Musings on life's transitions

I am always amazed that, amidst the daily trials and tribulations that make up my life, I neglect one of the most important pieces of my life.  That would be writing or blogging as we call it here in Webville.  Some people ask me how I can sit down here and just go on about the issues, challenges, joys that I question and I say "I need to share if only with myself and I figure if something I share sparks a flame within you, leading you to discover more of who and what YOU are, well I can't NOT do it."  So here we go with the current revelation that my particular spark fanned into the flame that feels like the proverbial Phoenix rising...

After finding myself in the worst energy EVER, I realized that I was simply pushing myself to do what I thought I had to do or, more importantly, what OTHERS thought I should do.....that being a job in an office.  ARGH...  While I am sure that I would be just fine handling it, I know, in my heart, that it is not what I am meant to be doing and I would lose myself....AGAIN.

Back in the summer I chose to register for the Body, Soul and Spirit EXPO here in Vancouver to exhibit ME and say to the world "THIS is who I AM".  For those of you who may not know what these EXPOs are.....it is a group of exhibitors devoted to all things spiritual, intuitive and healing.  I remember at the time feeling quite leary concerning the initial monetary output to secure my booth while, at the same time, feeling a jolt of excitement at actually DOING it.  And what ls IT?  IT is doing Intuitive Readings.   This is certainly one of my special gifts.   My gift however had been pushed to the background while I went through one of those life transitions that is the subject of this particular offering.

So back to the money outlay.....I had not been actually making an income for quite some time and feeling quite overwhelmed by it all knowing the only reason I wasn't making an income was because I had not been actively seeking an income.  I had some money and knew that I was not going to starve but my pile of it was sure going down weekly. 

I bit the bullet and started perusing jobs on line.  I have some skills and am a whiz bang keyboardists but every time I sent off my Resume I got a weird feeling in my stomach.  One was that no one would respond or, on the other side of the coin, I would actually be offered a job.  Anyway I had been spending my time doing on line tutorials for different office programs and feeling worse and worse about it all.  FINALLY my stomach got really bad and I, how to put this???....was releasing amazing amounts of "s*it" on a daily basis.   And of course it all came to a head the week of the EXPO. 

I HAD to go but I felt awful.  So, as I am able to do, I did myself up so that I at least looked good and off we went to set up our booth and start the experience.  As the 3 day event unfolded I found myself doing a complete turnaround so that by the end of the EXPO, not only had I a made money....YEAH ME!!....but I had finally anchored back into who and what I AM.  Client after client expressed amazement at my gift and for the first time in a very VERY long time, I felt that same amazement within me for this gift that is my life.

I feel like I am finally getting back into the flow of my life as it is destined to be with a few changes thrown in for good measure.  One of these changes is partnering with a small group of healing practitioners and forming a new "collective".  This has all come about in the past two weeks and today I have two Meditation circles coming up, a couple of Saturdays offering collective services as well as a few workshops and women's groups in preparatory mode.  We also birthed a new website last night which I will share once we are officially ready to unveil it to the world.

I, writer that I am, just sent off copy for both our Home Page and a handout which will leave with our participants at the Meditation for the Full Moon on Sunday night.  Interesting that now that the writing is calling to me once again, everything else seems to be moving in the right direction.  Or is it that now that I am allowing myself to embrace the flow that is my life, the writing can now once more emerge, clearer and engaged.

Life is so good when I just let it BE and it appears to be calling to me from my Soul!

Namaste