almost back in the land of the living

Am feeling better tonight. Spent some time in the park at the lake and it was perfect. The sun was shining and it was so very quiet. I was sitting on a bench with my eyes closed settling in to a sweet place of calm and a bird landed on my thigh...... I jerked and the poor little bird shrieked. It flew up on to the branch next to me and sat there staring. I must have been VERY calm. Perhaps it thought I was just another inanimate object - a part of the park which I guess at that moment I had become. Anyway, it was a very NOW moment.

Went to meet with the people connected with the place that is my new "home" as a reader in the city. Amazing people I have managed to connect with. HUGE hearts and all about giving back to the world. Such a change from the last place. I am being blessed methinks. PLUS it is my neighbourhood so it just feels so very right.

Ended up sharing a bottle of wine and a pizza with one of the guys. I like him. Amazing stories he has from his life and it just keeps getting more interesting. He is happy and at peace with himself. We laugh. We dance. We talk. I even got a foot rub. HEAVEN. I told him that I know it is just a part of his bag of tricks to have me succumb to his charm and he said "Yeah, pretty much" as he laughed and squeezed my foot. When I said it was time for him to leave he said it is nice to know that we can be relaxed around each other and gave me a great big hug and off he went. Nice night....smile

I then checked email and guess who had left me a message. I am STRONG so not to fear.

It's Mother's Day as we all know and the kids are cooking me dinner. Originally they were going to come to my house but now it looks like we will be going to a friend of my daughter's who has this great big house with a HUGE covered deck. In any event, I am going to be fed and pampered one way or the other so it will be fun.

The land of the living beckons...