Whacked part deux

Wow. Last night I was feeling so bad that I almost posted one of those long "poor little me" type things but then decided to just delete it from here and send it to a friend. I thought I had copied it prior to deleting but I guess the Universe chose to delete it for ever because when I went to paste it into the appropriate email address it was nowhere to be found. Good idea I guess.

Feeling sick sucks for sure. And I have never been a very good patient. I have been sleeping or at least laying in bed with the blinds closed at all hours of the day. Tried to wander around yesterday and attend to some things but it was like manoveuring through quicksand. I find that at times like this, I can get really down on myself and start to think things that are probably left un"thunk"... Not much fun.

But at least I am sleeping better which does help a bit. Have a couple of clients today too so that will perk me up a bit, not to mention actually put some moolah in my pocket.

The weather isn't helping much either. It is like we have had maybe 3 days of Spring and it is already the second week of May. At least it is not snowing like it is for my buddy Carol who lives north of here. I mean...give me a break...snowing in May. What is going on in the world? I guess I shouldn't even ask that question. We all know what is happening. The Gods are angry and they are not going to take it anymore.

I have a friend who is really waiting for the entire world to fall apart. He claims to be a great spiritualist but when he says things like we need a major catastrophe to occur to rid the planet of at least 10,000,000 people I have to wonder. He even gloats about it. But then again, he chooses to detach from everyone in his life....except for me it seems. I remember when I first met this man I thought, WHOA........here is a beautiful man (and he is that) who understands spirit and is intelligent but once I got to know him I realized that he really doesn't like humans very much at all. He is not suicidal but he would much rather be in Spirit than in his normal human form. He chooses to NOT be involved emotionally with people - yet he still does lots of volunteer work and shares of his time and energy with others but NOT on an emotional level at all. I asked him why he is afraid of connecting on a deeper level with people (i.e. me...) and he says that he is much more comfortable communing with God that with mere mortals. I do pick them that's for sure.

Anyway, I am going to try to have a better day today. The tightness in my chest in finally subsiding and I seem to be clearing up the congestion so perhaps I am on the road to recovery. Feeling slightly guilty that I have not seen my Dad for almost two weeks but I sure don't want to be infecting all those little old people at the Care Centre. He didn't sound very alert when I chatted with him the other day either. I know that he does not connect with the other residents and when there is no connection, he doesn't talk and if he doesn't talk, his voice gets all slurred and he seems slower.

I never realized how important it is for people to connect with others, if only to get the brain engaged. He reads and watches television but when your voice cords are not engaged, it seems that that part of the body atrophies or something. It is a concern but then again, I'm sure there are many of you out there who are also going through the same thing....or not...

Anyway, I hope that all is well in your world today and that the sun will shine through wherever you are.