Musings for a Sunday morning.

Boy, it is the day before the full moon and the crazies are out in full bloom. For the past few days, they have all been yelling and threatening (or at least attempting to threaten) anyone who is silly enough to make eye contact. I can't imagine what it must be like to be REALLY out of your mind and living in a back alley somewhere. I say REALLY because there sure have been some times recently when I have questionned my own sanity.

So what have I been up to since my last post? Well, I have been working at the gym and working OUT at my own. Doing drumming circles or at least banging my drum on my own. Hitting the beach as these last warm days call to me. Went to Earthdance yesterday and am feeling a little sore. Beautiful day out and the music called to me on a very deep level. Danced off and on for about 4 hours and then watched a girly flick with a friend. So not exactly sitting around moping.

Mr. Crazy man (the 2 week thing) resurfaced and at first I thought it had just been a blip with the acting out thing from last week but oh no.........WAY crazier than I thought or perhaps I should rephrase that. He is exactly like I my original impression which brings me back to the comment about being REALLY crazy. Why did I attract in that kind of energy and, worse than attracting it in..........why did I engage when I knew in my heart it would not bode well. Anyway, it is for sure done now and I have something to keep my occupied fully for the next couple of months so I promise no more talk about random men as they pop in and out of my life.

I am going to go on an 8 day retreat in November which is a continuation of the two previous weekend workshops that I engaged in earlier this year. The first one was called "What's your Wake up Call" and the second, which I did in June was "Relationship as Spiritual Practice". Obviously this last man was sent to me to make me finally pay attention to me first and foremost and to NOT be distracted by sizzling energy.

On a long walk the other day I realized that it is time to lead with my heart instead of other energy zones in my body and see where that takes me.....should be a no brainer shouldn't it??

I also realize that one of the reasons I have not been blogging regularly is that I keep feeling that blogging about my humanness is not what my original intention had been for this particular blog. I had wanted to be inspiring and uplifting and I need to realize that real life sometimes is simply not that. So the plan is to start another one for must me and when I do have information that I feel would be useful for others on their path, I will send those along.

As I wrote that I realize that I am slightly embarassed at how my life is sometimes but perhaps that is exactly WHY I should share it with you all. We'll see how I feel as the next weeks move along.

But for today, the sun is out, I have done my workout for the day, fI'm eeling healthy AND the beach is calling.

Have a great Sunday and I'll be back.

Namaste