Amelia Bedelia

Amelia Bedelia is what I call my granddaughter and I just got back from seeing her.  She is rather clingy these days but then again, she doesn't see me that often.  She knows she has seen me before and even though she hears "that's Grandma" it is still confusing.  I realize also that my daughter in law speaks Spanish to Amelia, as does the rest of her family so hearing English associated with grandma seems foreign to her.

Anyway, I got to play with her and dance and really, at the end of the day I could simply just sit there for hours and watch her explore life in 3d.  I do feel that she and I connect on a much deeper level as we can sit and look at one another for long stretches and just smile.  Ahhhhhhhhhhh, feels good.

Plus dear old Dad (remember he is 92) got to sit there and watch in awe as he wraps his head around the fact that this is his GREAT granddaughter.  He is getting very frail and I realize that these times are going to be getting fewer and far between.  He just can't handle getting out of the "home" lately as it seems so big and fast after living the past 4 years in a care centre.  I know he wants so very badly to go out on excursions but it just zaps his strength.  But, at least he got to see his little "lulu" as he calls her.

This trying to make everyone stay connected is really getting to be tiring.  As much as I wish my son would pick up the slack and go and see his Grandfather once in a while, my wishing it to be so doesn't make it come into reality any quicker.   Not to mention perhaps taking his daughter over for even 1/2 hour visits - Dad wouldn't even have to go anywhere other than the patio overlooking the river.......I mean how hard it that?  Pssssft.........Hello, my desires don't seem to resonate with my son so one of these days I am going to forget trying to make things other than they are.  Hmmmm, we can't change the past, no use in "worrying" about the future..........there is only the present and THAT is what we get to work with.

Yesterday I started laughing as I realized that there is still one way to get things to "shift" and it is of course not what "normal" would think of but then again.....WHAT IS NORMAL anyway?

I receive messages from Spirit that are more thought forms than pictures of words per se....Anyway my son has mentioned that his Dad (who passed away about 5 years ago) comes to him in dreamstate so in my infinite wisdom I realized that I may as well just tune in to my ex husband and ask HIM to nudge his son a tad and see if HE can give me some help in the here and now.  Not only will he be helping me but he will also be helping his EX (the friend of mine) and his daughter.  Wish me luck.  I tuned in quickly, or should I say put some energetic feelers out in to the Universe yesterday letting him know that I will be connecting for a "little psychic chit chat" soon.  Smile.

I had written an email to my daughter in law expressing my hurt at her not returning phone calls so that I can make arrangements to get over to see Amelia and she "reprimanded" me.  She does like to try to take the upper hand with me.  Like there is some sort of power struggle going on or something.  I said she wouldn't receive emails if she would just return a phone call.  One unreturned call is acceptable but FOUR days in a row just smacks of complete and utter distain and/or disrespect.  I apologized if she felt taken aback from my message however at least now she can perhaps understand how I feel.  In any event, she asked if Fridays would work for me to come and visit EVERY WEEK.  Hmmmmmm.....  Methinks the tides may turn yet...

Have a wonderful weekend everyone and pray for sun and warm weather as it is the Canada Day Long weekend up here in Canada.  I presume that the Fourth of July will somehow become a long weekend for you in the States as well.

Be good to your Selves............YOU deserve it.

Blessings abound.