New Years Eve

So it's here!  The end of the year 2012.  Someone asked me the other day "What was the biggest lesson you learned in 2012?"  I thought "where to begin."  And then I realized that while many things had occurred in my life this past year that were perhaps "less than stellar", I could not put my finger on the one biggest lesson learned.  So now here I sit on New Years Eve pondering this very question.

And at the end of the day, it is a very good question to be pondering prior to setting any intentions for the coming year of 2013.  I look at the "13" in the coming year and wonder......hmmmmm, but then again I have been indulging in some vampiric "novels" of late for brain relief. 

In any event, I had decided weeks ago that I would like to spend New Year's Eve celebrating ME.  Not that I've done anything incredible but simply that I chose to step out of the old world and take a leap of faith that I would survive.

And yes, I have survived.  I also realized that I do indeed have some pretty good friends who have helped me out considerably since the "shift", as I like to call it.  Just prepared and shared a totally awesome New Year's Eve dinner prepared by me.  The housemate said she wanted a certain meal and voila - lucky for her - I was in the mood to create something wonderful.  I felt that this dinner was some sort of gift to all of us who currently share this home.

I have so much that I plan on writing this evening and it fills me with joy.  I realized today that never in my life have I moved in ANYWHERE, on my own.  I have most definitely lived on my own but always when a move occurred I would have either been moving in with roommates or with a boyfriend/husband.  In four days I will be moving in to a housesit situation on my own and I am really looking forward to the solitude. 

Will be in a much more urban area with lots of "alternative" types wandering around and am wondering how that is going to feel for me.  My last city home had a different demographic so will be interesting to see how it feels wandering around the new "hood".  And I do love wandering around.  A few years ago I had a friend that I called my "wandering around friend" because it seemed that the only time we spent together was when we both had errands to run and would walk around for hours going to one shop after another.  But now I'm rambling.....

So, back to lessons learned.....

For me it seems to have been a lesson in learning to trust in the messages from my heart instead of listening to my "ego" or human self.  I think back to various situations where I distinctly remember saying "this doesn't FEEL right" yet still, I went ahead and did it.  From now on I will listen with my heart, not with my head, as what I think I need isn't generally what is right for my heart and soul.  Funny how that works eh?

So what did you learn from this year of 2012?  Let's hope it will serve you in good stead in the years to come.  I am certainly intending this coming year of 2013 to be as wonderful as I can create it.

Blessings to you all on this turning of the year.

Namaste