Older Woman/Younger Man.....hhhhhmmmmm, I wonder

Hello Mandingo.........Tis I...The Goddess.......

And I've been thinking. I feel like I have known you for so long and yet we just started talking a couple of days ago. At one point in our instant messaging back and forth this morning, before we decided to talk......you wrote that I can have you if I want you. You also said at one point "You are mine". And it got me thinking of all the different men that I do talk to these days. Don't worry, I am simply chatting with a few people BUT for some odd reason, it feels like you and I could actually somehow blend. And there are so many "things" that a normal person would think are totally out of whack but here it goes.

Bear with me please, this could be a long email but when I feel the need to talk I do and when I can't talk, I write. If I don't all these thoughts keep racing around in my head and I feel like I'll explode.......sort of......

Our age difference is close to 20 years.......do you realize that? Just wanting to point out that one. I know..... I know...... who cares but it is something to consider. Now that I am writing this though, I do remember a woman who lived on Kauai. She was 62 and beautiful and her husband was 27 and also beautiful. We always thought that she had the money and that he had married for money. However, after 8 years of marriage, they decided to part and we were all shocked to hear that he was REALLY rich and had married for love but now he decided that he would like to father children and of course she could not so they parted amiacably. So I guess that shoots down that theory (older woman/younger man) but still, I think about these things......

Next you live almost 3,000 miles away. Yes, I know there are planes but it is really challenging to be in a long distance relationship unless both parties are completely on the same wavelength and are desirous of the same things for the future. And of course what of the time when we finally do get to hold one another and then one or the other has to go back to wherever. I guess then we would know for sure though wouldn't we?

I guess I am simply trying to figure out what to think of this you and I thing.....because I have to tell you that I have never considered actually being in a long term relationship with someone that much younger than me but for some odd reason, you do not seem that young. And hearing your voice on the phone this morning felt all warm and buttery to me...do you know what I mean. Anyway, on with the rest of my reasons or whatever this is.

You have young children and I'm sure you would not want to be living far from them but I could be wrong. I have 2 children but they are all grown up - in fact my son is less than 10 years younger than you.......That's another one of those things where I go.....HUH!!. Of course, Michael (that's my son) always says to me "Hey Ma......if you're happy, go for it". so I'm sure if it came down to it, he would accept you. My daughter on the other hand would freak out but she is always giving me shit for the way I live my life. SHE is the mature one I guess.

I keep thinking what would people think and then this other voice says "Who gives a rat's ass"........ahem....excuse me.......

So that being said, where was I going with this in the first place?? You said this morning "do I have a chance with all these others guys around" and I said "of course you do" and now I realize that if I keep talking to other guys, you would be just one of a group and if I am really going to give you a chance, I need to focus my attention on only one. So, I have decided to take down my profile from these sites and actually give you and me a chance.

Sigh.........long email eh? But what do you think? Do you really feel that you would like to give this a shot? See what we could actually come up with? Look at getting together in the Spring or Summer or earlier if we just can't stand it? Maybe meet up half way or something. I don't know I'm babbling. All I know is that I want what you want and you want what I want and maybe, just maybe COWS CAN FLY........long story but I'll explain later.

So by now you are either going "WHAT THE HECK?" or laughing your head off. I sincerly hope it is the latter.