paying attention to the spaces....

To expand upon my last post concerning the spaces in between I neglected to mention that I had a wee bit of an accident the other morning. A clock that hangs above my kitchen sink fell on me. Not only did it fall on me...but it made contact right in the centre of my third eye. I mean right smack dab in the middle of it.

The goose egg within that first hour was amazing. I have NEVER had something like this happen to me so it was quite fascinating in a weird sort of way. The feeling of my skin stretching over my forehead was quite surreal and I immediately identified with the Klingons or whoever those weird creatures are on Star Trek or Battlestar Gallactica or those other Sci Fi shows. I mean this HUGE bump which now that I think back upon it must have been almost as big as a golf ball. Can you envision that? That is a really big bump to be residing in the centre of your forehead. But that was then...this is now. And now it is a totally different vision...........

The goose egg has gone down. It is now the size of a marble but a very purple marble....well, there is also a hint of green and yellow but it is pretty ugly and remember it is situated at my 3rd eye so you can't just miss it or anything like that. But that is nothing to what has now happeed to the rest of my face. The bruise starts at the marble lump spot and spreads out towards the tips of eyebrows and then leisurely slides down between my eyes and carries down to the mid point at the centre of my nose. The colours spread out from my nose edging quite close to my cheek bones. So have you got the picture yet? A little hard to miss.

So as to the writing thing that I have going on the past few days, this is another of the reasons. I just don't want to go out and have to explain what happened nor have people look at me and go "WHOA.......WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?" or words to that effect.

But what I am attempting to get across here is not so much the injury but the fact that it has me at home doing what it is that I keep talking about doing....writing. It has also made me sit up and pay attention to what is or, more importantly, is NOT happening in my life.

Being hit HARD in the 3rd eye is not something that I can ignore. The 3rd eye is the seat of your intuition - the place where you are able to see beyond what lies right in front of your physical eyes. And sometimes I know that I would rather see everything else than what is staring me down.

So I have come to some very clear understandings as to some of the rather unstable aspects of my persona....the ones that have contributed to getting to where I am here...right now. Such a huge learning curve just occured for me and I have a clock to thank for it. And when you remember that it was a clock that hit me......perhaps it is all about "timing".

Perhaps the timing was not yet in sync with the learning curve for me to be able to see clearly. Perhaps the veils were not yet ready to lift - allowing me to really appreciate all of what was currently occuring in my life....those spaces and places within which I was not feeling comfortable nor supported.

The places that I was choosing to share my gifts or "work" at where I found myself feeling stifled - they are no longer a part of my life. I do miss the connections that I had with a few people but generally it was a draining experience for me. At one point, I loved heading out to share my gifts at other locations but the past year or so, it had become a chore and something to which I was not looking forward to. So I stopped.

The person with whom I was choosing to share all of me, all of this loving being that I AM. This situation is also now behind me and another energy draining aspect is ready to be let go. This has been a very hard blind spot, so to speak, for me for quite some time. I had been working at letting this Soul go for a long time but over the past few weeks, it has been clearer and clearer to me FINALLY that it is definitely not something that I choose to do any longer and THIS is a wonderful thing to be writing. That particular veil was very heavy and I can feel a lightness starting to permeate my body and Soul.

Who knows what will happen next. I'm not worried about it though. I will, however, be watching for things falling from the sky and my 3rd eye will remain fully open to catch anything else that chooses to filter down to me.

I promise to pay attention this time.