The saga of dear old Dad

WHEW...........it has been a couple of very emotionally draining days. Went to see my Father to take him out to lunch on Tuesday and when I called to let them know that I was coming, they said that he was in no shape to be going anywhere that day. I said I'd come over anyway to visit.

In case you don't know about dear old Dad, he had to move into a Care Centre last November because he was getting so frail. He has been fighting it the entire time and looking to the day he could move back out. Because of his anger at being there, he has been putting himself in danger and last week he had another really bad fall, requiring stitches in his head. Then, as it now turns out, he has contracted pneumonia. I just found that out when I talked to the nurse last night.

Anyway, when I went to see him again yesterday he had not been able to get out of bed, could barely talk and looked like a little old skeleton laying there with the oxygen tubes in his nose. I feel so sad for this poor old Soul.

We had never had a good relationship, basically because most of his life he had been so angry at his lot in life. Never accepted the limitations that were placed on him and, while he had to stop doing something that he loved (flying airplanes) he never looked at all the other opportunities that were presented to him. And because of that, my life and the life of my brother were affected very adversely.

Each time that I have gone to see him the past two days, I have done energy work on him and when the energy starts to flow, he looks at me with very VERY new eyes. He relaxes and allows the energy to flow but when he gets TOO peaceful, he panics. He knows that his time is drawing to a close and again, he is fighting it. I keep telling him to relax and allow the energy to flow as I breathe deep down into his Soul. Like I said, it has been very emotionally draining. While I am there I can step into the role of healer and know that I am doing good work. Unfortunately once I am back home or in the car or anywhere else, I am feeling sad.

Went to the doctor yesterday and she insisted that I take something for all the stress that I am going through. Dad is only part of it. I relented and hopefully I will start to feel more back to normal soon. These ups and downs are getting to me.

I just picked a Conversation with God card and the message for today is

Bless every person and condition and give thanks.

So with a thankful heart I shall go out into the world today and feel the blessings that are being bestowed upon me within the current state of my being.

Namaste