One month to Xmas

ARGH.......let's just add THAT to the previous mentioned stressors. And what a difference a day makes.

Officially this afternoon, I told them at one of my little "jobs" that I will only be there for this next week and then I'm gone. They keep cutting my hours and then switching them around and at the end of the day, they are now only offering me ONE 3 HOUR shift a week. I mean, what's with that. So openings on that end.

Went to the other place to check on my supposed shifts for this week and that too has changed. The owner is going through some pretty intense financial challenges and with that comes all that THAT entails. But he gave my shift away to someone else, after asking me if I would work that full day which I agreed to. Then he offered me a 3 hour shift for a day that I'm not available - hey, what's with the 3 hour shifts - and then HE got all pissy with me because I couldn't just switch things around to accomodate him. I didn't even mention that I had to fill in for someone when I was supposed to be doing something else on Saturday AND that he gave my Thursday evening shift to someone else too. Hmmmmmmm, what's wrong with this picture? And of course one of the locations is now headed for closure by the end of December, perhaps sooner, and it is the location that I had been so thrilled to get to do my readings out of. Changes, changes.....

BUT, I stopped into this new shop at the end of my block last night and they are looking for retail staff PLUS she wants to offer special evenings with me doing readings..........SEEEEEE, it just keeps shifting.

I guess I should just allow it to all settle into it's own perfect arrangement since TRYING to do something about things is just an exercise in futility. I do like this new shop though as it is a funky sexy place with great tunes playing in the background and lots of eye candy to keep me smiling. I'll be sure to let you all know how that pans out.

And Mr. Man??? He is pissing me off this past few days but it could just be that he is another piece of the general stressful puzzle. I do know that I am not salivating waiting to see him today which is different and I am not going to see him tonight. Too much of a good thing sometimes jumps up and bites you in the ass. Anyway, looking forward to doing my own thing this evening.

And last but not least, there is of course my dear old Dad. Had a VERY stressful few hours with him today and that doesn't help things much. Had to yell so that he could hear me today and he was so confused. Took him to a Dentist today and she seems to think that he needs some dental surgery (in the hospital no less) to replace a tooth that has broken. Perhaps it might be a nice idea to get this tooth replaced but the cost will be $3,000. AND he will have to go under anethestic which is pretty harsh when you are 90 years old. So that just added to the confusion. AND then when it was time to leave the elevator in the building was broken down. Not a big deal for me but HE is in a wheelchair so that was a fun exercise. The building manager and another man came to carry him down the stairs but of course Mr. Stubborn insisted on trying to walk down 2 flights of stairs. Gotta give him credit because he did it but each time he started to fall and the building manager reached out to catch him, my Dad yelled LOUDLY. We got him down but jeez, did I need that little extra added bit of stress? Uh, no....

And now of course I just remembered what I titled this little discourse - one month to Xmas. GROAN..........I think I'll just go and get my self a glass of wine and thank myself for getting through this day. I didn't go into EVERYTHING else that went on because I'm sure you don't need to know.

Blessings to you all. As they say....this too shall pass.

Monday ramblings

At least it is not a week since my last posting. I am having trouble getting anything accomplished, let alone writing..............oh oh.........Sigh

And all around me things seem to be in a state of flux. Work situations, my lovely new little place to do my readings out of, some physical ailments. So here I sit wondering - that's it - simply wondering.

The people that I spoke with today were also in the same space. I went for a walk and had a couple of conversations with some folks pertaining to the work situation and each and every one of them seemed slightly OFF today. Must be something to do with the planets or something. I'm sure one of you might be able to fill me in.

And of course there is the new guy. We both got to see the other sick this weekend and that is always a strange thing. He likes to go into his cave and now that I think about it, I do too. I used to want someone there to "look after me" but now I just want to eat soup, drink tea and lay around without having to explain myself to anyone. He voices concern and I feel his sympathy and it feels perfect for me. He went home to recuperate and it allowed me to do my own little brand of healing without feeling like I had to be doing something for anyone else. Anyway, he is feeling like new again and I am slowly coming back to normal.

Seems to be a lot of heaviness around me though and I am trying to wade through it. Stressors I guess like everyone else but while I acknowledge them, I am finding it harder to see what needs to be done to alleviate said stress. I used to fill up my time when there were things calling to me with the hopes that they would just disappear. Now, it appears, that I simply go into a place of quiet and stillness and WAIT. That is what I am doing it seems. Waiting for the dust to settle on said stressors and then, with some clarity, I will be able to make the appropriate decisions. PERFECT!

As I wrote that that last bit I realized that a lot of my stressors relate to the people for whom I am "attempting" to work. They all seem to be in a state of major flux - financially, emotionally and physically - so my trying to figure out what is happening is really a futile waste of time. I could always just decide to jump ship and change course but there are a lot of wonderful possibilities if the financial end (on their end) could get ironed out. I mean a wonderful world vision, a generally fun work atmosphere and opportunities to advance within something meaningful.

So thank you dear BLOG for being here for me to bounce things off of. I feel much better and know that I don't have to make any major decisions until the powers that be get their acts together.

And with that bit of insight, I shall bid you all a fond adieu. I bought a wonderful new novel to read and I am going to go and do just that.

Blessings of JOYFUL abundance......

Settling In...

And yes I am settling in. I can feel the rumblings of that stage that we call Falling in Love. I wanted to feel this and then as the feelings starting to rise up, I just pushed them back down as another familiar sense - think TERROR - was also pulling at my heartstrings. But the terror is falling away as I sense more and more love coming from him. We are both voicing a bit of fear around what we are both feeling but since we have each other to share these feelings with, it is making it easier to settle into what is occurring.

I feel safe and adored. He feels safe and honoured and we are both settling into the understanding that something special is happening. So wonderful to have someone who is not afraid of sharing his deeper feelings with me. In fact, it is as if he has been waiting for a very long time to have a woman to love and to open to the love of a special woman. And we laugh LOTS. It just plain feels right for me and I am starting to relax as I realize that I asked for someone like him and now that he has arrived, I may as well just receive him.

We were talking last night about the fact that we are seeing each other every night. I asked if we should take time away from each other and he asked WHY??? He wants to share himself with me and share in what I offer so why not spend time together. We both have our own homes but I find myself wanting to see him after my day has gone and he feels the same way. Hey, is this not what it is supposed to be like when you find someone with whom you resonate - especially resonate with on so many different levels? Sigh........all I know is that it feels very good.

Plus he is slowly getitng to meet friends of mine and they are all voicing the same feelings when meeting him. He is just so darn likeable and funny and open and interested in others. O.K. enough already. Katrice has finally found herself a Divine Compliment and she is happy....smile

So now, off to get ready for a client and then head over to the gym to be the little motivator that I AM.

Blessings to you all and may your day be full of joy and love...........

retreats and such and Hi to Calla

I just had a comment on a post that I wrote back in April and as she said in her comment, people should read this so I did just that. It was a post entitled "The Moses Code" and I have to say, even to myself, that it had a lot of food for thought in it.

I just got back from an 8 day retreat and it was exactly like I thought it would be.....energetically that is. I had days of profound sadness where I just wanted to pack all my shit up and just head home but of course I knew I would not do that. And speaking of packing up all my "shit", that is exactly what was coming up. All my issues about me and who I am AND how I live my life and perhaps HAVE lived my life were up big time and in my face. But then again, that is WHY I went.

And to be coming home to a "relationship" is a biggie since I have not been in a real relationship for such a long time. And speaking of "him", I just heard his car door slam so the phone will be ringing momentarily and I will start this next phase of my life.

I will write more in a couple of days and I do apologize for not being more in tune with me and the sharing of my Soul.

And speaking of sharing my Soul with you all, it looks like I will not have one of my little jobs anymore. They are downsizing and like most places, the last person hired is the first to go. But of course, I had been saying I wanted to leave that little job anyway, so as the old adage goes....be careful for what you wish.....you just might get it.

Until next time............