Breathing and sleep deprivation

I don't know if I have talked about my lack of sleep for the past couple of years but it is really starting to get to me. If I manage to sleep for a whole 4 hours in a row I consider myself quite lucky. However that does not happen very often. Take last night for instance.

I found myself exhausted by 10:30 p.m. so hit the sack. Zonked out really quickly and then woke up at 12:50 a.m. Really fuzzy of course at that time so just rolled over and tried to get back to sleep. Drifted in and out of sleep zone until a little after 4:00 a.m. and then just tossed and turned. Got up a little after 6:00 a.m., did my email thing and then tried to go back to sleep or at least tried to meditate at around 7:30 but nothing. And now on the radio, they are interviewing an "expert" on sleep. I guess it is not just me.

It is starting to scare me though because lately I have been having trouble breathing.......sort of a stressful gasping for air, you know, taking a deep DEEP breath as I try to calm myself down. It always settles down as the day progresses but this is not a good thing. Just made an appointment with the doctor to see about doing something about it. She gave me a big bottle of sleeping pills last year and, I don't about you, but to be taking sleeping pills on a daily basis just doesn't seem like the way to go. I know I should find another doctor but it is really hard in the city to find a GOOD doctor who is taking on new patients. I do take one of them every so often and I do sleep great but if I take one the next night too, with the hopes of getting 2 good nights sleep in a row, it acts in the opposite way and I don't get ANY sleep at all. Frustrations abound.

Anyway, off to finalize the income tax thing. By the way, it is not my fault that it is the 2nd to the last day to get my forms in. The guy that usually does my income tax prep fell behind and just called me on Sunday to say it is finally ready. I got the stuff in to him over a month ago but I am assuming that he had others that were more important or harder to handle than mine. Whatever it is, at least I don't owe anything to anybody and that should be a plus point for me.

Not much of note to talk about today. Just trying to manage to get from here to there with the least amount of stress.