lessons to be learned

It has been a very hard few weeks here in Vancouver for Moi. The past few days has seen a shift in energy within all of me and perhaps I have finally come out of another one of my funks. So much had been falling away and I was still trying to hold on. We all know how well that works now don't we. Am hoping that some lessons have finally been learned.

When we were in school (or are for some of you - you still are in school) we go to class, work on our lessons and then are tested to see if we retained any of what we had learned. It is like that with life in general methinks. We are given lessons and with time, we are meant to learn them and use these same lessons to move on to the next ones. And unfortunately there will always be new lessons. If we don't pass the tests, we are sent back to re-learn those same lessons. I said to someone the other day that I wished that these same stupid lessons would stop coming back up and then I realized that the only reason they keep re-occuring is that I hadn't yet learned what I was meant to learn. Hopefully something has anchored in this time and the next lessons will be of a higher nature. At least that is what I am intending.......smile

I went to a funeral yesterday. I didn't really know the gentleman that passed away but his long term partner is a friend of mine from the gym. I watched her throughout the entire service and I was so amazed at how composed and gracious she was to each and every person who came up to her. I had not brought any kleenex with me because I thought that simply because I didn't know this man well and that I had spoken to her over the past week and a half profoundly about her time with him, I mistakenly thought I would not cry. So for those of you who know me well, that was a completely STUPID thing to do.

He had 4 young adult children and they all got up to talk about their Father. THAT got to me big time because listening to them speak of their Father and their for him and his love for them, my heart opened big time and while I did not sob uncontrollably, the tears started and they just would not stop. It made me realize how lucky I am to still be here to learn these lessons, stupid or otherwise. Sigh..........

And I am learning things daily from my daughter too these days. She is going through her own lessons at this time and we are sharing many little heart to heart conversations. Her heart has opened to me once more and that is a wonderful place for me to be. It has been a hard time for her and I over the past 10 years or so but with all of HER lessons and all of MY lessons, we seem to be coming to a place of trust and safety and companionship with feels oh so very good.

O.K. so now I am off to spread my own brand of love and light to others for the day and I wish for you a day of sunshine, abundance and infinite JOY.