See..........lots of distractions and not a lot of groundedness.....is that even a word??
But for the moment, I will simply let the day unfold in the manner that IT chooses to do.
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, June 08, 2007
staying present
Someone said to me the other day that I had not written anything for the previous day and I said of course I had. I write everyday but then I checked back here and realized that I have indeed been remiss in entering something for the past couple of days. This concerns me because when I start to neglect things that give me pleasure, I need to reassess what is up......argh.
Have been feeling slightly out of balance for the past couple of days and not really anything significant to warrant this. Feeling like I am floating around without an anchor and while I am able to do this, this time it is feeling very VERY floaty. Of course I know that planetarily it is a bit of a challenge staying grounded right now with so many planets in fire and air signs but knowing this does not seem to be helping me much right now. It is not a bad thing perse, but I am not accomplishing what I could be and THAT bothers me.
I did actually sit and make up some new business cards when I was trying to help someone who was having a hard time. Too weird for ME to be helping someone else with computer literacy. I mean really, this has not been one of my gifts but while I ws trying to talk her through the same program on her computer while I had it open here I found out how to do something that I had never been able to do before. So while I may not be very grounded and definitely floating through my days at the moment, I now have a new business card with a lovely picture of me prominently displayed...........big smile.
So there, for those of you who wondered where I have been, I have not gone anywhere, just not too present HERE.
Blessings and Aloha
Have been feeling slightly out of balance for the past couple of days and not really anything significant to warrant this. Feeling like I am floating around without an anchor and while I am able to do this, this time it is feeling very VERY floaty. Of course I know that planetarily it is a bit of a challenge staying grounded right now with so many planets in fire and air signs but knowing this does not seem to be helping me much right now. It is not a bad thing perse, but I am not accomplishing what I could be and THAT bothers me.
I did actually sit and make up some new business cards when I was trying to help someone who was having a hard time. Too weird for ME to be helping someone else with computer literacy. I mean really, this has not been one of my gifts but while I ws trying to talk her through the same program on her computer while I had it open here I found out how to do something that I had never been able to do before. So while I may not be very grounded and definitely floating through my days at the moment, I now have a new business card with a lovely picture of me prominently displayed...........big smile.
So there, for those of you who wondered where I have been, I have not gone anywhere, just not too present HERE.
Blessings and Aloha
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
Creating the life we lead
I just read over what I wrote yesterday and am pleased to see that I am still on the right path. No questionning my decision. I tend to do that. Question my decisions that is. But this time in my heart I know that I have crossed a hurdle. Ahhhhhh, feels good.
Was reading something about forgiveness earlier. It brought to mind a book that I read a while back called Radical Forgiveness. The main premise in that book is that there is actually NOTHING to FORGIVE because all situations that we find ourselves in are those that we have called to ourselves. So, if we called it to us, how can we start to blame another for the place we find ourselves now in. Good point and one that I am working with on a daily basis.
Becoming aware of how we are the creators of our life has some HUGE ramifications for us. Once we take full responsibility for our lives, we start to pay attention to everything that is going on around us, coming to us, leaving us, percolating within us. Everything that is ongoing in my life is the result of what I have created. So today if part of that reality is not feeling in alignment with me anymore, it is my choice to change it or to continue to flog through it.
I think I will opt for the change choice......smile
Have a wonderful day wherever you are. I am planning on doing just that.....having a wonderful day.
Blessings and Aloha
Was reading something about forgiveness earlier. It brought to mind a book that I read a while back called Radical Forgiveness. The main premise in that book is that there is actually NOTHING to FORGIVE because all situations that we find ourselves in are those that we have called to ourselves. So, if we called it to us, how can we start to blame another for the place we find ourselves now in. Good point and one that I am working with on a daily basis.
Becoming aware of how we are the creators of our life has some HUGE ramifications for us. Once we take full responsibility for our lives, we start to pay attention to everything that is going on around us, coming to us, leaving us, percolating within us. Everything that is ongoing in my life is the result of what I have created. So today if part of that reality is not feeling in alignment with me anymore, it is my choice to change it or to continue to flog through it.
I think I will opt for the change choice......smile
Have a wonderful day wherever you are. I am planning on doing just that.....having a wonderful day.
Blessings and Aloha
speaking our truth
One of the things that I do is teach spiritual development classes and tonight was one of those nights. During the course of the class we were talking about how suppressing our hopes and dreams for fear of upsetting others can lead us into a very shallow way of being. And I made note of something that I said to them.
It was "If we are not speaking our truth; whose life is it that we are leading.
When we stop ourselves from speaking our truth to others, we are also denying ourself to, well, our Self. I think we are all guilty of this from time to time. I know that sometimes instead of saying exactly what is on my mind in the moment I either paraphrase it or say something completely different just so that the other person with whom I am conversing feels that he or she got something from me. Of course they only got a watered down version of what I really felt at the time.
I noticed myself doing that last evening with a friend. He was talking about something down the road that I had originally considered assisting him with. However, now that I am hearing the reality of what it is that he had originally proposed I have changed my mind. Of course in that moment, to have voiced this to this person would have prompted angry words so I chose to utter nothing. Now however having had some time to seriously consider all the ramifications of his proposal, I realize that I will not be going forward with the venture and I will of course have to share this with him. But at that moment last night, I faltered.
And the why is the same as it is with so many of us when we balk at speaking OUR truth. We are afraid of the reprecussions of our decision since our decision is not in alignment with what our potential business/personal/creative partner has in mind. I do know however that I did make a firm decision in my own mind last night and by the time that I have to voice my truth pertaining to this opportunity, I will be so firm in my decision that it will not matter one iota how he reacts.
So there you have it for today. One very tired camper is this little lady. Didn't sleep one wink last night. I guess all of that mind chatter kept me awake and my whole body seemed to be vibrating all night long. Not an easy way to fall into a gentle slumber. More like trying to remain grounded while I am vibrating at a resonance that is even too much for me. It will be interesting to see what transpires over the next two weeks with regards to my decision.
When reading about the current planetary alignments, I am not surprised at all at what is occuring in my life at this time. To put it in a nutshell, there are a whole whack of planets in either air or fire signs with NO planets in earth signs. So what this means is that there is a potential for a HUGE firestorm or flare up or something along those lines, so be very aware of what is going on energetically for you too. And with no earth energy it will be hard to remain grounded at any time. It could prove to be a very very interesting week..
Blessings and Aloha
It was "If we are not speaking our truth; whose life is it that we are leading.
When we stop ourselves from speaking our truth to others, we are also denying ourself to, well, our Self. I think we are all guilty of this from time to time. I know that sometimes instead of saying exactly what is on my mind in the moment I either paraphrase it or say something completely different just so that the other person with whom I am conversing feels that he or she got something from me. Of course they only got a watered down version of what I really felt at the time.
I noticed myself doing that last evening with a friend. He was talking about something down the road that I had originally considered assisting him with. However, now that I am hearing the reality of what it is that he had originally proposed I have changed my mind. Of course in that moment, to have voiced this to this person would have prompted angry words so I chose to utter nothing. Now however having had some time to seriously consider all the ramifications of his proposal, I realize that I will not be going forward with the venture and I will of course have to share this with him. But at that moment last night, I faltered.
And the why is the same as it is with so many of us when we balk at speaking OUR truth. We are afraid of the reprecussions of our decision since our decision is not in alignment with what our potential business/personal/creative partner has in mind. I do know however that I did make a firm decision in my own mind last night and by the time that I have to voice my truth pertaining to this opportunity, I will be so firm in my decision that it will not matter one iota how he reacts.
So there you have it for today. One very tired camper is this little lady. Didn't sleep one wink last night. I guess all of that mind chatter kept me awake and my whole body seemed to be vibrating all night long. Not an easy way to fall into a gentle slumber. More like trying to remain grounded while I am vibrating at a resonance that is even too much for me. It will be interesting to see what transpires over the next two weeks with regards to my decision.
When reading about the current planetary alignments, I am not surprised at all at what is occuring in my life at this time. To put it in a nutshell, there are a whole whack of planets in either air or fire signs with NO planets in earth signs. So what this means is that there is a potential for a HUGE firestorm or flare up or something along those lines, so be very aware of what is going on energetically for you too. And with no earth energy it will be hard to remain grounded at any time. It could prove to be a very very interesting week..
Blessings and Aloha
Sunday, June 03, 2007
a rather slow Monday
Well today was different. Felt like all I have been doing is rushing around doing errands......hmmmm, I guess that IS what I have been doing. Haven't had one of these days for quite some time so it feels weird.....just simply weird.
I don't really think that I have too much to say today. Strange actually in that I am usually full of things to say or at least to think. Hmmmmmmmmm.
Ppft....now I'm making up words but that is a sound that just escaped from my lips.
I'm outta here. Not much point in writing drivel.......is that a word?
Later.........
I don't really think that I have too much to say today. Strange actually in that I am usually full of things to say or at least to think. Hmmmmmmmmm.
Ppft....now I'm making up words but that is a sound that just escaped from my lips.
I'm outta here. Not much point in writing drivel.......is that a word?
Later.........
Old naked men playing Bacci Ball.......huh???
Did I get your attention with that title? Sitting on the beach yesterday, I became aware of a lot of noise and shouting coming from over off to the left of me. I was laying there basking in the sun and the noise got my attention so I lifted myself up so that I could get a better look and what did I see? YOu got it. A group of older gentlemen COMPLETELY NAKED playing bacci ball. Got me laughing and then I realized that we all put so much attention on the outer appearance that we forget that at the center, we are all the same. I mean where in the rule book does it say we HAVE to wear clothes all the time. Not in my rule book that's for sure but the group of men playing their classic game sans clothes did make me laugh.
It was a beautiful day here yesterday and it looks like another stellar one today as well. Just had a call from another friend wanting me to join him at the same beach but alas, I have other plans. Sure would have loved to drop them all and run right back over there but I am going to continue on with the plans for my day as I know there will be ample opportunity to head over there on other days over the next few months.
For now, I have to get my self organized for a healing session that I will be doing on a very dear friend of mine. I just realized that I have never actually done one of these on her so it will be a very special time for the both of us. And a very good reason for me not to drop everything and head to the beach again......smile
So whatever you are doing for your day, remember to have fun and simply enjoy it for what it is.
Blessings and Aloha
It was a beautiful day here yesterday and it looks like another stellar one today as well. Just had a call from another friend wanting me to join him at the same beach but alas, I have other plans. Sure would have loved to drop them all and run right back over there but I am going to continue on with the plans for my day as I know there will be ample opportunity to head over there on other days over the next few months.
For now, I have to get my self organized for a healing session that I will be doing on a very dear friend of mine. I just realized that I have never actually done one of these on her so it will be a very special time for the both of us. And a very good reason for me not to drop everything and head to the beach again......smile
So whatever you are doing for your day, remember to have fun and simply enjoy it for what it is.
Blessings and Aloha
Saturday, June 02, 2007
Beach day
Here I sit and nothing of note is coming to me. Perhaps it is because it is Saturday and I had promised myself to take the entire weekend off and simply relax and hang out with friends, and more importantly, hang out with me.
The past couple of months has been strange for me. I chuckle as my life in general feels strange to me at the best of times but the past few months has seen me make some changes in the way that I view me and what it is that I do. Coming to grips with the reality that is me and while there are times when I feel things "should" be different, I am finally able to accept that my uniqueness is no longer a curse. It is what makes me special and while I am not saying this to boost my ego, it has become very important for me to give myself credit instead of lamenting the fact that my life is like no other.
I had always tried to fit in or rather to blend with the norm and I did quite a good job of it if I do say so myself but now, there is no desire to blend in anymore. Is this good? I don't know but I do feel more in alignment with me so I guess that is a step in the right direction.
Heading to the beach in a while and I will be taking a note pad to get some ideas down for the next "writing" project that is coming down the chute. Lots of ideas swirling around and one of them is to finish or redo a book that I started years ago. It is a story of a woman who breaks out of her life when she finds herself facing some pretty severe physical challenges. I had tentatively called it "The Journey Continues - One woman's quest for Self Discovery. You get the idea. Got bogged down though when I moved back to Vancouver and it has been sitting on a shelf all that time. That is one option. Of course I could just bang out some more of those lovely little erotic stories or flesh out some of the ones that I already wrote. Hmmmmm, lots to think about.
But for now, to the beach. Enjoy your day and be good to yourself.
Blessings and Aloha
The past couple of months has been strange for me. I chuckle as my life in general feels strange to me at the best of times but the past few months has seen me make some changes in the way that I view me and what it is that I do. Coming to grips with the reality that is me and while there are times when I feel things "should" be different, I am finally able to accept that my uniqueness is no longer a curse. It is what makes me special and while I am not saying this to boost my ego, it has become very important for me to give myself credit instead of lamenting the fact that my life is like no other.
I had always tried to fit in or rather to blend with the norm and I did quite a good job of it if I do say so myself but now, there is no desire to blend in anymore. Is this good? I don't know but I do feel more in alignment with me so I guess that is a step in the right direction.
Heading to the beach in a while and I will be taking a note pad to get some ideas down for the next "writing" project that is coming down the chute. Lots of ideas swirling around and one of them is to finish or redo a book that I started years ago. It is a story of a woman who breaks out of her life when she finds herself facing some pretty severe physical challenges. I had tentatively called it "The Journey Continues - One woman's quest for Self Discovery. You get the idea. Got bogged down though when I moved back to Vancouver and it has been sitting on a shelf all that time. That is one option. Of course I could just bang out some more of those lovely little erotic stories or flesh out some of the ones that I already wrote. Hmmmmm, lots to think about.
But for now, to the beach. Enjoy your day and be good to yourself.
Blessings and Aloha
Friday, June 01, 2007
I can't believe the weather this past week. Summer has definitely arrived and I, for one, am stoked. Picked up some sushi and went down to the beach to people watch and catch the sunset last night. The beach was packed and the constant parade of people and dogs was incredible. Do you realize how very many people walk past in a single hour. I asked my friend if she had any idea how many people did in fact walk along the seawall in any given hour, or day and she had no idea. Not that it is a big deal but I do wonder.
There was also a fire dancer as the sun set and THAT was rather interesting to watch. I remember as a kid and also when my kids were kids taking a stick and putting into the fire and then swirling it around and around. The designs it made always intriqued me but I'm sure it the same with everyone. It makes we remember that there is a cumulative effect, energetically, when we move or speak. The energy projects out and has an impact out beyond what we can see or feel even if we don't know exactly how.
An interesting development has occurred in my life. This is something that is completely all girly girl here so bear with me. I had written about a certain someone in my life that I had been having a hard time detaching from but I had made up my mind to step away after one last encounter. Wouldn't you know it but a certain 3 little word sentence emerged from the beings mouth and to say it has shocked me would be an understatement. Sure I had been feeling this energy but thought I was imagining it and had been trying to get a handle on my own feelings in the situation and then he said I Love you.
Normally the thing that would occur would be a warm fuzzy feeling and thoughts of riding off into the sunset together but this is not to be. Just a shift in how I relate to what it is that we DO have. Oh well, at least I feel better about what it is that is occurring even if it might be what I had envisioned. Anyway, I'm just babbling and I know there are going to be a few of you out there that will go "KATRICE......run for the hills" but at least it feels good to know that I hadn't been imagining the shift that had come over him this past few weeks.
Love is a funny thing to be sure and now that this energy is flowing unimpeded I can get on with my life and let this relationship take its course. Who knows where it is headed now but I have to admit, that I am feeling much more comfortable in the inconsistencies that are already present.
So now I am off for my day. The sun is blazing and it promises to be a hot one. Working this afternoon with some people and then doing a special event at a Casino this evening. Promises to be a long day but I'm sure it will be fruitful.
Heading to Wreck Beach tomorrow for the day. For those of you who are not familiar with Wreck, it is our Nude Beach and far from the regular city life that we know. Beautiful raw beach with no power lines or any form of civilization visible as we sit in all our own divine glory simply basking in the sun. Sounds good eh?
Have a great day and I'll be back.
Blessings and Aloha
There was also a fire dancer as the sun set and THAT was rather interesting to watch. I remember as a kid and also when my kids were kids taking a stick and putting into the fire and then swirling it around and around. The designs it made always intriqued me but I'm sure it the same with everyone. It makes we remember that there is a cumulative effect, energetically, when we move or speak. The energy projects out and has an impact out beyond what we can see or feel even if we don't know exactly how.
An interesting development has occurred in my life. This is something that is completely all girly girl here so bear with me. I had written about a certain someone in my life that I had been having a hard time detaching from but I had made up my mind to step away after one last encounter. Wouldn't you know it but a certain 3 little word sentence emerged from the beings mouth and to say it has shocked me would be an understatement. Sure I had been feeling this energy but thought I was imagining it and had been trying to get a handle on my own feelings in the situation and then he said I Love you.
Normally the thing that would occur would be a warm fuzzy feeling and thoughts of riding off into the sunset together but this is not to be. Just a shift in how I relate to what it is that we DO have. Oh well, at least I feel better about what it is that is occurring even if it might be what I had envisioned. Anyway, I'm just babbling and I know there are going to be a few of you out there that will go "KATRICE......run for the hills" but at least it feels good to know that I hadn't been imagining the shift that had come over him this past few weeks.
Love is a funny thing to be sure and now that this energy is flowing unimpeded I can get on with my life and let this relationship take its course. Who knows where it is headed now but I have to admit, that I am feeling much more comfortable in the inconsistencies that are already present.
So now I am off for my day. The sun is blazing and it promises to be a hot one. Working this afternoon with some people and then doing a special event at a Casino this evening. Promises to be a long day but I'm sure it will be fruitful.
Heading to Wreck Beach tomorrow for the day. For those of you who are not familiar with Wreck, it is our Nude Beach and far from the regular city life that we know. Beautiful raw beach with no power lines or any form of civilization visible as we sit in all our own divine glory simply basking in the sun. Sounds good eh?
Have a great day and I'll be back.
Blessings and Aloha
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