Wow, I just realized that I have not posted here since last Sunday. I did have a friend come into town and stay the night on Monday so was with me all day on Tuesday too. Had a circle to go to on Tuesday night and got home late so that put the kybosh on those 2 days. Yesterday turned out to be busier than anticipated as well and when I got back from my little Fitness Coach detail just felt like vegging...........hey, we all have days like that now don't we?
So here we are and it is now Thursday. The writing bug seems to have taken a hiatus of late. Just don't seem to have as much to say as usual.
You know who made his presence known again and that always gets me out of sorts. Staying away though so that is a good thing but still his energy seems to sap mine. Have to pay attention to that. Told him that I can no longer continue on as his "play friend". If he could come to me like he is with others it might work but I told him that the way it has always been is not the way it will be in the future, if at all. Staying in my power is a good thing but there is still this little girl that wants to play with her best friend. Hard for sure.
I realize that he DOES take my energy or perhaps I just give it over to him. Never been involved with anyone like him but I do remember when we first met he told me that I would never meet anyone like him and that is SO true. Drawn very strongly to him but there is a sense of power within me these days that seems to be stronger than before. I can feel my energy draining away at the thought of even seeing him and that is a very big sign that it is not something that serves me in any way.
Anyway, life is what it is and will continue to evolve. I am choosing stay aligned with this powerful woman inside and let her some out to take charge. God/Goddess knows this is the right thing to do.
Blessings
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