Moving, granddaughters and flowing within it all

Well, I'm back.  Been so NOT into writing lately and it certainly isn't due to lack of time - of that I have plenty.  Been pondering the lack of desire to create for the past couple of weeks and I finally realized what it has been about.

For those of you who may be here for the first time, the past year was incredibly taxing on a number of different levels.  I jokingly said to someone the other day that I am still standing...and laughing again.  Sure was smacked down pretty good for a while there but am back out into the world and just found myself a new apartment.  Also looking for a real job so, couple the job hunt with the apartment hunt and I now realize where my focus has been this past little while.

I had moved out into the Rural zone for a few months and got back into the city a month ago in a housesitting situation.  While living out "there" I wrote daily but it was WAY out there so there certainly weren't  many distractions.  All I had to focus on was writing, going to the gym and looking after myself as I tried to figure out what was next.

So here I am in the "next" phase and there is way more energy all around me.  The tenant of this house will be back in one month and I knew I would have to find a new space by then or it was moving WAY OUT THERE again - and that I didn't want to do.  And let me tell you it is rather stressful looking for a suitable space in the area I wanted to be for a reasonable price, not to mention I don't have a regular job......smile  But what the heck I once managed to get a mortgage as a single Mom with 2 kids without any credible income then either - I worked at a number of my own ventures but obviously the guy who came out to interview me got it.  Got the fact that I would have no problem paying a mortgage I mean.  And while this is a lot of years later that confidence must still shine through.  Still it was a little nagging thought in my head.  But that wasn't the worst of it. 

The worst was looking at one place after another and realizing that the prices were stupid high for little blah apartments, and most without balconies.  And I know that I have to be able to go "out" even if it is on a slab of cement attached to a building.  I had my mind set on a limit to what I was willing to fork out monthly and had almost thought I would have to go up, which in turn would up the stress level.  But as luck would have it I found the sweetest little space for $20.00 under my limit.

When I went to sign the lease the building manager handed me a note which he gives to each new tenant.  Turns out that he screens thoroughly exactly who he will even take an application from and it appears that I won.  The building is squeaky clean and obviously very well taken care of.  The laundry room is even so nice that if I wanted, I could sit on a comfy chair with my coffee and read an assortment of up to date magazines that he provides for us - his tenants. So life is shifting in wonderful ways.

And then today when I started checking various internet and cable providers today I managed to get the services I want AND they happened to have a promotion on this month that when you get a bundle you receive a 40" flat screen HD TV for FREE.  Schweet!  Moving along great.  That is one less thing I need to concern myself with - hadn't even thought of getting a TV but hey they are GIVING them away......grin.  So now I know that will find the perfect furniture at the perfect price too.  So great to be back in the world and seeing it moving with me....

My daughter in law and I have started to mend our mutual fences and I have seen my granddaughter twice in one week.  I had been worried my granddaughter wouldn't even remember me since she was just one year old when I last saw her.  She is now 20 months but when she first saw me again, I got a big smile and throughout the time we were all in the same room she played with me AND even came up and gave me a kiss.  I was so excited and since this was a birthday dinner for me, it was the best present EVER.

My daughter in law and granddaughter were over to my place the other day and I had so much fun and THIS time she kept calling "grandma" and I got more kisses and hugs, even from my daughter in law.  Heading out in a few moments to go and search out second hand stores for dress up things - she loves shoes and hats - so she can have a chest full of inspiration.  Oh yeah and ROCKS...aka crystals.  She loves rocks.  I have lots of crystals laying around and she calls them rocks so will also start her on her own collection soon.  I forgot how much energy a toddler has and managed to keep up with all the shifting focus even playing a bunch of percussion instruments.....sure glad that no one else was in the house as it certainly was "tuneful"...smile.

O.K. I feel better.  While it was not exactly uber creative, I did write today.  I don't know why I stall at it when I ALWAYS feel better and I get a firmer grip on my world while doing so.

Thanks for reading...

Have a good one...