Well it appears that all the stress that has been swirling around me the past few years has finally caught up to me. My blood pressure has gone up to the point that I am now being prescribed high blood pressure medication. The pharmacist at the drug store where I test my blood pressure told me that I had to either go directly to the hospital or to my doctors office, which I did.
My guy deals with things in a completely different way than I do and this is also causing me a fair amount of stress. He can't understand why I can't just let it all go and tell those who are causing me stress to f**k off but when it is family, it brings a whole other dynamic into the mix.
I just can not do that. I keep wanting to find the reason for the discordance but when the others in the mix are not ready to talk, I am left with my thoughts or, as I have been doing of late, trying to make it "feel" better. At the end of the day, obviously trying to distance myself from it all is NOT working either so here I sit....feeling weak and powerless over the energies that are running rampant through my little body.
I have things I should be doing but I just want to lie down and sleep....not my regular mode of operation. Sitting in meditation, which is my next step will be very helpful and that is what I am going to do.
May your day be filled with love, laughter and joy.
Namaste
Thursday, August 23, 2012
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