It almost feels surreal how relaxed I am here. I'm sure it has a lot to do with my housemate and how we seem to be able to co-exist here perfectly. She has her things to do and I have mine and yet, we seem to come together a number of times a day to share.......whatever it is that we are feeling like sharing. Definitely feels like home for the foreseeable future. Very blessed.
She introduced me to some of the "main" areas of this rural spot where I have landed. Found the local dry cleaner, a couple of gyms to check out, met a wonderful shop Owner who was interested in what we both do......as the little healers that we are. Plus she really liked hearing that I do readings (physic/intuitive/energy) and is considering having me spend time in the shop which would be so much fun.
For years I was the Reader du Jour, if you will, at various metaphysical shops and healing centres, and always found it to be a wonderful way to spend a day. I would get to meet everyone that came in and generally once they got to know me, they became intrigued with what I do and the clients would effortlessly come to me. Knowing I am going to be out here I had thought I might venture into that realm again and have a couple of other places to investigate too but all in all, feels like definite forward motion.
I also found the most amazing mirror to go over the new funky dresser I found last week. We are both in awe at how it came to be sitting amidst a whole whack of other mirrors, none of which looked ANYTHING like it. It is amazing how this new room of mine is coming along but then again, when you find yourself back in your flow, this is generally what occurs.
I was feeling slightly anxious earlier today and I realized what it was. I had been surrounded for the past few years, by the energies of someone with whom I am definitely NOT aligned. Yet here, in my new home, all I feel is soft and gentle energy, which is more like MY energy. Been so out of whack for so long this calm, relaxed feeling is foreign and I couldn't quite put my finger on it until a short while ago.
My housemate told me to simply continue to relax and allow myself to settle into my new home. Everything is getting done. There is simply no major panic to get life completely organized in 5 days so relax I will.
In fact, who wants to be COMPLETELY organized EVER. There has to be a bit of unsettledness in order for us to realized when we ARE.......settled that is. A challenge to be sure of mine and one through which I am currently travelling.
Have an awesome and continue being good to yourselves....you deserve it.
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
Sunday, October 28, 2012
Settling in......
Spent a wonderful few hours with a friend last night. Interesting how you can be apart from someone for long periods and then POOF, it is as if was only yesterday when you last connected. Was up later than usual for me however so had a slow start to the day.
Is so wonderful to be able to just putz around the house and set sacred space here and there, until the entire house is in a state of balance. I am also so very grateful to this friend as it appears we are on the same page and, to make matters even better, she loves that I like to play house, at it were. There have been a number of instances where it felt so much like I am the Mother and she is the Daughter. Amazes me that we find ourselves in this situation but realize that it is for the best for both of us at this time. We both feel family in our connection so it is all very good.
Also, happy to report, I will be having my first client here on Wednesday, which assists in setting the energy for the development of our own little Healing Sanctuary at the front of the property. I take this as a sign that this will be a wonderful home for me. Funny, when I first thought of moving here, I felt it was only for the short term but, now that I have spent a few nights here, I realize how much at home I feel. Definitely feels good.
Went through the rest of the boxes and found a few more special things. Did a bunch of laundry and basically settled in. Nothing earth shattering to report, simply feeling blessed within the simplicity of it all.
Feels good.
Be well and take good care of your selves....you deserve it.
Is so wonderful to be able to just putz around the house and set sacred space here and there, until the entire house is in a state of balance. I am also so very grateful to this friend as it appears we are on the same page and, to make matters even better, she loves that I like to play house, at it were. There have been a number of instances where it felt so much like I am the Mother and she is the Daughter. Amazes me that we find ourselves in this situation but realize that it is for the best for both of us at this time. We both feel family in our connection so it is all very good.
Also, happy to report, I will be having my first client here on Wednesday, which assists in setting the energy for the development of our own little Healing Sanctuary at the front of the property. I take this as a sign that this will be a wonderful home for me. Funny, when I first thought of moving here, I felt it was only for the short term but, now that I have spent a few nights here, I realize how much at home I feel. Definitely feels good.
Went through the rest of the boxes and found a few more special things. Did a bunch of laundry and basically settled in. Nothing earth shattering to report, simply feeling blessed within the simplicity of it all.
Feels good.
Be well and take good care of your selves....you deserve it.
Saturday, October 27, 2012
The stage is set - let the play begin......
Feeling very VERY comfortable in my new living space. Had an old friend visit today and he said "Whoa, this already feels like YOU!" Not bad since I just moved in 2 days ago. Helps of course that my house mate is a lot like me and somehow we manage to keep one another on an even keel....at least so far.....smile.
I hadn't realized how different it feels to be living on the land instead of several stories up, with a multitude of people all around you. I owned a number of different houses over the years but have been renting smaller spaces for the past dozen of years or so and sitting here looking out a an entire forest as my back yard has a completely different sense of reality.
I had another friend over the day I was moving in and her reaction was totally different. She is currently living in a modern new condo building up high......you know the type. Pretty swanky! So, for her to see ME, her oldest friend, moving into this ramshankle (on the outside) old house out in the country just didn't sit well with her. There was almost a fear that I have fallen into the dark side or something. She doesn't exactly see Spirit as I do, so I can understand. This house is, how to say it, in need of some renovations so on the outside it does not look all that "swell".
However, upon entering you can feel the shift in energy. We are not just looking at what it presents to the outside world, it is the essence of what both her and I are. We are sisters in spirit, healers, nurturers, intuitive women on a quest to bring more healing and happiness to those who find us. And what was the main reason for me to be moving WAY out here, you might ask? Well, I'll tell you.
On this large piece of property there also resides, separate from the main house, a completely separate 800 sq. ft. cottage that is totally bare inside just waiting for someone to do something with it. And here is the gist of it all.....so divine really.
When I met my house mate, she came to a course I taught many years ago entitled "Creating Sacred Space". We bonded the very first day and, while we have had our ups and downs, we have always had a sacred and special connection. She had always maintained that we, her and I, would someday run a healing centre....a sacred sanctuary and this is what we are now in the planning stages OF.....with the bones of it all sitting waiting for our tender and loving creative energy. It will be an amazing place and I will be sharing, with you all, the developments as they occur.
We are also going to be renting space to those who are in the healing arts for classes and workshops. I will once more have a beautiful sacred space to host my monthly meditations again. In fact, we can already start them in the main house, just as it is. Had an email from another friend, who lives in Thailand and owns a Thai Massage School, who is asking how the space is coming along as he wishes to be one of our first practitioners sharing their gifts out of the space. Beautiful energy!
Another beautiful friend of mine who is a LomiLomi practitioner and teacher of various modes of massage, is also planning a trip to our sanctuary for the sharing of some of her wonderful teachings as well.
So, as you can see, the stage is set. We are in the gestation period and it is in complete harmony with me.........as I come back into the Light of day after a rather long absence.
May your day or evening be blessed.
Life is good. Namaste
I hadn't realized how different it feels to be living on the land instead of several stories up, with a multitude of people all around you. I owned a number of different houses over the years but have been renting smaller spaces for the past dozen of years or so and sitting here looking out a an entire forest as my back yard has a completely different sense of reality.
I had another friend over the day I was moving in and her reaction was totally different. She is currently living in a modern new condo building up high......you know the type. Pretty swanky! So, for her to see ME, her oldest friend, moving into this ramshankle (on the outside) old house out in the country just didn't sit well with her. There was almost a fear that I have fallen into the dark side or something. She doesn't exactly see Spirit as I do, so I can understand. This house is, how to say it, in need of some renovations so on the outside it does not look all that "swell".
However, upon entering you can feel the shift in energy. We are not just looking at what it presents to the outside world, it is the essence of what both her and I are. We are sisters in spirit, healers, nurturers, intuitive women on a quest to bring more healing and happiness to those who find us. And what was the main reason for me to be moving WAY out here, you might ask? Well, I'll tell you.
On this large piece of property there also resides, separate from the main house, a completely separate 800 sq. ft. cottage that is totally bare inside just waiting for someone to do something with it. And here is the gist of it all.....so divine really.
When I met my house mate, she came to a course I taught many years ago entitled "Creating Sacred Space". We bonded the very first day and, while we have had our ups and downs, we have always had a sacred and special connection. She had always maintained that we, her and I, would someday run a healing centre....a sacred sanctuary and this is what we are now in the planning stages OF.....with the bones of it all sitting waiting for our tender and loving creative energy. It will be an amazing place and I will be sharing, with you all, the developments as they occur.
We are also going to be renting space to those who are in the healing arts for classes and workshops. I will once more have a beautiful sacred space to host my monthly meditations again. In fact, we can already start them in the main house, just as it is. Had an email from another friend, who lives in Thailand and owns a Thai Massage School, who is asking how the space is coming along as he wishes to be one of our first practitioners sharing their gifts out of the space. Beautiful energy!
Another beautiful friend of mine who is a LomiLomi practitioner and teacher of various modes of massage, is also planning a trip to our sanctuary for the sharing of some of her wonderful teachings as well.
So, as you can see, the stage is set. We are in the gestation period and it is in complete harmony with me.........as I come back into the Light of day after a rather long absence.
May your day or evening be blessed.
Life is good. Namaste
Friday, October 26, 2012
Feeling much more settled this morning
Slept my first night in my new bed, in my new bedroom, in my new house. Feel very comfortable here and know that all will be just fine.
Am able to write again and feel welcome by my housemate. Her house which she is sharing with me...all of it so so nice to have room to roam around AND we both have our own space which makes it even better. We are both having fun watching the energy shift and while we are both "yackers", we are both in a place where we desire our quiet solitary time too. Ahhhhh.......
Have my bedroom relatively organized and now just have to go through the boxes out in storage to see what I also want to bring into the house. The ex, as I mentioned, wouldn't let me take much of my special homey things so not much out there anyway, but still a few things.
I feel sorry for my other friend who helped me grab the stuff that he WOULD let me take and hope she is feeling better having her space all to herself again. Such a blessing being able to heal and re-group after the situation with, not only my ex but my father AND my son. Most definitely a crazy couple of months.
But for now, I can look out the window as I type and see only TREES and sky. Of course I miss the ocean and the views off in the distance but for now, here is where I will reside.
To be continued....
Am able to write again and feel welcome by my housemate. Her house which she is sharing with me...all of it so so nice to have room to roam around AND we both have our own space which makes it even better. We are both having fun watching the energy shift and while we are both "yackers", we are both in a place where we desire our quiet solitary time too. Ahhhhh.......
Have my bedroom relatively organized and now just have to go through the boxes out in storage to see what I also want to bring into the house. The ex, as I mentioned, wouldn't let me take much of my special homey things so not much out there anyway, but still a few things.
I feel sorry for my other friend who helped me grab the stuff that he WOULD let me take and hope she is feeling better having her space all to herself again. Such a blessing being able to heal and re-group after the situation with, not only my ex but my father AND my son. Most definitely a crazy couple of months.
But for now, I can look out the window as I type and see only TREES and sky. Of course I miss the ocean and the views off in the distance but for now, here is where I will reside.
To be continued....
Thursday, October 25, 2012
Moving messes with my Chi
ARGH....it is always such a hassel moving and this time was no different. Actually it was the WORST experience ever.
Of course I had never left my place of residence. It has always been the other part of my relationship who has left our little home. And when I went to get MY stuff....you know the personal little parts of you, those little momentoes......well, he refused to part with MY little homey things. That was awful. I would go to take something off the wall and he would grab it out of my hand and say NO, you can't take that. I'd go, "hey, it is mine. I paid for it, I bought it and I brought it home." He didn't care. As far as he was concerned, since I had left him, that meant that I forfeited all rights to anything that was mine.
Big Sigh.....quite traumatic actually. But I am now firmly ensconced in my new place, complete with a housemate so another journey ensues. A tad tired but I survived.
Will write more later but I am really tired and had to share SOME thing....
Have a peaceful night.
Of course I had never left my place of residence. It has always been the other part of my relationship who has left our little home. And when I went to get MY stuff....you know the personal little parts of you, those little momentoes......well, he refused to part with MY little homey things. That was awful. I would go to take something off the wall and he would grab it out of my hand and say NO, you can't take that. I'd go, "hey, it is mine. I paid for it, I bought it and I brought it home." He didn't care. As far as he was concerned, since I had left him, that meant that I forfeited all rights to anything that was mine.
Big Sigh.....quite traumatic actually. But I am now firmly ensconced in my new place, complete with a housemate so another journey ensues. A tad tired but I survived.
Will write more later but I am really tired and had to share SOME thing....
Have a peaceful night.
Sunday, October 21, 2012
The gift of old friends
Had a lovely evening with my oldest friend last night. Had a great dinner, shared a lot of laughs and even did something outrageous........at least outrageous for two...ahem.....older mature women. We dissolved in laughter and woke up this morning still giggling. That is the gift of old friends. You can always revert to the ways of childhood and bring that back as the gift it truly is.
We have been friends for over 40 years and, while there have been times when we did not see much of one another, we always come back to the fact that there is a bond that nothing can break. It can be stretched at times and sometimes the cracks show, but at the end of the day, we are friends through thick and thin. And this is truly special.
I recently met an interesting woman and am planning on getting together with her later today to see what SHE is all about. I do find that I am attracting to the energies of those who are "different". Of course, we are all different but there are those with whom we resonate energetically. And this woman and I connected even before we actually met. Looking forward to seeing if this new "friendship" will be another like the one I first started speaking of. I remember when I first spoke with this woman, I immediately thought that she and my old pal would get along famously.
Friend number one mentioned during our discussion last night that she has, as another friend of hers mentioned, a rather eclectic group of friends...some of whom may be considered odd. I too gravitate to different souls and, while some of these may have not perhaps been good choices, it has always been interesting to discover different ways of being, different ways of living in this world.
At times I do lament the fact that I do not have a large group of close friends, but I have to admit that the ones I have cultivated have enriched my life in many ways.....teaching me more about this being that I AM.
And I do know that now, at this time in my life, I am becoming more open to receiving more friends into my world, trusting that those that come now will assist me in becoming more and more the person I choose to be.
Sounds good to me.
Have a great day wherever you are.
We have been friends for over 40 years and, while there have been times when we did not see much of one another, we always come back to the fact that there is a bond that nothing can break. It can be stretched at times and sometimes the cracks show, but at the end of the day, we are friends through thick and thin. And this is truly special.
I recently met an interesting woman and am planning on getting together with her later today to see what SHE is all about. I do find that I am attracting to the energies of those who are "different". Of course, we are all different but there are those with whom we resonate energetically. And this woman and I connected even before we actually met. Looking forward to seeing if this new "friendship" will be another like the one I first started speaking of. I remember when I first spoke with this woman, I immediately thought that she and my old pal would get along famously.
Friend number one mentioned during our discussion last night that she has, as another friend of hers mentioned, a rather eclectic group of friends...some of whom may be considered odd. I too gravitate to different souls and, while some of these may have not perhaps been good choices, it has always been interesting to discover different ways of being, different ways of living in this world.
At times I do lament the fact that I do not have a large group of close friends, but I have to admit that the ones I have cultivated have enriched my life in many ways.....teaching me more about this being that I AM.
And I do know that now, at this time in my life, I am becoming more open to receiving more friends into my world, trusting that those that come now will assist me in becoming more and more the person I choose to be.
Sounds good to me.
Have a great day wherever you are.
Saturday, October 20, 2012
Not much of interest to share today...
Feeling guilty because I didn't write anything here yesterday as I was out and about until late so here I sit, going hmmmmmmmm? What to talk about today?
It's different as my friend is back from her trip so I am not exactly on my own anymore which does tend to slow up the creative juices. Certainly realized that I do enjoy being on my own these days which is so different from the past and it is really hard trying to write when someone is sitting across from you "talking". Oh well, we'll see how it goes as I will be moving next weekend and will have more alone time once more.
The prospect of moving is a tad disconcerting as I dread having to go over there and pack while the ex sits holding court. I suggested that perhaps he might want to go somewhere for a few hours while my friend and I pack and lug everything out. Of course, wouldn't it be nice if he would offer to help schlepp some of the boxes down to the truck but that is not going to be happening. Plus, he refuses to give us some space to get organized. I said "what do you think I'm going to do? Take some of your stuff or something?" and he just grunted. So friggin distrustful, but then again, that is one of the reasons we are no longer together. Anyway, I know I'll get through it so just have to suck it up and do it.
Heading out to the new abode in a short while to measure and figure out what exactly I will have room for. Mainly thinking of my plants, which I would really like to take with me but if there is not enough room, I guess the ex will get to keep them.
This is not working so there is noise coming from the kitchen. I don't think she understands that it is really hard to concentrate on writing when excess noise is taking over.
I officially give up.
Tomorrow I shall return. Have a good one.
It's different as my friend is back from her trip so I am not exactly on my own anymore which does tend to slow up the creative juices. Certainly realized that I do enjoy being on my own these days which is so different from the past and it is really hard trying to write when someone is sitting across from you "talking". Oh well, we'll see how it goes as I will be moving next weekend and will have more alone time once more.
The prospect of moving is a tad disconcerting as I dread having to go over there and pack while the ex sits holding court. I suggested that perhaps he might want to go somewhere for a few hours while my friend and I pack and lug everything out. Of course, wouldn't it be nice if he would offer to help schlepp some of the boxes down to the truck but that is not going to be happening. Plus, he refuses to give us some space to get organized. I said "what do you think I'm going to do? Take some of your stuff or something?" and he just grunted. So friggin distrustful, but then again, that is one of the reasons we are no longer together. Anyway, I know I'll get through it so just have to suck it up and do it.
Heading out to the new abode in a short while to measure and figure out what exactly I will have room for. Mainly thinking of my plants, which I would really like to take with me but if there is not enough room, I guess the ex will get to keep them.
This is not working so there is noise coming from the kitchen. I don't think she understands that it is really hard to concentrate on writing when excess noise is taking over.
I officially give up.
Tomorrow I shall return. Have a good one.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
Heart full of love and gratitude
As this blog is more my thoughts on my day, I haven't been very diligent about ensuring that it gets noticed out here in cyberspace but to my surprise, one of you actually connected with me.....yeah. And I thank you Steve.
Just yesterday, I was reading about the importance of good post titles so I shall be more cognizant about this aspect of it all. My website contains my daily inspiration notices and these are picked up by many more and for me this is a more important part of my writing. Those articles are meant to assist Souls on their path, both personally and spiritually so while this blog helps ME.....smile.....I am not perhaps as serious about it. Might be time to take a different approach to this one too. We'll see....
It is an awful day out there. A typical Vancouver/West Coast Fall day.....pouring...YUCK. Wish I could just stay all hunkered down in the house but I am waiting for a call from my friend who is flying back from her 6 week vacation in Spain and Portugal. Since I have been staying at her home, it would behoove me to get out there and pick her up so into the downpour I shall be heading in a couple of hours. Won't she be pleased to be back - I don't think so.............chuckle.
I can sure feel the changes happening within me and it feels so very good. Finally getting back out there and connecting with both old friends and meeting new ones. Networking you might say which is something I need to be doing if I plan on supporting myself properly. Sure would be nice to just sit here and write and watch the money coming in but I still have to get out in the world and let people know I am here and, more importantly, know what I do. To that end, I got my new business cards today which is perfect timing as I have a networking lunch scheduled for tomorrow.
These cards are completely different from ones in the past which probably makes sense as I am different. Looking forward to getting them out there, not only at networking events but on bulletin boards around town. Hoping that the stars align and the perfect clients start to find me. I am SO very ready to start working again. I never really think of it all as "work" perse because I love doing my readings and healing sessions. And it is not like I would have to be working hours on end as I figure that 10 sessions a week would be perfectly sufficient for me as my needs are simple. So I am officially sending my request out there.
Dear Universe. Please send me 10 clients next week and each week thereafter. I AM open to receive with gratitude and a heart full of love. I thank YOU in advance. Blessings abound.
So, that should do it. What do you think?
Have a great day and try to stay dry.
Just yesterday, I was reading about the importance of good post titles so I shall be more cognizant about this aspect of it all. My website contains my daily inspiration notices and these are picked up by many more and for me this is a more important part of my writing. Those articles are meant to assist Souls on their path, both personally and spiritually so while this blog helps ME.....smile.....I am not perhaps as serious about it. Might be time to take a different approach to this one too. We'll see....
It is an awful day out there. A typical Vancouver/West Coast Fall day.....pouring...YUCK. Wish I could just stay all hunkered down in the house but I am waiting for a call from my friend who is flying back from her 6 week vacation in Spain and Portugal. Since I have been staying at her home, it would behoove me to get out there and pick her up so into the downpour I shall be heading in a couple of hours. Won't she be pleased to be back - I don't think so.............chuckle.
I can sure feel the changes happening within me and it feels so very good. Finally getting back out there and connecting with both old friends and meeting new ones. Networking you might say which is something I need to be doing if I plan on supporting myself properly. Sure would be nice to just sit here and write and watch the money coming in but I still have to get out in the world and let people know I am here and, more importantly, know what I do. To that end, I got my new business cards today which is perfect timing as I have a networking lunch scheduled for tomorrow.
These cards are completely different from ones in the past which probably makes sense as I am different. Looking forward to getting them out there, not only at networking events but on bulletin boards around town. Hoping that the stars align and the perfect clients start to find me. I am SO very ready to start working again. I never really think of it all as "work" perse because I love doing my readings and healing sessions. And it is not like I would have to be working hours on end as I figure that 10 sessions a week would be perfectly sufficient for me as my needs are simple. So I am officially sending my request out there.
Dear Universe. Please send me 10 clients next week and each week thereafter. I AM open to receive with gratitude and a heart full of love. I thank YOU in advance. Blessings abound.
So, that should do it. What do you think?
Have a great day and try to stay dry.
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
A good day
I had a good meeting with my financial guru-ette today. In the past, whenever I had to discuss "finances", I would get anxious. Why? I don't know but it always made me feel anxious, even when I had no reasonable "reason" for it. However, today was the first time I found myself, not only relaxed, but excited about the possibilities that are available to me. Wonderful shift in affairs.
There is something to be said for having a bit of a cushion, knowing that I have so many positive possibilities opening up to me, with respect to my financial well-being. I used to give myself a hard time since I did have good "office jobs", in the past, ones that would have provided me with a substantial pension, had I stayed with them. Unfortunately, I never could. I would get a new job all under control and then get bored so on to the next. Now, back then, there were tons of jobs and I could quit one and have another by the next week. Not so much nowadays. Now that I said that, I realize that my daughter follows in my footsteps but, like her dear old Mom, she too finds new jobs effortlessly. At the moment, she is enjoying the job that she does have and since she knows that this is the one she will keep until such time as she has a family, she has relaxed into it all, knowing it is not forever. Anyway, I digress....
In my meeting today with said financial whiz, she realized that I need to do what I am passionate about and finally she has relaxed, knowing that I am NOT like any of her other clients. I guess that is what helped so much today as she had continually wanted me to get a JOB, which is not what I do. I work at my passion which is the healing arts and writing. So, today was good.
I also actually went in to a store today and started to look at new furniture as I am going to be buying both bedroom and living room furniture and again, there was no concern about the outlay of cash for these items as, firstly, I will need them and secondly, I have the funds.
So looking forward and feeling like life is good.
Here's hoping your life is also going well.
Be well.
There is something to be said for having a bit of a cushion, knowing that I have so many positive possibilities opening up to me, with respect to my financial well-being. I used to give myself a hard time since I did have good "office jobs", in the past, ones that would have provided me with a substantial pension, had I stayed with them. Unfortunately, I never could. I would get a new job all under control and then get bored so on to the next. Now, back then, there were tons of jobs and I could quit one and have another by the next week. Not so much nowadays. Now that I said that, I realize that my daughter follows in my footsteps but, like her dear old Mom, she too finds new jobs effortlessly. At the moment, she is enjoying the job that she does have and since she knows that this is the one she will keep until such time as she has a family, she has relaxed into it all, knowing it is not forever. Anyway, I digress....
In my meeting today with said financial whiz, she realized that I need to do what I am passionate about and finally she has relaxed, knowing that I am NOT like any of her other clients. I guess that is what helped so much today as she had continually wanted me to get a JOB, which is not what I do. I work at my passion which is the healing arts and writing. So, today was good.
I also actually went in to a store today and started to look at new furniture as I am going to be buying both bedroom and living room furniture and again, there was no concern about the outlay of cash for these items as, firstly, I will need them and secondly, I have the funds.
So looking forward and feeling like life is good.
Here's hoping your life is also going well.
Be well.
Tuesday, October 16, 2012
just nattering ..................
Went down to the gym in the building today and did it ever feel good. Don't know why I have been dissing my workouts since I came out here as I had always been a regular gym user. Perhaps my little body just needed a break from that routine as I set up new ones for myself. In any event, I know that I will be getting back into it on a regular basis again so that is good.
Went to a group today that was suggested to me when I ended up with an extreme anxiety episode coupled with depression. It is something set up for people to be able to share in a non-judgmental space and is so very helpful for people struggling with mood disorders. I realized when I first went that I was no where near the depressed states that so many of the other participants were in but I have kept it up as I thought I just should. But today made me realize that my time with those people is done.
I am an empath and therefore very susceptible to the energy of others and my heart just kept reaching out to every one of them as they shared their lives with the group. I felt so sorry for them and thanked the Gods that I am able to move beyond that state and get on with my life. I was almost embarassed when it came time for me to share as I have so much shifting in my own life and am excited about the possibilities around the corner.
I am also a group facilitator so find it hard not to be jumping in and giving my input, when there is another person who is learning to be a facilitator and she is so excited to be doing so. She is beaming and learning to accept herself, flaws and all, in this environment. She has been coming to the group sessions for years now and is now qualified to be a "peer support worker". It made me feel so very good watching her expand this past few weeks and I congratulated her, as did everyone else as she is coming out of her own shell and growing weekly. So, while I will not be going regularly, I think I will still sit in every so often as I do know that my sharings act as inspiration for others and it also makes me grateful for my state at present.
I got notice regarding my application for the Canada Pension Plan, as I am officially an old dudette...smile and the amount was surprising. Since I had not contributed for years, I didn't think it would be much but it is almost 3 times what I had figured so YEAH ME! Always nice to ensure a definite amount of money coming in as every little bit helps. Also going to be sitting down with my financial person to see about shifting money to a Registered Retirement Income Fund, thus ensuring more moolah filtering in regularly.
Each day lately, I find myself giving thanks and feeling positive vibrations coursing through my body. It appears that it is indeed true that sometimes we have to hit a hard place in our journey, in order for the good to start to surface.
Let the games begin...........
And you have an awesome evening.
Went to a group today that was suggested to me when I ended up with an extreme anxiety episode coupled with depression. It is something set up for people to be able to share in a non-judgmental space and is so very helpful for people struggling with mood disorders. I realized when I first went that I was no where near the depressed states that so many of the other participants were in but I have kept it up as I thought I just should. But today made me realize that my time with those people is done.
I am an empath and therefore very susceptible to the energy of others and my heart just kept reaching out to every one of them as they shared their lives with the group. I felt so sorry for them and thanked the Gods that I am able to move beyond that state and get on with my life. I was almost embarassed when it came time for me to share as I have so much shifting in my own life and am excited about the possibilities around the corner.
I am also a group facilitator so find it hard not to be jumping in and giving my input, when there is another person who is learning to be a facilitator and she is so excited to be doing so. She is beaming and learning to accept herself, flaws and all, in this environment. She has been coming to the group sessions for years now and is now qualified to be a "peer support worker". It made me feel so very good watching her expand this past few weeks and I congratulated her, as did everyone else as she is coming out of her own shell and growing weekly. So, while I will not be going regularly, I think I will still sit in every so often as I do know that my sharings act as inspiration for others and it also makes me grateful for my state at present.
I got notice regarding my application for the Canada Pension Plan, as I am officially an old dudette...smile and the amount was surprising. Since I had not contributed for years, I didn't think it would be much but it is almost 3 times what I had figured so YEAH ME! Always nice to ensure a definite amount of money coming in as every little bit helps. Also going to be sitting down with my financial person to see about shifting money to a Registered Retirement Income Fund, thus ensuring more moolah filtering in regularly.
Each day lately, I find myself giving thanks and feeling positive vibrations coursing through my body. It appears that it is indeed true that sometimes we have to hit a hard place in our journey, in order for the good to start to surface.
Let the games begin...........
And you have an awesome evening.
Monday, October 15, 2012
Balance point
For the past couple of days I have found it difficult to compose my thoughts, or even to let them flow for that matter, and so have missed a couple of days of writing this week. I know, it is not a RULE perse that a writer writes daily.........but as I wrote that I realize that yes, it is indeed a Rule if I am ever going to take my writing to the next level........you know...making a living at it....
I remember getting my first teeny tiny cheque for a submission of mine and feeling wonderful. Of course I let the ball drop, or perhaps got caught up in this life of mine in 3d. Anyway, for whatever reason, back then I started to led my writing slide until I found that I was not writing anything AT ALL. There is no way that I will allow that to happen, so I am giving you, out there in cyberspace, a part in ensuring that I remain diligent and disciplined in my quest to put words down daily....or up daily, or however it is when using this forum. If for some odd reason you don't see me here for an extended period of time, let me know you noticed and kick me in the butt.
I have made a decision however, with respect to my living arrangements. As I'm sure I've mentioned, I recently dissolved a partnership and, unfortunately, I had not really put a solid exit strategy in place. So, thank the Gods for friends, I have been housesitting a friend's home while she is on a European adventure. She returns on Thursday and I have been trying to decide where I would like to settle. It has really been the dilemma as I kept feeling the pull to my old neighbourhood - with the ocean, the park, people walking all around - but just not feeling the urge to physically go and find anything. Not that I was panicked about it all but I knew that I had to find something eventually and sooner, rather than later, to ensure my pal would have her space to herself.
So the decision is to move in with a friend who has also gone through her own separation and a huge transformation at the same time. I had originally thought of moving my stuff there until I found my own place and to that end, I helped her clear out the space so when I got it together, I could utilize the cleared space. However, she has just moved her bedroom downstairs to a NEW room that her and her uncle made. She laid tile and laminate flooring, painted,etc and is now ensconced in her new room and offered me the large bedroom UP stairs at a very reasonable cost monthly. Lots of space for both of us, room to offer my meditation circles once more, and breathing room.....for one and all.
This is not intended as a long term arrangement, but a chance to help her out with the prep work for our new healing space and a chance for me to continue coming into a place of balance in preparation for all that is coming in over the upcoming months.
So now that I have that little dilemma out of the way, a place to live, I can now focus on the work that I am meant to be doing AND writing of course....smile
Have an awesome day/night.
Saturday, October 13, 2012
Moving through personal angst
Been feeling a tad anxious the past few days so finding the urge to put down my thoughts here has been somewhat absent. I do not like to share my angst as I feel that I it shows that I am somehow weak or something. And like it or not, we do all have these moments...........right?
Have had a beautiful safe place to heal the past month or so and am extremely grateful for this safe harbour. My friend is returning from her trip to Europe this coming Thursday and while I know that she will not exactly kick me out, she will wish to have her place back to her self once more. And I do know that this is part of my problem at present. I need to get off my butt and find my new home. Been dragging my feet somewhat and that makes me angry with myself.
Interesting that last thought....my angst is directly related to how I feel about ME....who woulda thunk it, eh?
I know that it is time to move forward but there is this lovely cocoon that I have wrapped myself in since leaving my relationship and it feels like having to grow up and get on with my own life. WOW, I can feel this ache in my chest starting to dissolve with that thought. For it is indeed true, I am at a point in my life where big changes are once again coming in.
On my other blog, www.intuitiveinspiration.com, I have been writing a great deal about trusting in the process of life and, while the Spirit/higher self within me knows this to be the truth, this little human being that I also AM is struggling with that word trust.
Trusting has always come up for me to take a look at and while it stays with me most of the time, there are times when that little weaker part of me cries out for help. Help from who or what? I have assistance through friends but at the end of the day, it is anchoring into that Divine part of me that tends to slide.
It's funny that when others call to me for my brand of healing and insight, there is never an issue with trusting in the Divine energy that flows through me. BUT, when I need to anchor into it for ME, there is a sense that for some reason it won't be there. What's with that?
Why do I feel that I am only here to assist others on their individual journeys while thinking that I am somehow not worthy of this same assistance from Source? Don't worry, this is simply a rhetorical question but feel free to share your thoughts and insights if you so choose. I certainly do not have all the answers.
Here's something funny....or perhaps not, but I have been waiting for my Doctor to sign a form so that I could get into a program called Bounce Back. It is a program for people who have gone through an emotional upheaval or mental whack (smile) to help them get back on track. Of course, I have moved way past how I felt when all this turmoil hit but since someone had suggested this program, I thought "Why not?". If there is someone out there who could offer their brand of assistance, why not take advantage of it all. Well, she said that I am capable of doing this on my own, as is evidenced from how far I have come to this point and that other people needed this service more than I............I mean come on...I am being proactive in my healing journey and when services are being presented to me, why do I have to defer to someone who feels that since I am better I should let others who are in worse shape take advantage of it all. I know I am moving forward on my own but thought that this program would give me even more insight.
Now that I just wrote all that, it brings me back to growing up AGAIN and getting out there once more.
Well now, thank you for allowing me to rant. I feel Way better.
Have an awesome day wherever you are. Now that I have that out of my system, I plan to do the same.
Til later........
Have had a beautiful safe place to heal the past month or so and am extremely grateful for this safe harbour. My friend is returning from her trip to Europe this coming Thursday and while I know that she will not exactly kick me out, she will wish to have her place back to her self once more. And I do know that this is part of my problem at present. I need to get off my butt and find my new home. Been dragging my feet somewhat and that makes me angry with myself.
Interesting that last thought....my angst is directly related to how I feel about ME....who woulda thunk it, eh?
I know that it is time to move forward but there is this lovely cocoon that I have wrapped myself in since leaving my relationship and it feels like having to grow up and get on with my own life. WOW, I can feel this ache in my chest starting to dissolve with that thought. For it is indeed true, I am at a point in my life where big changes are once again coming in.
On my other blog, www.intuitiveinspiration.com, I have been writing a great deal about trusting in the process of life and, while the Spirit/higher self within me knows this to be the truth, this little human being that I also AM is struggling with that word trust.
Trusting has always come up for me to take a look at and while it stays with me most of the time, there are times when that little weaker part of me cries out for help. Help from who or what? I have assistance through friends but at the end of the day, it is anchoring into that Divine part of me that tends to slide.
It's funny that when others call to me for my brand of healing and insight, there is never an issue with trusting in the Divine energy that flows through me. BUT, when I need to anchor into it for ME, there is a sense that for some reason it won't be there. What's with that?
Why do I feel that I am only here to assist others on their individual journeys while thinking that I am somehow not worthy of this same assistance from Source? Don't worry, this is simply a rhetorical question but feel free to share your thoughts and insights if you so choose. I certainly do not have all the answers.
Here's something funny....or perhaps not, but I have been waiting for my Doctor to sign a form so that I could get into a program called Bounce Back. It is a program for people who have gone through an emotional upheaval or mental whack (smile) to help them get back on track. Of course, I have moved way past how I felt when all this turmoil hit but since someone had suggested this program, I thought "Why not?". If there is someone out there who could offer their brand of assistance, why not take advantage of it all. Well, she said that I am capable of doing this on my own, as is evidenced from how far I have come to this point and that other people needed this service more than I............I mean come on...I am being proactive in my healing journey and when services are being presented to me, why do I have to defer to someone who feels that since I am better I should let others who are in worse shape take advantage of it all. I know I am moving forward on my own but thought that this program would give me even more insight.
Now that I just wrote all that, it brings me back to growing up AGAIN and getting out there once more.
Well now, thank you for allowing me to rant. I feel Way better.
Have an awesome day wherever you are. Now that I have that out of my system, I plan to do the same.
Til later........
Thursday, October 11, 2012
Finding your place
Never did manage to post yesterday. Had good intentions but for some odd reason dropped the ball. Not that I was doing anything much but guess it just wasn't in the cards.
Did spend a couple of hours with a friend helping her clear out a lot of junk from a room that is destined to be a healing centre, hopefully sooner rather than later, hence my assisting with the cleaning out. This room/building is actually about 800 sq. ft. and sits on her property. Up to now, it has just been a repository for "stuff" and we hauled out lots of wood, gyproc, walls, doors....YUP, we did that.....and now it is sorted in different places, some to be hauled away, some to go to a recycling depot and some to be reused. A good couple of hours accomplishing something that she has been talking about for some time now.
I too have reason to want to help her out here as we are both healers and running workshops and classes out of this little space will be wonderful. Still lots of work to do but at least it is getting closer to being what the original intention was when she purchased the property. It is rather in the country and sits across from a beautiful little old church so lots of special energy swirling around.
Been feeling a tad anxious as I know that it is time for me to find a place of my own, as my friend is heading home next week. She asked if I had found a place yet so I know that she is going to want to have her place to her self sooner rather than later. I have been looking on line and will be going around the neighbourhoods that call to me and see if something jumps out. Wish me luck.
Has been a wonderful place for me to heal after all the angst these past few months and do feel blessed that I have been supported during this time.
I wish you blessings and support on your own journey.
Have a great day.
Did spend a couple of hours with a friend helping her clear out a lot of junk from a room that is destined to be a healing centre, hopefully sooner rather than later, hence my assisting with the cleaning out. This room/building is actually about 800 sq. ft. and sits on her property. Up to now, it has just been a repository for "stuff" and we hauled out lots of wood, gyproc, walls, doors....YUP, we did that.....and now it is sorted in different places, some to be hauled away, some to go to a recycling depot and some to be reused. A good couple of hours accomplishing something that she has been talking about for some time now.
I too have reason to want to help her out here as we are both healers and running workshops and classes out of this little space will be wonderful. Still lots of work to do but at least it is getting closer to being what the original intention was when she purchased the property. It is rather in the country and sits across from a beautiful little old church so lots of special energy swirling around.
Been feeling a tad anxious as I know that it is time for me to find a place of my own, as my friend is heading home next week. She asked if I had found a place yet so I know that she is going to want to have her place to her self sooner rather than later. I have been looking on line and will be going around the neighbourhoods that call to me and see if something jumps out. Wish me luck.
Has been a wonderful place for me to heal after all the angst these past few months and do feel blessed that I have been supported during this time.
I wish you blessings and support on your own journey.
Have a great day.
Tuesday, October 09, 2012
News for the Soul and anybody else out there...
WOW........am I ever feeling stoked... Just got off the phone from doing my first ever live webcast on News for the Soul and it was great.
I have no problem speaking with others and the hour simply flowed and when we had finished speaking, the host and I, the phone lines lit up and I got to give my own brand of intuitive insight for a number of callers' questions. Felt very in tune with it all and am very much looking forward to doing this every second Tuesday. For those of you who would like to check it out, go to www.newsforthesoul.com and have a listen. It is always streaming live and you can also archive any shows you might feel are calling to you...like perhaps...ahem....ME!.......grin
Had the most amazing Thanksgiving weekend ever this past weekend. Having my daughter and her guy here was great and lots of wonderful energies were shared, not only with them but with all the other wonderful Souls who shared parts of it all with us. Feeling so very blessed with life as it seems to be unfolding now.
I also got some answers as to the "whys" and "how comes" pertaining to the relationship status between my son, his wife and I. I get it...I truly do. My only issue with it all is that we haven't been able to move past the hurts and angst that we have all been going through. I know that I did some things to upset them and I take full responsibility for it all. Now to move past it and come to a place of trust and truth between us all. Wish us all luck.
I so miss being a part of my son's life and while I am very cognizant of the fact that he is not a kid anymore, he is my son and I miss him being a part of MY life. I am also aware of his need to distance himself from me, if for no other reason than that he feels like a "kid" when with his mother. I do not foster that sensation, at least not consciously but this is something he will have to come to grips with on his own.
I see what an amazing husband and father he is and see the love that shines all around the three of them when I see them. I just want to be able to get to know him as the adult that he is without him getting all weirded out whenever he feels that I am being too much MOM..........because face it sonny boy, I AM your mother, always have been and always will be..........Hey, I wonder if he reads this blog. I smile as I realize that it would certainly help if he did as I tend to talk about all my regular life issues here for all to see....including him if he so chooses.
Yup..life certainly is interesting and methinks it will always be so. So on with my day. Hope yours is full of love, laughter and joy.
Til later...................
I have no problem speaking with others and the hour simply flowed and when we had finished speaking, the host and I, the phone lines lit up and I got to give my own brand of intuitive insight for a number of callers' questions. Felt very in tune with it all and am very much looking forward to doing this every second Tuesday. For those of you who would like to check it out, go to www.newsforthesoul.com and have a listen. It is always streaming live and you can also archive any shows you might feel are calling to you...like perhaps...ahem....ME!.......grin
Had the most amazing Thanksgiving weekend ever this past weekend. Having my daughter and her guy here was great and lots of wonderful energies were shared, not only with them but with all the other wonderful Souls who shared parts of it all with us. Feeling so very blessed with life as it seems to be unfolding now.
I also got some answers as to the "whys" and "how comes" pertaining to the relationship status between my son, his wife and I. I get it...I truly do. My only issue with it all is that we haven't been able to move past the hurts and angst that we have all been going through. I know that I did some things to upset them and I take full responsibility for it all. Now to move past it and come to a place of trust and truth between us all. Wish us all luck.
I so miss being a part of my son's life and while I am very cognizant of the fact that he is not a kid anymore, he is my son and I miss him being a part of MY life. I am also aware of his need to distance himself from me, if for no other reason than that he feels like a "kid" when with his mother. I do not foster that sensation, at least not consciously but this is something he will have to come to grips with on his own.
I see what an amazing husband and father he is and see the love that shines all around the three of them when I see them. I just want to be able to get to know him as the adult that he is without him getting all weirded out whenever he feels that I am being too much MOM..........because face it sonny boy, I AM your mother, always have been and always will be..........Hey, I wonder if he reads this blog. I smile as I realize that it would certainly help if he did as I tend to talk about all my regular life issues here for all to see....including him if he so chooses.
Yup..life certainly is interesting and methinks it will always be so. So on with my day. Hope yours is full of love, laughter and joy.
Til later...................
Sunday, October 07, 2012
Roasting Turkey......hhhmmmmmmm
Waiting for the hungry hoards to descend on Momma Katrice. Vegetables are sitting in the pots waiting for the burners to be turned on. Potatoes already done and waiting to be warmed in the oven AND turkey is all stuffed and that familiar aroma is wafting all around.
The kids dropped off a whole whack of flowers so have vases filled everywhere. Feels like a Thanksgiving to be appreciative of all the simple things.
Turkey roasting in the oven. Family and friends coming to share in the bounty. Not much more you can ask for....at least not from where I am sitting at the moment. Was scrolling through Facebook this morning and wanted to share a comment that one person had left for another who was feeling a little less than thankful. He suggested the following be used as a mantra when feeling "low"
THIS MOMENT IS PERFECT AND PROBLEM FREE!
Now doesn't sound like a wonderful reality to inhabit. I am choosing to do so as I sign off quickly as the door is opening and voices are heard coming down the hall.
Have a marvelous evening.
We are all so very blessed and this moment IS perfect AND problem free.
The kids dropped off a whole whack of flowers so have vases filled everywhere. Feels like a Thanksgiving to be appreciative of all the simple things.
Turkey roasting in the oven. Family and friends coming to share in the bounty. Not much more you can ask for....at least not from where I am sitting at the moment. Was scrolling through Facebook this morning and wanted to share a comment that one person had left for another who was feeling a little less than thankful. He suggested the following be used as a mantra when feeling "low"
THIS MOMENT IS PERFECT AND PROBLEM FREE!
Now doesn't sound like a wonderful reality to inhabit. I am choosing to do so as I sign off quickly as the door is opening and voices are heard coming down the hall.
Have a marvelous evening.
We are all so very blessed and this moment IS perfect AND problem free.
Saturday, October 06, 2012
Musing on family - it's Thanksgiving and all...
Today I was thinking of what I am thank full for this Thanksgiving Weekend. And I keep coming back to the relationship my daughter and I are forging.
We have had many years worth of angst - my daughter and I - so to be in a place of acceptance and gratitude for the relationship as it is NOW, is definitely something to be thankful for. I am extra grateful for this, perhaps even more so, considering the "relationship" I currently have with her brother...but that's another story, one that I have been yapping about for quite some time now so I'll stop.
Back to daughter dearest. She is one of the most loving, caring, thoughtful people I know and having her and her wonderful guy here for the weekend is great. I shared with them that I woke up a tad anxious about having a big turkey dinner for a GROUP of people when I had originally thought I would just get a larger chicken and PRETEND it was a turkey..........smile. Ah, not going to happen! You see, she has invited her buds over so a GROUP it will be. Actually now that I think about it when she was young, she always had a group happening and was directing whatever the event was that day or evening. I don't remember being like that AT ALL but then again, she is she and I am ME. I just realized
Anyway, she reminded me of how many turkey dinners I have served in all my many years........cough......and I was fine. Some of these girls (young women) have been in my home many times over the years so having them all together with me, as the Matriarch, is special. It's funny but I am not feeling like her brother will be missed as much as we will have these other wonderful young men sharing our feelings of thanks for life as it is and it leaves me full. I am feeling waves of love wafting over to him as I write so it's all good. We are all blessed.
I have come a long way this past couple of months. I know that these changes are directly linked to the death of my father at the end of August. He and I had what I liked to call a "non-relationship" until I was in my 40's. Lots of discourse and then his sister passed away. She was a definite character and no way was I going to miss a celebration of HER life. At the service, a Piper started to play the pipes and my Dad burst into tears.
At the moment that his emotion got the better of him, I reached over and pulled him to my shoulder and he cried for about 5 minutes. Bear in mind that I had NEVER seen my cry... When he had shed all the tears necessary, all the years that we hadn't seen one another - about 4 at that time - dissolved and, as my husband used to say "Now he thinks the sun shines out of your Butt!" And it was true.
All of a sudden, he became nice to me. Smiling and basking in the realization that I was his daughter and he was my father. So now that he has gone, it is as if all the hurt and sadness that I have carried all these many years can now simply dissolve into the ethers and I can get on with the rest of my life. When I let his ashes go yesterday during our little family service, I just felt clear and free if I can even call it that but there is no other way to describe the sensation.
No more need to questions me and my thoughts. No more need to be sad or resentful as he is no longer here. No excuses anymore because it is now just me and I CAN let go. I chuckle as I remember the various times in my life that I have let EVERY thing go. Like just recently. I did it again and it is incredibly liberating. It is a tad different this time however in that I am not a young woman anymore, at least age wise if you are counting the number of years on this earth of ours. But I am young at heart and have a joyful spirit when I allow her out to play.....grin. Another chapter begins.
So there you have it - my musings for this day. When I originally sat down, my daughter, remember we started talking about her at the beginning of this discourse.....well she had been putting laundry from the washer into the dryer (one of those top and bottom things - condo living you know) and she went to stand up after reaching WAY down and WHACK! hit her head HARD on the bottom of the dryer. She actually burst into tears. She was really tired and I remember as a kid she would go and go and go and then just melt down, not unlike what she did just then. Her guy came and got a towel and some ice to put on it and made her lie down.......................Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
...and I still have a smile on my face.
Have a wonderful evening and a great day tomorrow. I might not post what with the whole group dinner thing going on but you never know. I might have something special to share. Wouldn't want to keep it all to myself, now would I?
We have had many years worth of angst - my daughter and I - so to be in a place of acceptance and gratitude for the relationship as it is NOW, is definitely something to be thankful for. I am extra grateful for this, perhaps even more so, considering the "relationship" I currently have with her brother...but that's another story, one that I have been yapping about for quite some time now so I'll stop.
Back to daughter dearest. She is one of the most loving, caring, thoughtful people I know and having her and her wonderful guy here for the weekend is great. I shared with them that I woke up a tad anxious about having a big turkey dinner for a GROUP of people when I had originally thought I would just get a larger chicken and PRETEND it was a turkey..........smile. Ah, not going to happen! You see, she has invited her buds over so a GROUP it will be. Actually now that I think about it when she was young, she always had a group happening and was directing whatever the event was that day or evening. I don't remember being like that AT ALL but then again, she is she and I am ME. I just realized
Anyway, she reminded me of how many turkey dinners I have served in all my many years........cough......and I was fine. Some of these girls (young women) have been in my home many times over the years so having them all together with me, as the Matriarch, is special. It's funny but I am not feeling like her brother will be missed as much as we will have these other wonderful young men sharing our feelings of thanks for life as it is and it leaves me full. I am feeling waves of love wafting over to him as I write so it's all good. We are all blessed.
I have come a long way this past couple of months. I know that these changes are directly linked to the death of my father at the end of August. He and I had what I liked to call a "non-relationship" until I was in my 40's. Lots of discourse and then his sister passed away. She was a definite character and no way was I going to miss a celebration of HER life. At the service, a Piper started to play the pipes and my Dad burst into tears.
At the moment that his emotion got the better of him, I reached over and pulled him to my shoulder and he cried for about 5 minutes. Bear in mind that I had NEVER seen my cry... When he had shed all the tears necessary, all the years that we hadn't seen one another - about 4 at that time - dissolved and, as my husband used to say "Now he thinks the sun shines out of your Butt!" And it was true.
All of a sudden, he became nice to me. Smiling and basking in the realization that I was his daughter and he was my father. So now that he has gone, it is as if all the hurt and sadness that I have carried all these many years can now simply dissolve into the ethers and I can get on with the rest of my life. When I let his ashes go yesterday during our little family service, I just felt clear and free if I can even call it that but there is no other way to describe the sensation.
No more need to questions me and my thoughts. No more need to be sad or resentful as he is no longer here. No excuses anymore because it is now just me and I CAN let go. I chuckle as I remember the various times in my life that I have let EVERY thing go. Like just recently. I did it again and it is incredibly liberating. It is a tad different this time however in that I am not a young woman anymore, at least age wise if you are counting the number of years on this earth of ours. But I am young at heart and have a joyful spirit when I allow her out to play.....grin. Another chapter begins.
So there you have it - my musings for this day. When I originally sat down, my daughter, remember we started talking about her at the beginning of this discourse.....well she had been putting laundry from the washer into the dryer (one of those top and bottom things - condo living you know) and she went to stand up after reaching WAY down and WHACK! hit her head HARD on the bottom of the dryer. She actually burst into tears. She was really tired and I remember as a kid she would go and go and go and then just melt down, not unlike what she did just then. Her guy came and got a towel and some ice to put on it and made her lie down.......................Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
...and I still have a smile on my face.
Have a wonderful evening and a great day tomorrow. I might not post what with the whole group dinner thing going on but you never know. I might have something special to share. Wouldn't want to keep it all to myself, now would I?
New Show coming with ME on the web...
Just a quick note here to let you all know I will be hosting a twice monthly live show on the web at www.newsforthesoul.com starting this coming Tuesday, October 9, 2012 from 1:00 to 2:00 p.m., Pacific Standard Time. We will be discussing all things intuitive and most probably doing mini readings for those of you who wish to call in. Should be fun and informative.
Would love to speak with you but know that even if you are not able to tune in live, all shows will be archived.
See you on the web................
Would love to speak with you but know that even if you are not able to tune in live, all shows will be archived.
See you on the web................
Friday, October 05, 2012
transitioning
So we did it. Sent dear old Dad off down the river...so to speak. We headed over to a part of the North Shore that he loves...........lots of trees, the canyon and rushing water.
The day was beautiful and my son did show up, complete with a Macpherson tartan kilt, in honour of dear old Dad/Granddad. He had a Guiness in his coffee cup and when we got to the perfect spot to send "Dad" on his way, he actually sang an Ode to Scotland, one that he knows from his time in the football/soccer stadium. My soon to be son in law got in on film so should be cool to see. We, my son, daughter and I, bent down to the stream and gently let "him" drift into the water and off he went.
Can't say exactly how I felt. But in the end it felt like it is was for Dad and not really for us. He loved that part of town and while his other half is still sitting here waiting for the planned trip to Scotland which is the other place he wishes to "rest", it felt like the place I chose was perfect. I also love this place. The trees breathe with you and the sun filters down as you wander through this wilderness so it will be nice to have a great memory of HIM, after all the others. Anyway, we all did it and I know it meant a lot to the kids.
I do know that I am still feeling detached from my son and when I said I wanted to see my granddaughter, he said that his wife will not allow this. Crazy state of affairs but you know what, I can not let it matter because it is her thing, not mine. My son did say he knows it won't be THAT long as he doesn't want his daughter looking at me down the road and going "who is this Daddy?" Little does he know that she probably won't remember me even after this few months but c'est la vie..... I am simply going to tune in with her from afar and have that be enough. My daughter will be going over to see them while here so will be sure to bring me pictures as they grow up so quickly these first years.
Don't be sad for me please. This is something that the Universe has decided I need to learn along with all the other turmoil that has transpired. Just send good loving energy around the whole scenario. I know that is what I am doing. I am feeling strong and know I will get through it, just as I manage to get through everything else that has challenged me during my sojourn on this plain.
After it all I came home and planted pots and pots of winter pansies so it is a riot of yellow and purple out there. Felt good to get dirt under my nails and brighten up the deck. Brings me closer to what is real.
Have a wonderful Friday night.
The day was beautiful and my son did show up, complete with a Macpherson tartan kilt, in honour of dear old Dad/Granddad. He had a Guiness in his coffee cup and when we got to the perfect spot to send "Dad" on his way, he actually sang an Ode to Scotland, one that he knows from his time in the football/soccer stadium. My soon to be son in law got in on film so should be cool to see. We, my son, daughter and I, bent down to the stream and gently let "him" drift into the water and off he went.
Can't say exactly how I felt. But in the end it felt like it is was for Dad and not really for us. He loved that part of town and while his other half is still sitting here waiting for the planned trip to Scotland which is the other place he wishes to "rest", it felt like the place I chose was perfect. I also love this place. The trees breathe with you and the sun filters down as you wander through this wilderness so it will be nice to have a great memory of HIM, after all the others. Anyway, we all did it and I know it meant a lot to the kids.
I do know that I am still feeling detached from my son and when I said I wanted to see my granddaughter, he said that his wife will not allow this. Crazy state of affairs but you know what, I can not let it matter because it is her thing, not mine. My son did say he knows it won't be THAT long as he doesn't want his daughter looking at me down the road and going "who is this Daddy?" Little does he know that she probably won't remember me even after this few months but c'est la vie..... I am simply going to tune in with her from afar and have that be enough. My daughter will be going over to see them while here so will be sure to bring me pictures as they grow up so quickly these first years.
Don't be sad for me please. This is something that the Universe has decided I need to learn along with all the other turmoil that has transpired. Just send good loving energy around the whole scenario. I know that is what I am doing. I am feeling strong and know I will get through it, just as I manage to get through everything else that has challenged me during my sojourn on this plain.
After it all I came home and planted pots and pots of winter pansies so it is a riot of yellow and purple out there. Felt good to get dirt under my nails and brighten up the deck. Brings me closer to what is real.
Have a wonderful Friday night.
Thursday, October 04, 2012
Being ready for anything
I was talking with a friend this afternoon and was mentioning that I had a bit of anxiety swirling around within. As most of you already know I have been dealing with this for most of my life but have finally bitten the bullet and am dealing with it. I have been very cognizant of my emotions and "feelings" of late so was a tad confused to be feeling these feelings again.
Well, lo and behold, she goes off on this tangent about how this coming weekend is going to rife with discord, according to the planets and one of the astrology sites she frequents. Also one of the main issues is going to be with relationships, particularly family. I chuckle as tomorrow my kids and I are going to be spreading my father's ashes. Not that this is a funny thing but the fact that we have chosen this weekend, being Thanksgiving weekend for those of us in Canada, is interesting to say the least.
Plus it will be the first time in over 2 months that I have seen my son, after only having a very brief conversation with him last month. Methinks that whether I am aware of it or not, my "little" self is a tad apprehensive about it all.
Anyway, keeping this short and sweet as my daughter just called and SHE is arriving from out of town to stay for the weekend..........another chuckle..........should be interesting. She is coming from Alberta and seems to have made it here in less than 10 hours when the average is 12. Her boyfriend was hollering out to me from the passengers seat "get me out of here. your daughter drives like a maniac".
As I sit here chuckling, with the full realization that ANYTHING could happen, I do know that I am looking forward to whatever transpires. Bring it on.
Have an awesome weekend wherever you are and be sure to give thanks for any and all experiences that may crop up. You can handle them.
Well, lo and behold, she goes off on this tangent about how this coming weekend is going to rife with discord, according to the planets and one of the astrology sites she frequents. Also one of the main issues is going to be with relationships, particularly family. I chuckle as tomorrow my kids and I are going to be spreading my father's ashes. Not that this is a funny thing but the fact that we have chosen this weekend, being Thanksgiving weekend for those of us in Canada, is interesting to say the least.
Plus it will be the first time in over 2 months that I have seen my son, after only having a very brief conversation with him last month. Methinks that whether I am aware of it or not, my "little" self is a tad apprehensive about it all.
Anyway, keeping this short and sweet as my daughter just called and SHE is arriving from out of town to stay for the weekend..........another chuckle..........should be interesting. She is coming from Alberta and seems to have made it here in less than 10 hours when the average is 12. Her boyfriend was hollering out to me from the passengers seat "get me out of here. your daughter drives like a maniac".
As I sit here chuckling, with the full realization that ANYTHING could happen, I do know that I am looking forward to whatever transpires. Bring it on.
Have an awesome weekend wherever you are and be sure to give thanks for any and all experiences that may crop up. You can handle them.
Wednesday, October 03, 2012
Know thy Self
I have a number of divination decks which I use both in my Intuitive Readings and for me, as a focus for my day. After posting my other blog this morning on my website, I pulled one of my Soul cards and smiled. The card I pulled reflected exactly what my daily message was from earlier. I love how that happens.
What was the message you may ask? Well, let me share.
The message was that we are all connected to the Divine however, many times we lose sight of this connection......thinking we are all alone. I had shared that sometimes it is as easy as simply reaching for the stars and knowing, in your heart, that there is always assistance available if we would only remember to ask for it.
One of the gentlemen in a group that I attend had been sharing that he had been having this horrible ongoing dream for the past 10 days or so and he was exhausted.......almost afraid to go to sleep, for fear that the same dream would once again come to "haunt" him. After our group, I asked what the main points were in this dream that frightened him. He shared them with me and I said that I would call him today and share what I "intuited" from what he told me.
He had an idea as to what I do, as I had shared it with them all in the group, but I shared it again just to be sure he understood where I was coming from. I then suggested he take my thoughts with a grain of salt and if it resonated, great. Well, I could almost feel this huge smile spreading across his face. His voice became more animated and he said that while he had NEVER thought of my insights, he admitted that YES, it made sense. He also shared an idea he has had for years and we have decided to get together to discuss it further sometime next week. I told him that I didn't think he, or his idea, was weird and he was so VERY VERY grateful. You see, he comes from a very ordered background with some pretty strange aspects to it all so having ME to share his thoughts has given him something new and exciting to work with.
I am sharing this particular story because I had considered not going to this group as I know that I am at a completely different place in my "spiritual growth" than most of them. At the same time, I understand that Spirit has once again offered me an opportunity to be of service as they, in turn, whether they realize it or not, are of service to me.
I had been questioning the work that I have been called to do all these years, as I had had such a harsh past couple of years. I was feeling that perhaps I shouldn't be doing my "soul coaching|" if you will but the reality of it all is that YES, this is my calling. It has always been my calling and I had simply not been listening to the voice of spirit, as I tried to do what everyone else does. You know, be the same..........argh!!
So again, another good day with more understanding of me and, at the end of the day, if we can't understand our Self, who else can?
So go ahead. Introduce you to YOU......I just did.
Have an awesome evening.
Namaste
What was the message you may ask? Well, let me share.
The message was that we are all connected to the Divine however, many times we lose sight of this connection......thinking we are all alone. I had shared that sometimes it is as easy as simply reaching for the stars and knowing, in your heart, that there is always assistance available if we would only remember to ask for it.
One of the gentlemen in a group that I attend had been sharing that he had been having this horrible ongoing dream for the past 10 days or so and he was exhausted.......almost afraid to go to sleep, for fear that the same dream would once again come to "haunt" him. After our group, I asked what the main points were in this dream that frightened him. He shared them with me and I said that I would call him today and share what I "intuited" from what he told me.
He had an idea as to what I do, as I had shared it with them all in the group, but I shared it again just to be sure he understood where I was coming from. I then suggested he take my thoughts with a grain of salt and if it resonated, great. Well, I could almost feel this huge smile spreading across his face. His voice became more animated and he said that while he had NEVER thought of my insights, he admitted that YES, it made sense. He also shared an idea he has had for years and we have decided to get together to discuss it further sometime next week. I told him that I didn't think he, or his idea, was weird and he was so VERY VERY grateful. You see, he comes from a very ordered background with some pretty strange aspects to it all so having ME to share his thoughts has given him something new and exciting to work with.
I am sharing this particular story because I had considered not going to this group as I know that I am at a completely different place in my "spiritual growth" than most of them. At the same time, I understand that Spirit has once again offered me an opportunity to be of service as they, in turn, whether they realize it or not, are of service to me.
I had been questioning the work that I have been called to do all these years, as I had had such a harsh past couple of years. I was feeling that perhaps I shouldn't be doing my "soul coaching|" if you will but the reality of it all is that YES, this is my calling. It has always been my calling and I had simply not been listening to the voice of spirit, as I tried to do what everyone else does. You know, be the same..........argh!!
So again, another good day with more understanding of me and, at the end of the day, if we can't understand our Self, who else can?
So go ahead. Introduce you to YOU......I just did.
Have an awesome evening.
Namaste
Tuesday, October 02, 2012
Paying attention and finding your flow
I must do what I do and I am so very happy that I have finally admitted that there is nothing that I would rather do - than what I do. It is a varied set of things - that which I do. And it all involves my cooperation with Spirit. Trusting Spirit and having Faith which in turns entails trusting my Self to allow the machinations of Spirit in my life. I realize that I am a vessel through which Spirit flows, in whatever way IT chooses.
When I was younger I remember trying to figure out what this "IT" is that we all talk about. You know - things like.....IT will be fine....or I get IT. What is this IT?
I thought up things like Inner Thoughts, Independent Thinking, Idle Thoughts and you know what?
They are all right. What we are talking about when we get "IT" is divine understanding as to the workings of the mind, both conscious and unconscious, so that all that we desire can come to us. And it will - if we truly trust in the divine rightness of all exactly as it is. So back to what I do..........got off on a tangent there........sorry...
One of those things is write. I always have so much going on in my head that it is in the putting down of it all - I was going to say "on paper" - that I allow myself the courtesy of paying attention. When one is in the flow of life, it moves relatively smoothly with moderate ups and downs as we manoeuver through it all, trusting that we are moving in the right direction. Sometimes we think that this detour or that detour is o.k., even when it doesn't feel anywhere remotely connected to "o.k.". nd that is when we are NOT paying attention.
The reason for this particular discourse is the realization that I am feeling so much better these past few days as I have been setting definite times to write. I have even started to write long hand again as I sit with my coffee and write in my journal. I like to call this my "check in with me time" so that I can work out any potential items that may cause me to get anxious or stressed. And it is working very well as I do find that there are times in the morning when I wake up and do feel stressed. And this is not a nice way to start the day.
So this journal has become my friend. There is no rush. I don't stress about how much I write, just that I get something down and it is generally saying how I feel in the moment. I write until I feel that it is complete...at least in that genre and then I can get on with my day. It has helped me slow down as I found that I was trying to write fast which made my writing almost unintelligible. So now I relax over my coffee and write anything that comes to me. Not unlike what I write here but just not so much....smile Of course typing is WAY faster.
I have also started to attend a group of Souls who are trying to deal with their own variations of "trust" in that they are finding themselves and attempting to move forward. In fact, we are all going through life together, are we not.....it's just that we are all at different forks in the road. Anyway, this was my 3rd time, it was on a different day than usual and the group was WAY larger. As usual I didn't feel that I fit in with this particular group but still I went.
It is one of those groups where people are encouraged to share their feelings and how they are doing. Never been a problem for me until lately. So here I am, sitting there, listening to these other Souls sharing how they are doing and it made my heart ache. Sure I have been through my own brand of - how to say this - CRAP but I was most definitely the most UP person there. At the break I spoke with 3 separate people who came up TO ME. At the end two more said that they wanted to speak with me about things. So that brings me to the other thing that I do which is assist people on their journeys. Officially I do Energy healings and Intuitive Readings but I like to think that I am a vessel through which Spirit flows, allowing me to help through my own unique intuitive hits.
So there I sat, in a group that I had considered skipping, realizing that I have a definite purpose in the group. Spirit has put me there to inspire and hopefully assist others in getting to a place where they are trusting in Spirit and doing what they have been given to do, by that same Spirit. It doesn't matter what IT is, but once you find your own IT, you can go and do IT and that feels wonderful.
So pay attention. Find your Flow and go with IT.
As Goethe says "There is strength, power and magic in IT".
I rest my case.
Namaste
When I was younger I remember trying to figure out what this "IT" is that we all talk about. You know - things like.....IT will be fine....or I get IT. What is this IT?
I thought up things like Inner Thoughts, Independent Thinking, Idle Thoughts and you know what?
They are all right. What we are talking about when we get "IT" is divine understanding as to the workings of the mind, both conscious and unconscious, so that all that we desire can come to us. And it will - if we truly trust in the divine rightness of all exactly as it is. So back to what I do..........got off on a tangent there........sorry...
One of those things is write. I always have so much going on in my head that it is in the putting down of it all - I was going to say "on paper" - that I allow myself the courtesy of paying attention. When one is in the flow of life, it moves relatively smoothly with moderate ups and downs as we manoeuver through it all, trusting that we are moving in the right direction. Sometimes we think that this detour or that detour is o.k., even when it doesn't feel anywhere remotely connected to "o.k.". nd that is when we are NOT paying attention.
The reason for this particular discourse is the realization that I am feeling so much better these past few days as I have been setting definite times to write. I have even started to write long hand again as I sit with my coffee and write in my journal. I like to call this my "check in with me time" so that I can work out any potential items that may cause me to get anxious or stressed. And it is working very well as I do find that there are times in the morning when I wake up and do feel stressed. And this is not a nice way to start the day.
So this journal has become my friend. There is no rush. I don't stress about how much I write, just that I get something down and it is generally saying how I feel in the moment. I write until I feel that it is complete...at least in that genre and then I can get on with my day. It has helped me slow down as I found that I was trying to write fast which made my writing almost unintelligible. So now I relax over my coffee and write anything that comes to me. Not unlike what I write here but just not so much....smile Of course typing is WAY faster.
I have also started to attend a group of Souls who are trying to deal with their own variations of "trust" in that they are finding themselves and attempting to move forward. In fact, we are all going through life together, are we not.....it's just that we are all at different forks in the road. Anyway, this was my 3rd time, it was on a different day than usual and the group was WAY larger. As usual I didn't feel that I fit in with this particular group but still I went.
It is one of those groups where people are encouraged to share their feelings and how they are doing. Never been a problem for me until lately. So here I am, sitting there, listening to these other Souls sharing how they are doing and it made my heart ache. Sure I have been through my own brand of - how to say this - CRAP but I was most definitely the most UP person there. At the break I spoke with 3 separate people who came up TO ME. At the end two more said that they wanted to speak with me about things. So that brings me to the other thing that I do which is assist people on their journeys. Officially I do Energy healings and Intuitive Readings but I like to think that I am a vessel through which Spirit flows, allowing me to help through my own unique intuitive hits.
So there I sat, in a group that I had considered skipping, realizing that I have a definite purpose in the group. Spirit has put me there to inspire and hopefully assist others in getting to a place where they are trusting in Spirit and doing what they have been given to do, by that same Spirit. It doesn't matter what IT is, but once you find your own IT, you can go and do IT and that feels wonderful.
So pay attention. Find your Flow and go with IT.
As Goethe says "There is strength, power and magic in IT".
I rest my case.
Namaste
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