maintaining focus

I just started to read a new book called "the 10 secrets every woman should know". It is also a good one for men but the author, being a woman, has written it from a woman's perspective. Anyway, the first "secret" is that we have everything inside that we will ever need to be a happy productive human. Of course there are times when we wake up and completely forget this one major point about life. It is up to us what we do with each day as it presents itself.

When we can maintain a laser-like focus on what we want and direct our energy toward its manifestation, we feel empowered and cannot be held back. That line is from my horoscope from this morning. As you can see my happiness quotient, upon waking was faltering and so, when in doubt, at least in my world, read what others have to say. It helps.

I had been working on a piece of poetry yesterday for a poetry contest that I am planning on submitting to. And I noticed that there is still a lot of pain swirling around in my being. A sadness at how I wish things were and a discontent that seems to be coming from a very deep part of me. The writing is a very powerful outlet and to be able to do it all justice, I need to spend time with my own well...........the well of my being. Staying centered and focussed on moving forward, while at the same remaining calm and balanced within whatever may be swirling around me.

I have been detaching from a lot of people and places of late and I know that this is a good thing because it is time. No more worrying about making sure everyone ELSE is doing good, but making sure that I am doing so...........good that is.

Just send off an email to a friend and it is not like I haven't sent TONS of these emails to this particular being but I finally had to say STOP. Stop coming to me when you are annoyed with others. Stop coming to me when you are needing a safe port in the storm. Stop talking about how wonderful it WILL be in a short while. Stop saying that you are STUCK. You are not stuck. You are choosing to stay in situations that are NOT for your highest growth. You deserve to be loved and supported in your life............all of this and more I shared with this being and after I sent that email, I realized that I had been talking to ME.

I have been feeling anger at others for perceived injustices. I have been wanting things to be different that they are. I have been feeling stuck. But yet, I do have all that I need within me to move forward. To move towards what I have been moving towards for years. I have it all right here.

And at the beginning of this day, that is how I am now choosing to move forward. I had a very hard time getting to sleep last night and then I woke up after only 4 hours. I am starting to feel that that is what I am supposed to be getting sleep wise nightly. 4 hours........yikes. Yet here I sit, feeling relatively awake and ready to go to the gym.

So here's to maintaining focus.

Have a good one.