New Year's Eve day

I can't believe that it is now New year's Eve. But then of course, I say that every freaking year. Am definitely looking forward to 2008 though. Ready to move into a more fully aligned place in all aspects of this life that I am currently living. A friend at the gym this morning asked me what my resolutions were and I said "Bah, I don't believe in them".

And then she told me all the things that she has on her list and I said that sounds pretty general. Do you say the same things every year I asked? And she said yes. I thought about it and then said well I'll think about some of my own then. And so here I sit and wonder exactly what would be a good resolution. Not a whole whack of things that I want but perhaps just one all encompassing desire for a movement forward.

I know that there are things that I am planning on doing or creating and perhaps that is a good start.

I resolve to create a life that is happy, joyous and fulfilling to me. That sounds good. So now that I have made THAT resolution, what will is look like? What should be my projection out into the future from this now moment? Hmmmmmm.........

I know that when I am writing, I feel much more fulfilled. That's funny when you think about it. By bringing my thoughts and, face it, my emotions OUT in words it opens a place within me to bring all of my creative juices to the fore filling up with ME.

I am finding that my time alone or, perhaps I should say, on MY OWN are becoming much more fulfilling as well. I am finding that I am seeking much more time on my own lately and being good with that. I am not wanting as many distractions in mylife so I also resolve to keep my distance from people, places and things that cause me angst. This is not so much running AWAY from these things, but more a running back TO me and my being. And in doing so I am learning to be happy with just me and me alone. This of course makes it easier to write and that brings me back to the first thing I said.

I almost HAVE to write and to do so I HAVE to be on my own and face it, writing is a solitary pursuit and Spirit has been pushing me in this direction for years.

I am also going to start giving to myself. I have so many things that I am needing to purchase but I keep putting it off. I have never really enjoyed shopping and perhaps this year, I will also resolve to gift myself of a few more things, materially. I will stop putting myself last and will choose to be first in my life for the first time is a very VERY long time.

I'm sure I will end up posting more later this evenign after some "sunshine in a glass" - you know bubbly and orange juice. That makes me smile but don't want to be smiling TOO much or else tomorrow I will be starting off the new year feeling sluggish and THAT is definitely NOT the way I want to bring in the New Year.

Anyway, to one and all I wish a VERY VERY Happy New Year. May blessings abound.