Up and at 'em and ready to go....

O.K. no crazy late night for this girl last night and the fuzziness is no longer. However, now I am REALLY on a deadline. Why do we do this to ourselves? Or at least why do I do this to ME??

Last week I had it almost in the bag......the complete manuscript. And now, here it is, a mere 4 days to the deadline for the first opportunity to submit my story and still I have yet to come up with a title (how could I not have a title yet?) and the final re-write. Of course since this is the first time I have actually submitted something of this largess it could just be a normal thing for a "writer". Oooh, I shudder when writing that.......a writer.

It is what I know myself to be but when writing, I now realize that everything that you put out there is on spec. It is easy to post something out here in cyberspace but to actually put something out there that will be making a difference in my wallet is a completely different ball of wax. Or perhaps it just changes how I perceive the writings that emerge from me.

So that being said, I do not have to answer to anyone else today which leaves me the entire to work on this project. I have to admit that sometimes I am not very good at motivating myself, getting sidetracked by meaningless (in the long run) things. But, I have already committed to doing this and I know how good I will feel when I hit the final "send" button and watch my finished masterpiece off for consideration.

Being as how I don't generally get too attached to outcomes in my life I feel that perhaps this tme I should be sending out a special LIGHT to surround this project as I truly do want to have someone in power say "Hey, this is really good. Give me/us more." Others keep telling me what a gifted writer I am and this is a wonderful gift for me to receive. However, now it is crunch time and it is important for my work to find the eyes and hearts that will truly receive it, enabling me to actually make a living at it. Big deal, at least to me.

So it is now 7:00 a.m. and off I go to work on the story about my Goddess and her Samarai. Hmmm, perhaps that is the title "The Goddess and her Samarai". I don't know. I'll just let it flow on to the top of the first page. Sure hope that allowing the flow to go today is what is necessary.

Till later......Blessings and Aloha