The Moses Code

So I went to a screening of the Moses Code last night but don't quite know what I got out of it. I guess I'll just go with the things that stick in my mind and then take it from there.

James Twyman goes through the 3 main things or attributes that we need to address as we move into our own personal mastery but, in the end, it is all about giving for, as we all know, it is in the giving that we receive. It is also coming into possession of your acceptance of your own destiny even if you are not totally aware of what exactly it is. And that is where I am folks...

What is my destiny? I had thought I was on the road but I seemed to have hit a roadblock, so to speak, on many levels, and I have been whining about just this thing for the past little while.

And yes, I admit it. I have been whining. Oh poor me look at where I am and let me tell you, there is absolutely NOTHING wrong with where I am. I am safe and protected and able to manage just fine. But there is something calling to me of a much bigger nature and I just can't seem to get a handle on it. The home of the person who was showing the film last night got me thinking BIG TIME. I mean OMG, I have never been in such a beautiful house and she just finished the final decorations the day before she opened her home to all of us.

Now I had heard that she had just got divorced and the house was part of her settlement but little did I know that her now Ex husband is someone of note in the personal development field. Not naming any names here but it surprised me a lot. Anyway, that is not the point. The point here is that the first thought that sprang into my mind was "Hey, she did well in her divorce settlement" and the very next thought was "Wow did I blow mine." But then, at that moment, I did not know who she had been married to and suffice to say, there was a whole lot more LOOT to divy up than in my divorce. Now that I am sitting here writing this, I realize how silly that second thought was. But it was mine. And I need to pay attention to those errant thoughts.


I have been rather judgemental of late towards my little self. Trying to see if there was anything that I could have done differently with regards to the dissolution of my marriages (2 - hey that's not that bad...grin) but like it or not, I just could not continue on with them and while it might have been different had I just "sucked it up" like so many women do I have already established that I am not most women. The one thing however that does concern me is that I had always been a home owner but since I went off on my adventure after the last divorce I have not regained a foot hold in the housing market and now, living in Vancouver I sometimes wonder if I ever will again. I hate that rents continually go up simply because the year is up. That does seem fair to me at all. I know people who have been paying the same rent for years simply because their landlords like to have them as tenants. I guess living in a high rise though, the powers that be that own my little space don't care about who fills the space, they just want their money and since they are allowed to raise rents each year, being as how they are in the business of making money, that is exactly what they do. So here I sit, with nothing special being done to my place unless I do it AND paying more each year.


So went off on a little tangent there didn't I but back to the giving and accepting part of the Moses Code. I am constantly trying to come into acceptance for me and my lot in life and most days I do pretty well at it but lately I have been looking back a lot and realizing that the choices I made then were the ones for that time in my life and while I might not be as accepting of where I am right now, everything that I did do back then has had a profound effect on where I am now. So time to accept it and move on.


And as for the giving part of it all. I do give a lot of myself but of late, spirit has been making me spend more time with me and that is what I am being prompted to do. It is time to give to me and if I can learn to give to me and come into acceptance for all of what I am then that ever elusive destiny will appear closer and I can take the next step........sort of like Moses.

Gotta pay attention and move forward even if we might not know where the next step will take us.