Interesting energetics today

I had a conversation with my son yesterday or perhaps I should say HE had a talk with me. He had some very good insights into a situation that I am involved in and having my son talk to me like that made me realize what an incredible man he has turned into. In case you happen to actually stop by and read my blog today - Thanks Michael.......smile

And of course reflecting on just what our topic of conversation was got me thinking about a lot of other areas of my life that are somehow involved in said situation. Not that I have to share the particulars but suffice to say, a change is necessary for me and this is something that I have been working through for.........oh, perhaps my WHOLE life. So to say that this is a biggie would be an understatement.

When I titled this blog as "interesting energetics today" I guess I should explain. I woke up early and feeling antsy. I had a list of things that I wanted to accomplish today and I was a tad nervous about it all. But I moved through my day and even accomplished MORE than I had required of myself but still at the end of it all, I was sitting here feeling out of sorts or perhaps out of my body. So, it got me thinking about how I gauge how good my day is going.

After going over all that I did do today, I realized that inside of me there is a faulty device that seems to keeps skipping repeating the following mantra.......it's not enough, it's not enough.........sheesh. I had never realized how this device impacts my daily life........always. It seems like I am constantly trying to live up to something that I for some odd reason find unattainable. EVEN when I do what I set out to do.

AND not only did my son "talk" to me yesterday but I was also "grilled" by a new friend with questions that pertained to my future. The answers that he was looking for just didn't seem to come up to surface for me to be able to answer him. A very sweet man by the way who let me stew in the pot that I seem to be stirring now. Lots of male energy trying to make me see what it is that I am doing to myself. Thanks guys.........smile

So now it is almost night time. The sun is still shining and I should probably take a walk down to the beach but I have people coming in an hour. I still have a few last minute details to attend to but I can always look outside and realize how blessed I really am......in this moment and that is all that I can handle anyway. Just this moment and at this moment I AM.

Blessings and Aloha

creating anew.........

Boy oh boy, any excuse for a day off from the regular work week. So Happy Victoria Day or, as we on the West Coast say, the first long weekend of the summer......not exactly summer yet, but it is a start. And the sun is not cooperating yet but I am still optimistic.

Woke up feeling rather blah today. Don't like that. Could be that I spent a better part of the weekend with a rather intense friend of mine. It is always intense with this friend and while I sometimes feel that it is TOO intense, still I go back time and time again to play.

There is something about this being that is me that seems to like to live life on the edge more than regular folk. I think that I get bored when life gets too predictable and then I jump right in to non predicability. And it sure feels good when in the midst of that unpredictability but, when back into a normal realm, there is a let down. It is always like this so you would think I would "get" it, or perhaps I do and it is only showing me the difference between my own energy and the inclusion of the energies of another. It this good or not? I have no idea but it has been happening for months...well, actually now into the years, so I presume it is a lesson that I have come here to learn. Ah, yes we know those lessons. And, like it or not, they always give us something...albeit perhaps NOT exactly what it was that we were expecting but something all the same...smile.

Just sent off an email ending a "working situation" with some people. I called it a working "situation" as it was not a job perse......simply somewhere that I spent time. And that time was being wasted, in my humble opionion, so I finally bit the bullet and ended it. Am feeling the need to end a lot of things lately so who knows where it is all leading to. I will keep you informed however as soon as I figure out where I am going.........whether physically or simply in my head and heart.

So here I sit, getting ready to embark once more on that journey that is the story that I keep talking about. Did an edit last night up to the point that I had last written so it is now time to continue creating anew. Creating anew.......that sounds good. I think I will simply do that with all aspects of my life today........CREATE ANEW........yeah I like that.

Have a wonderful day and I shall be back real soon.

Blessings and Aloha