Here's to weekends filled with Love and Joy

They have been predicting rain for today but I just came back from the beach because it was just too warm to be there in my jeans and boots. The sky is a beautiful clear vibrant blue and the sun is wonderfully warm.

Had my first meeting with the group after the ending of the official portion of the course. Felt so very powerful and positive when sharing today and realize that I am really ready to get going. Lots of assistance is available and some of my new friends are interested in coming to the meditation circles so that feels wonderful too. I notice that the past few days the word "wonderful" keeps cropping up.

FULL OF WONDER...........what a great state to be in. Not full of angst which is something that has been resonating for so very long. I felt like I had so much to share today with the others in the group and noticed that my sense of optimism is on high beam and I was sharing this sense of positivity with them all. My mind is clear and I have so much to offer.

Had my second meeting with one of the facilitators after class today and he said that I seemed to be moving forward and really getting things in order so our meeting didn't take very long. A 45 minute block of time had been allotted but he said that that it was obviously not necessary to spend much time here as I had so much ready to move forward with already. It was apparent to him that there didn't seem to be anything else that needed to be added to my own schedule for the next week or so. Cool......on a number of levels.

Then went for a walk with a friend of mine who is so very confused. Ahhh, relationships or perhaps I should say the "potential" for a relationship has surfaced over the past few months but, and yes there is a but, this gentleman, who looks like the perfect partner for her, is already married AND still involved with and living in relationship with another woman. Why do these things present themself to not only her but a number of other women I know at this time?

Is there some inherent flaw in humans in this city that makes them incapable of being monogamous? It sure is apparent in the people in my age group (loosely from 40 to 60 years old) because it keeps cropping up for so many. One good thing that has come out of this - at least for me - is that I can not go into something like this. They keep coming to me too, these men who are not available, nor capable it seems of being available to simply have one love in their lives and it makes me pause.

I am sitting in a complete state of freedom now that I have this life work of mine to focus on. In being able to counsel my friends, I am coming into a much more powerful sense of my own self with regards to relationships. This relationship that I am developing with ME at this time in my life is and, here is that word again...wonderful. I don't feel the need to be with someone right now and THAT is huge.

I am going to an Easter potluck celebration with my son's fiance's family - and I guess now MY family too - and I am so excited because there will be young children there. I called to ask my son's fiance's sister and brother-in-law if I could bring some Easter chocolates to their beautiful young boys and the answer was yes. Oh goodie I said because they are very strict with "junk" food for the boys but, as Patrick said, there are special occasions and this is one of them. We are going to hide a bunch of Easter treats all over the yard and have an Easter egg hunt........woohoo. Let the fun begin. And that is exactly what I am working with too. A sense of FUN and JOY at simply being alive and able to enjoy that.

I no longer feel the need to have to have someone special in my life in order for me enjoy my life. I have a lot of people in my life who ARE already a special part of me and my world and that sustains me. Plus, dear old Dad gets to participate too and he will be thrilled.

So enjoy your weekend and let it be filled with Love and Joy because that is what I wish for each and every one of you.

Namaste