paying attention to the spaces....

To expand upon my last post concerning the spaces in between I neglected to mention that I had a wee bit of an accident the other morning. A clock that hangs above my kitchen sink fell on me. Not only did it fall on me...but it made contact right in the centre of my third eye. I mean right smack dab in the middle of it.

The goose egg within that first hour was amazing. I have NEVER had something like this happen to me so it was quite fascinating in a weird sort of way. The feeling of my skin stretching over my forehead was quite surreal and I immediately identified with the Klingons or whoever those weird creatures are on Star Trek or Battlestar Gallactica or those other Sci Fi shows. I mean this HUGE bump which now that I think back upon it must have been almost as big as a golf ball. Can you envision that? That is a really big bump to be residing in the centre of your forehead. But that was then...this is now. And now it is a totally different vision...........

The goose egg has gone down. It is now the size of a marble but a very purple marble....well, there is also a hint of green and yellow but it is pretty ugly and remember it is situated at my 3rd eye so you can't just miss it or anything like that. But that is nothing to what has now happeed to the rest of my face. The bruise starts at the marble lump spot and spreads out towards the tips of eyebrows and then leisurely slides down between my eyes and carries down to the mid point at the centre of my nose. The colours spread out from my nose edging quite close to my cheek bones. So have you got the picture yet? A little hard to miss.

So as to the writing thing that I have going on the past few days, this is another of the reasons. I just don't want to go out and have to explain what happened nor have people look at me and go "WHOA.......WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?" or words to that effect.

But what I am attempting to get across here is not so much the injury but the fact that it has me at home doing what it is that I keep talking about doing....writing. It has also made me sit up and pay attention to what is or, more importantly, is NOT happening in my life.

Being hit HARD in the 3rd eye is not something that I can ignore. The 3rd eye is the seat of your intuition - the place where you are able to see beyond what lies right in front of your physical eyes. And sometimes I know that I would rather see everything else than what is staring me down.

So I have come to some very clear understandings as to some of the rather unstable aspects of my persona....the ones that have contributed to getting to where I am here...right now. Such a huge learning curve just occured for me and I have a clock to thank for it. And when you remember that it was a clock that hit me......perhaps it is all about "timing".

Perhaps the timing was not yet in sync with the learning curve for me to be able to see clearly. Perhaps the veils were not yet ready to lift - allowing me to really appreciate all of what was currently occuring in my life....those spaces and places within which I was not feeling comfortable nor supported.

The places that I was choosing to share my gifts or "work" at where I found myself feeling stifled - they are no longer a part of my life. I do miss the connections that I had with a few people but generally it was a draining experience for me. At one point, I loved heading out to share my gifts at other locations but the past year or so, it had become a chore and something to which I was not looking forward to. So I stopped.

The person with whom I was choosing to share all of me, all of this loving being that I AM. This situation is also now behind me and another energy draining aspect is ready to be let go. This has been a very hard blind spot, so to speak, for me for quite some time. I had been working at letting this Soul go for a long time but over the past few weeks, it has been clearer and clearer to me FINALLY that it is definitely not something that I choose to do any longer and THIS is a wonderful thing to be writing. That particular veil was very heavy and I can feel a lightness starting to permeate my body and Soul.

Who knows what will happen next. I'm not worried about it though. I will, however, be watching for things falling from the sky and my 3rd eye will remain fully open to catch anything else that chooses to filter down to me.

I promise to pay attention this time.

the spaces in between

This seems to be a recurring theme for the past few days. I heard it mentioned when watching the Moses Code the other night. Then I read a similar point being made while reading something called the Daily OM. If that wasn't enough I went to the symphony the other night and the conductor was talking about the space in between the notes in the symphony that he was getting set to conduct. And then AGAIN, it came to my attention this morning while reading something (sorry I can't remember exactly what it was) so I had to stop and say "Hey, what's with this"? A theme developing all around me while I sit here, in my own space with nothing much happening........

In the Moses Code James Twyman talked about how so many of us spend time focussing on what is not working in our lives, thereby bringing MORE of that discordance in with every thought. Instead, focus on where it is that we are wanting to go, what it is that we are desirous of bringing in and shift our attention in that direction.

In another instance, I was reading about someone who was starting to do mountain biking down some pretty extreme hills. He talked about continually wiping out and an expert biker asked him what he was focussing on as he hurtled down the hill. The answer was that he was watching all the rocks and bumps and trying not to hit them. The expert suggested that he should "focus on the spaces in between the bumps and rocks and get to his destination that way." As soon as he shifted his focus to the spaces in between, he started to make it down the hills with much more success and is now an expert himself.

So back to the original point here....what do we find in the spaces in between? The times in our lives when we are flailing around and struggling....when confusion reigns supreme, when we feel lost and without a clear direction. Perhaps it is just these times that are our own "in between spaces". Perhaps we are simply being held in this "space" as we shift from the past into the future. This present moment may just be the perfect in between space for us to be catapulted into our future. And it's all good.

Sure it doesn't exactly feel "all good" when we are feeling lost and disoriented in our current life circumstances. I know that I am feeling somewhat unsettled as I try to figure out what it is that I truly wish to be doing next. The fact that I am sitting here writing is a very good thing however as I keep talking about doing just this. This current in between space is affording me lots of time to do just this.....write write and write some more. So I guess it is good.

The spaces in between are a necessary part of the whole experience that is life. Just like the spaces in between the notes are necessary for the whole symphony to flow. Just like I need to have space available to be able to sit and write. Just like I need to access my own unique flow once more.

I was feeling completely out of sync with me and my own energies and that was feeling very uncomfortable. As the sun is trying valiantly to shine through my office window, I feel a kindred spirit within it. My own light has been trying to shine and I have been placing all sorts of limitations and veils over it.

In this now moment..........in this in between space..........I am shining out and I certainly hope that my little discourse here has enabled you to flick your own switch in this moment and shine on too.

Blessings abound.