WOW is all that I can say. That poem that I had been planning on submitting to the contest shifted completely and the one that came out amazed me. So since I like to amaze not only me but others, here it is. I call it Fantasy World. I'm sure some of you will relate. And please do not think I am wallowing in the emotions that this poem evokes. It is a release for me and the words sustain me.
Blessings on this beautiful day.
Once more a mantle of sadness has descended upon me
More words with little meaning tugging at my heartstrings
I so wanted to believe those idle comments of yours
Pulling me
Urging me to believe that this time
For sure this time
It is real. You mean all of what you say
The words, the sentiments springing forth from those lips
The lips that I long to kiss
The face that I love to touch
The strong arms that I held on to
The same arms that held me in their loving embrace
For it is love that I feel from you
It is love that you show me with your eyes
With your lips
With all of your body
The laughter that we shared as we danced around my living room
The way we become like children
Sharing in some wonderful fantasy world
Our world
Our playground
Our love
I wish to remain immersed in that space
But then you are gone and I am alone
Until you return down the road knowing
I will open my arms once more
Open my heart
Give to you all my Love for it is YOU that I love
I hear your voice and my heart sings
I see your face and all the hurt seems to magically dissolve
This time I want to believe it will be different
This time you will mean what you say
This time you will love me for more than just those few short hours
This time you will stay forever
But it is not to be
A mantle of sadness has once more descended upon me
Sunday, December 30, 2007
maintaining focus
I just started to read a new book called "the 10 secrets every woman should know". It is also a good one for men but the author, being a woman, has written it from a woman's perspective. Anyway, the first "secret" is that we have everything inside that we will ever need to be a happy productive human. Of course there are times when we wake up and completely forget this one major point about life. It is up to us what we do with each day as it presents itself.
When we can maintain a laser-like focus on what we want and direct our energy toward its manifestation, we feel empowered and cannot be held back. That line is from my horoscope from this morning. As you can see my happiness quotient, upon waking was faltering and so, when in doubt, at least in my world, read what others have to say. It helps.
I had been working on a piece of poetry yesterday for a poetry contest that I am planning on submitting to. And I noticed that there is still a lot of pain swirling around in my being. A sadness at how I wish things were and a discontent that seems to be coming from a very deep part of me. The writing is a very powerful outlet and to be able to do it all justice, I need to spend time with my own well...........the well of my being. Staying centered and focussed on moving forward, while at the same remaining calm and balanced within whatever may be swirling around me.
I have been detaching from a lot of people and places of late and I know that this is a good thing because it is time. No more worrying about making sure everyone ELSE is doing good, but making sure that I am doing so...........good that is.
Just send off an email to a friend and it is not like I haven't sent TONS of these emails to this particular being but I finally had to say STOP. Stop coming to me when you are annoyed with others. Stop coming to me when you are needing a safe port in the storm. Stop talking about how wonderful it WILL be in a short while. Stop saying that you are STUCK. You are not stuck. You are choosing to stay in situations that are NOT for your highest growth. You deserve to be loved and supported in your life............all of this and more I shared with this being and after I sent that email, I realized that I had been talking to ME.
I have been feeling anger at others for perceived injustices. I have been wanting things to be different that they are. I have been feeling stuck. But yet, I do have all that I need within me to move forward. To move towards what I have been moving towards for years. I have it all right here.
And at the beginning of this day, that is how I am now choosing to move forward. I had a very hard time getting to sleep last night and then I woke up after only 4 hours. I am starting to feel that that is what I am supposed to be getting sleep wise nightly. 4 hours........yikes. Yet here I sit, feeling relatively awake and ready to go to the gym.
So here's to maintaining focus.
Have a good one.
When we can maintain a laser-like focus on what we want and direct our energy toward its manifestation, we feel empowered and cannot be held back. That line is from my horoscope from this morning. As you can see my happiness quotient, upon waking was faltering and so, when in doubt, at least in my world, read what others have to say. It helps.
I had been working on a piece of poetry yesterday for a poetry contest that I am planning on submitting to. And I noticed that there is still a lot of pain swirling around in my being. A sadness at how I wish things were and a discontent that seems to be coming from a very deep part of me. The writing is a very powerful outlet and to be able to do it all justice, I need to spend time with my own well...........the well of my being. Staying centered and focussed on moving forward, while at the same remaining calm and balanced within whatever may be swirling around me.
I have been detaching from a lot of people and places of late and I know that this is a good thing because it is time. No more worrying about making sure everyone ELSE is doing good, but making sure that I am doing so...........good that is.
Just send off an email to a friend and it is not like I haven't sent TONS of these emails to this particular being but I finally had to say STOP. Stop coming to me when you are annoyed with others. Stop coming to me when you are needing a safe port in the storm. Stop talking about how wonderful it WILL be in a short while. Stop saying that you are STUCK. You are not stuck. You are choosing to stay in situations that are NOT for your highest growth. You deserve to be loved and supported in your life............all of this and more I shared with this being and after I sent that email, I realized that I had been talking to ME.
I have been feeling anger at others for perceived injustices. I have been wanting things to be different that they are. I have been feeling stuck. But yet, I do have all that I need within me to move forward. To move towards what I have been moving towards for years. I have it all right here.
And at the beginning of this day, that is how I am now choosing to move forward. I had a very hard time getting to sleep last night and then I woke up after only 4 hours. I am starting to feel that that is what I am supposed to be getting sleep wise nightly. 4 hours........yikes. Yet here I sit, feeling relatively awake and ready to go to the gym.
So here's to maintaining focus.
Have a good one.
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