Where'd the week go?

It is now Friday morning and I am soon off to do my Fitness Coach gig, which is actually a fun way to spend a few hours AND make a few bucks. Of course, being a fun gig doesn't exactly translate in to a lot of money but it does keep me off the streets and somewhat focussed.

My drumming friend came over last night and I discoverd he is also quite adept at giving massages. I guess when you are able to work the "skin" of a drum it does make you more sensitive to other types of "skin"....i.e. MINE. Have had some incredible knots appear this week and I know why but knowing WHY and doing something about it are two distinctly different energies. Sigh.

I am always amazed at how the Universe works. I mean here is this amazing man who is so ready to embrace all of me and I am sitting here going "No wait I am not ready". I keep telling him that and he does understand but I can feel all of him reaching to completely enfold me in his energy. And while there are a lot of things that I am feeling drawn to experience with him, being a physical being connecting on ALL levels is just not in the cards for me. And of course, you know who called.

So I have to realize that there is still a large part of me that still wants to be connected in all of what that is. How do I come to grips with that? What part of me still wants to engage with someone else who is NOT wanting to embrace ALL of me.........my Soul and the Goddess incarnate. That shadow side of me is what calls to him and like I wrote in The Woman in the Mirror, she sighs as the answers are not immediately accessible.

But for the moment, the sun is shining and I am going to hit the beach later and perhaps another poem will come to bring light to what is percolating within this Soul.

Enjoy your day in whatever our day has in store for YOU.